This is for you Olivia. You know who you are.

Do I love you or do I hate you?
Do I want you or do I need you?
Will I win or will I lose?
Will you be there for me or vanish into the world?

Will this coffee fuel my memories of you?
Will this liquor kill my pain away when I think about you?
Will this music drown out the echoes of your memories?
Do I say yes to you or do I just let you go?

Burning these bridges between us was necessary. These ideas were no longer valid. The stars between us were obsolete. The sun was setting the same. The moon couldn't shine as bright as before.

You don't care, do you?
I wish you cared, for I always did.

You were the only thing I've seen.
You were slowly killing me.

I wish you noticed me more.
I wish you kissed me more.
I wish you sang to me more.
I wish I didn't hate you.
I wish you told me I was your favorite.
I wish you weren't so complicated.
I wish you didn't lie to each me
I wish I wasn't so empty inside.
I wish you didn't hurt me.
I wish you weren't cruel
I wish that you didn't leave.
I wish that I still loved you.

What happens now?
Was it all in my head?

Amor