August 22, 6:23 pm.

Today's Sunday and I spent the whole day in my room the curtains closed. Do you know that moment when you suddenly feel like something's gonna go wrong? It's happening. I just got sad out of the blue. It used to happen occasionally, but since Cameron came in my life, it stopped happening for a while. I hope so damn much these feelings don't come back to like they were just when you had left me. It's just all a big mess of feelings - sadness, worry, despair. Everything and nothing all at once.