With every passing minute I just felt so broken, so hurt, like I couldn't do this anymore, I couldn't take this pain anymore. If Arnav didn't want anything to do with me, why wouldn't he come and say it to me himself? Why send Yug to pass the message.

He was just repeating the same thing with me that he did a year ago, leaving me just like that...

A knock at the door disturbed me I looked up and saw Yug walk in.

"Hey... you up for lunch? You haven't stepped out of the office since morning." He looked at me worriedly.

"It's lunch time?" I looked at him in confusion, I dint even realize it, I was just so overwhelmed with thoughts I dint even realize how time went by, which also meant that I hadn't done any work today.

"I thought you dint want to be friends with me." I said.

"What? When did I say that Khushi?"

"You said you dint want to feel trapped between Arnav and I"

"I meant it that we couldn't be together, like date or something, I just gave it a thought and I thought it wouldn't be okay to date you when you are in love with him and he's in love with you and he's my cousin. I dint mean that we couldn't be friends Khushi." Yug said. Well he was kind of right, he didn't say we couldn't be friends, I just took it that way because everyone was leaving me.

So when he actually told me he dint want to be trapped between us I just took it that he dint want anything to do with me anymore.

When he cleared my misunderstand, I felt so light... I felt like a weight had been lifted up from my chest, I stood up from my seat and rushed to him as I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him tight.

"I thought... I thought you dint want to be friends with me and I felt so lonely... I felt like I had no one. Arnav and Tanvi were the only two people I ever had in my life and losing them both has been just so... hard." I said.

"It's okay Khushi, I understand. Don't worry, I am not leaving. I am here and we can always be friends, right?" He smiled at me as he broke the hug and looked at me trying to make me smile.

"Arnav?" I asked as I broke the hug and stepped back awkwardly, everything with Yug was like so fast and so easy, we were strangers, we became friends so soon, and we even got close in a matter of few days, it was surprising, usually I wouldn't let anyone close to me so soon.

"Arnav is my cousin Khushi, I love him and I would always wish the best for him, but that doesn't mean that I can't be friends with you right? I can even date you if I want to, but like you said the other day, it would just be complicated given your whole past with him.

So how about we be friends, hang out, have fun, live life like it's supposed to be lived. Till then, don't worry about Arnav or anyone else, worry about you and what you want to do."

"Thanks Yug." I smiled at him, he was right, all this while my life was just revolving around Arnav, trying to find him, trying to apologize to him, trying to move on from him, it was like I had stopped living for myself and started living for him, but it was high time I changed that because despite everything I did, Arnav still wanted nothing to do with me.

I know I had said this so many times before in the past but it was actually time for me to move on from the past and I knew how exactly to do that.

"Am I allowed to go out for lunch?" I asked Yug.

"Yeah, you can do whatever you want at lunch hours as long as you're back in the office on time."

"Okay, I need to go somewhere, I'll have lunch with you tomorrow, I promise."

"Okay, just take care of yourself and be okay." He smiled.

"I will." I said as I rushed out of the office quickly, I headed outside got a taxi and instructed the taxi driver on where to take me.

I kept feeling nervous while in the car but I knew I had to do this, for myself, if I really wanted to move on, if I really wanted to be at peace, I had to do this, it was the only away.

"We've arrived." The driver said after a few minutes, I had been so lost in my thoughts that I dint even realize he had stopped the car, I paid him and stepped out as I rushed into the building.

I took the elevator upstairs, I hoped he was home, it wasn't time for him to be at home but I figured after everything that happened, he might be needing a break or something.

I pressed the doorbell and waited for him to open the door, I kept on tapping my feet on the floor nervously, but no one opened the door.

Maybe it was just wrong timing, of course I couldn't expect to find him home, he also had a job so maybe he was at work.

I turned around and pressed the button for the elevator to leave when I heard the door open up, I turned around and there he was, standing right in front of me.

All I wanted to do at this moment was throw my arms around him, hug him tight and cry in his arms, I wanted to cry all my pain out to him because he was my best friend, we all do that with our best friends don't we, share our happiness, sadness and every feeling in the world.

Just that I couldn't do it anymore, because he dint want to be my best friend anymore. No one would have ever lost as much as I had lost, my two best friends and the love of my life, it was like one moment I had everything the next I had nothing.

"Yug isn't home." He said.

"I am not here to see Yug, I am here to see you Arnav." I said in a very serious voice.

"Why?"

"I figured since you dint want anything to do with me, and you dint have the guts to tell it to me on my face, I shouldn't be like you, unlike you Arnav, I have the guts to accept my mistakes and apologize for them, I don't leave people hanging, if I want to end something, I end it properly.

So here I am, to end things properly, because that's what I do. I thought after yesterday, you would at least try to talk to me, or let me explain to you why I stayed in touch with your parents, but no all you seem to care about is that I stayed in touch with them.

I get it Arnav, everything that happened to you in the past wasn't fair, and you know who stood by your side when none of it was fair? I did, I stood beside you through thick and thin, always being your best friend before anything else, so for the sake of that friendship I at least deserved a chance to explain myself on why I did what I did.

I know you don't want to hear it, you don't want to see me, or have anything to do with me and I am perfectly fine with it, after today, I will be a complete stranger to you, but before I leave you should know that I am not the only one that lost you, you lost me too!

I am tired of you taking me for granted, just because I love you doesn't mean you will keep treating me like this, making me run around you stupidly. I am so done with this Arnav.

Yes I stayed in touch with your parents, yes I hid it from you but I hid it because I knew this is how exactly you would react if I told you.

I get it Arnav, they were terrible to you, they did horrible things, they dint believe you when they should have and they were wrong, everything they did was wrong, and they failed you as parents, no one was telling you to forgive them, I wouldn't want you to forgive them either after what they did in the past, but one thing you're forgetting Arnav, is that at the end of the day we all are human being.

Yes, it might be shocking but our parents too are just normal human being like us Arnav, they make mistakes like us, learn from it and grow from it, that's what life is all about. Your parents made mistakes, big mistakes which cost them their son, but they did realize their mistakes too.

They were late to understand things but they did and when they did, they wanted to come talk to you, apologize to you but you know who stopped them? I did. I knew my best friend wouldn't want that so I knew what to do.

I handled so many things for you Arnav, since childhood, and you wouldn't have ever known if we weren't in this situation because the things I did for you were out of friendship and love, they weren't some sort of favor that I would show off.

All they wanted was for you to have a good future because that had already ruined your past, all they wanted was to repent for their mistakes so my parents and I talked to them and came to an agreement.

All these years you've been thinking that my dad has been the one handing all your expenses, your school fees and each and every expense, but that's not the truth Arnav, your parents have been the one handling it and they dint want you to know because they knew you would prefer living on the road than taking anything from them.

So yes Arnav, I talked to your mom behind your back, but only because she called to ask how her son was doing, only because she called to check on you, to ask if you needed anything, she couldn't talk to you directly so she had to talk to someone, and she did it through me.

They made a mistake in the past and it might not be forgivable but at least they accepted it, at least they are repenting for it, and doing everything they can for your betterment, and the only reason I didn't tell you about it is because they dint want me to, they knew you wouldn't accept anything from them no matter what they did or said.

So yes Arnav, I talked to them and you know what, I am not sorry about it, I am not sorry for trying to be a part of something that was for your better future. My father wasn't as rich as he is now, he could barely afford my fees and my expenses, let alone sponsoring you, I knew he couldn't do much then for you so I accepted the help your parents offered and I am not sorry for it.

You know what I am sorry about though, I am sorry about our friendship Arnav and that it had to end like this, with you getting mad at me and leaving me. We grew up together Arnav and one day you decided to just leave me like that, there was nothing more painful than that.

And there's nothing more painful than you sending Yug to pass your message instead of facing me and telling me yourself that you don't want anything to do with me, so unlike you here I am Arnav, I might have made some mistakes I might have done things I shouldn't, but at least I accepted my mistakes and tried to make things better and if that's not enough, nothing ever will be.

So here's a last goodbye from me Arnav, I won't bother you anymore, I won't run around you trying to ask for forgiveness or anything, I am done trying, this is me, giving up on our friendship and on us. Goodbye Arnav!" I said as rushed down, I dint even bother to wait for the elevator, I just knew I couldn't face him anymore so I had to leave so I left through the staircase, the sad part, he dint even try to stop me.