So idk what it is exactly, but I have this thing where I hate to disappoint people and really get depressed when I do, especially when I personally think I'm doing well. Like my mind goes super dark whenever I get yelled at for something and ik it's irrational, but like idk I can't seem to break out of this habit... I think I've heard it called something before, but can't remember exactly what it was.

update: I think it's called toxic empathy??