I waited outside the gate looking for a taxi, why was it so freaking hard to find a taxi when you needed it the most?

Everyone passing by would just look at me weirdly because for some reason I couldn't stop crying, I just wish I could get a taxi and leave!

Out of nowhere, I felt someone grab my hand and pull me back, I turned around almost ready to punch whoever it was but when I looked, it was Arnav.

He pulled me back inside the gate and kept on pulling me until we were in the small garden outside the apartments.

"So what, you thought you would come here, tell me you did me a favor and leave?" He looked at me angrily.

Seriously Arnav?

"Shona do you really think that whatever crap you just said to me would change how I feel? If nothing, it's just made me angrier at you!" He shouted.

I mean I should have had something to say back to him, or do something or get mad too but all I could think of was that he finally addressed me as Shona and not Khushi, I swear I had missed him calling me that, it kind of gave my heart a little bit of peace.

"You said everything you had to and I listened, and I still don't know what to do. You think I would think you did me a favor by accepting help for my parents? What if I dint want the help Khushi? You were right, I'd prefer living on the streets than getting any help from them, I don't care if they regret it, the fact remains that they dint trust me when I was assaulted, they dint believe what their own child said to them and I would never forgive them for it, no matter what they do."

"Arnie, I never asked you to forgive them."

"Please don't... don't call me Arnie, hearing you call me that breaks my heart more. How do I make you understand this Khushi? Look at me, you were with me always, you witnessed everything that happened to me in the past, you were right you stood by me through thick and thin and when a person like you, the one that was so important to me betrays me, it doesn't just break my heart, it breaks me too.

You were my best friend, you were the girl I was in love with, I loved you Khushi, more than I loved anyone else in this world, and it is because I loved you so much that I feel so betrayed.

You just made decisions for me and thought it was okay, no it wasn't! I had the rights to make my own decisions Khushi, you couldn't just decide for me to take help from my parents for my better future and not tell me about it, it wasn't fair!"

"What did you want me to do then Arnav? Tell you the truth so you would leave me too? As soon as you'd find out that my parents couldn't afford your expenses you would have left not wanting to be a burden on them and I am sorry but I wasn't ready to lose my best friend.

You said you would have preferred living on the streets than taking any help from them, don't you think I know that? I knew it that's why I took the decisions on your behalf because you might have been ready to live on the streets but I wasn't ready to see you living on the streets."

"It still wasn't fair for you to decide for my life without asking me or even telling me about it."

"I know Arnav, I had two choices, tell you the truth or keep it from you, if I told you, you would have left, if I kept it from you, you would have stayed and had a better future, I might sound selfish but I wanted you to stay, I dint want to lose my best friend, neither did I want you to have a terrible future, all I ever wanted was the best for you Arnav."

"And all I ever wanted was for one person Khushi, just one person to love me, to be with me, and not to freaking lie to me! Do you even realize that you were the only important person in my life Khushi? Yes, Tanvi was there but she was never as important as you, I had no one, no parents, no other friends, literally no one, just you... so tell me where am I supposed to go when the only person I loved and trusted broke me?

I heard your explanation, and to a point I do get why you did what you did but it still doesn't make it fair to me, it still doesn't heal my broken heart, so tell me Khushi, what am I supposed to do here. You were the only one I ever had and now I don't have you also."

"You are the one that chose to leave Arnav."

"Because you broke my trust! I was healing from that when I found out that Tanvi too was just playing games. What is with everyone in my life? Why do they want to just hurt me Khushi? Yes learning the truth about Tanvi made me realize that she tried to break us apart, but do you realize that she wouldn't have been able to do so if you hadn't kept things from me? I am back to where I began from Khushi, with no person in my life that I can trust."

"So, this is how it's going to be? You'll hate me forever just like you hate your parents?" I asked with tears rolling down my eyes, honestly this was too much for me, if he was broken so was I, I just hoped that he could try to understand me.

I understood him I knew I had made a mistake, but it was already made, I couldn't change it, I just hoped he was going to forgive me for it but instead he dint want to do anything with me.

"I don't hate you Shona."

"So you are allowed to call me Shona but I am not allowed to call you Arnie? Why can't we just work this out together Arnav? For the sake of our friendship and love? You know I've thought a thousand times that now I will finally move on but every time I look at you and I don't want to move on Arnav." I looked at him sadly, I know I came here to end things but deep down there was still a little bit of hope inside me, that maybe he would want to give us a chance.

"I loved you Khushi, I don't. Not anymore."

"Oh, please Arnav, you can be mad at me and you can hate me for what I did but you and I both know, we always loved each other even when we dint know we loved each other so you can't tell me you don't love me anymore and think I'll believe it."

"Well, I don't." He said it so confidently, a part of me wanted to believe it, but I wouldn't believe it just like that.

"If you say so, I'll believe you don't love me anymore." I said as I stepped closer to him and grabbed the collar of his shirt.

"Khushi... what are you doing?" He looked at me nervously.

"You don't love me right Arnav? So, this shouldn't affect you." I said, he was clearly so nervous as soon as I moved closer to him.

I held my hand into his and he inhaled a deep breath as if trying to calm himself down, I just smiled as I looked at him with moist eyes.

"Yeah, you don't love me." I smiled as I stepped backwards.

"I can't do this Khushi."

"You are right Arnav, neither can I. I just want to be at peace and if we keep arguing like this I won't be at peace. I get it you don't want to forgive me, I finally accept it. I guess we were never meant to be." I turned around, I just wanted to leave, I couldn't handle this pain anymore, knowing I tried so hard but nothing was enough to convince him.

I took a step forward to walk away but once again he grabbed my hand, he dint pull thought and I dint turn to look at him.

"You want me to go Arnav, so let me go." I said.

"He dint say anything neither did he leave my hand and I dint have the strength to look at him anymore. Oh God, why was this so painful. A few seconds later he pulled me flipping me around so that I was facing him, I crashed on his chest but I dint look at him, I looked down at the floor.

"I wish I had the strength to forgive you Shona, I am just too broken to mend." He said to which I nodded without saying a word.

"Goodbye Shona." He cupped my face making me look at him, he looked at me for a moment and then bent down and kissed me, I was shocked, this wasn't what I was expecting, but because he kissed me, I knew this actually meant a goodbye.

I just... it broke me so much, knowing all the butterflies I had in my stomach, I could only feel them with him, I could only feel this way if he was the one kissing me, I knew I was never going to feel this kind of lover ever, he had literally ruined me for anyone else out there.

"I hope you find all the happiness you deserve." He smiled as he broke the kiss and wiped off the tears from my cheeks, and then slowly he stepped backwards.

With every step he took away from me, my heart broke just a little more. I turned around too and headed outside once again to find a taxi.

All these years, I never had any other friends apart from Arnav and Tanvi and I never even felt the need of having anyone else as they both were more than enough for me, and now here I was today, with neither of them in my life, and it was the hardest thing to accept.

At least I had Yug, even though our friendship had just begun, I had a feeling it was going to be a strong one. I just hoped he wasn't going to leave like Arnav, who else would I have if he left?

I was kind of glad that I mastered enough courage to come here and talk to Arnav, if I wouldn't have, I would have never been at peace, but we both ended this in a good way finally and maybe that was actually going to find me peace.

Okay guys... i know it's been a lot of melodrama now, but not anymore. A leap is coming up in the next part so no more crying and rona dhona lol. Now it will be some fun stuff, hopefully, if i don't become dukhi myself for separating Arshi.