I wish it was easier to get over your feelings, I wish it was easier to move on, yes, I did like spending time with Yug and that's why I agreed on dating him, but my heart still belonged to Arnav, it always had.

Since childhood, he was the only guy friend I ever had, as we grew up, I never really dated anybody, maybe a part of it was because deep down, my heart always belonged to him.

When we started dating, I felt like I was finally home, I felt like I had everything in life that I couldn't ask for anything more, he was my first best friend, my first boyfriend and the only guy I had ever loved, and it wasn't easy to move on from that, it wasn't easy to forget it.

I wished I could describe how it felt, the pain in my heart, it was like I wanted to hate him for everything but I just couldn't bring myself to hate him, how could I, he was my everything.

I know I kept promising myself to move on to not care but I just couldn't do it, one moment I was so sure about it the other moment, my heart was overwhelmed with love for him, there was no denying that I still loved him, despite everything and this wasn't fair to Yug.

I couldn't date him without him knowing the truth, I dint want to bring problems between him and Arnav ever, and if I kept this from him, it might hurt him, I wouldn't want anyone else to get hurt in the mess between Arnav and I.

Maybe I should tell Yug the truth and let him decide what he wants, this time if I have to do it all over again, I'm going to do it without making the mistakes I made, no lies, no hiding the truth because hiding the truth is what brought me here at the first place.

I stepped out of my bed and headed to take a shower, I was going to find time to talk to Yug today at work maybe and tell him about Arnav, that was the only right thing to do.

When I arrived at work, he hadn't arrived yet, so I headed to my cabin waiting for him, I'd keep looking at his cabin every few minutes hoping he would come now, but he seemed to be running late today.

While I was lost in my thoughts, my phone started vibrating, I grabbed it from the table and saw Yug's name flashing on it, I received it immediately.

"Where are you?" I asked.

"Wow, isn't this a bit too fast? You're missing me already." He laughed.

"No, I am not missing you, I just wanted to talk to you about something important, are you coming to the office today?" I asked.

"No, actually that's why I called you, I am a bit unwell but I really have to finish up some work, would you be a darling and please bring me my laptop at my house? And you can also talk to me about whatever you wanted to." He said.

"What happened? Are you okay?" I asked worriedly.

"Yeah, just fever, I've taken some medicines."

"Okay, send me your address, I'll bring you the laptop."

"Okay, texting you right away." He said as he disconnected the call and a few seconds later, a text message popped up on my screen with the address to his house, I walked to his cabin, took the laptop from his table and headed out.

*****

I rang the doorbell as I stood there nervously, when Yug called me, I forgot Arnav lived with him, I realized it after I had already agreed to bring his laptop so now I could just hope that he wasn't around.

The door opened up and as if God had ever listened to me that he would have today, Arnav was actually around, he was the one that opened the door for me. Why did this keep happening to me though? When I was trying to find him, no matter how hard I tried I couldn't, and when I was trying to avoid him is when I kept on meeting him everywhere possible.

I walked in without greeting him and looked around the house, it was a huge apartment and I had no idea where Yug's bedroom was, I looked around trying to figure out when Arnav spoke.

"On your left." He said, I dint even turn to look at him I just headed towards my left and found him in the first room there, the door was open so it was easier to find him. He was lying on his bed in his pajamas looking so pale.

"Hey... how are you feeling?" I asked as I walked towards him and sat down on his bed placing the laptop aside.

"A bit better, I hate fevers." He pouted like a baby making me laugh.

"And you still want to work while you're sick."

"It's important. You look beautiful today." He smiled as he looked at me like he was appreciating my beauty.

"Thanks." I blushed slightly.

"So what did you want to talk about?" He asked, before I could answer though, Arnav walked into the room.

"I dint mean to disturb, I was just heading out, I figured now you that she's here you wouldn't need me, so I'll go get some work done." Arnav said to Yug.

"Okay... Tanvi is coming along with you?" Yug asked.

"Yeah, what would she do here alone? Anyway take care and call me if anything." Arnav said. I sat there wondering if I had heard the right name, Yug mentioned Tanvi, was it the same Tanvi?

"Who is Tanvi?" I asked Yug once Arnav had walked away.

"Arnav's girlfriend I think... I really don't know what she is to him, but they way she's always following him everywhere makes it look like it's his girlfriend. I'd actually ask him but he gets pretty mad whenever I try to talk to him about his personal life so I avoid talking to him about it." Yug replied.

"Would you give me a few minutes? I forgot I was supposed to go pay the driver, he must be waiting downstairs, I'll be back in a moment." I said as I stood up quickly, I had to see her, I had to find out what was going on.

"Yeah sure." Yug nodded, he looked confused, but I dint say anything, I rushed out of his room and opened the door, I found Arnav and Tanvi waiting for the elevator right outside.

To say I was shocked was an understatement, it was Tanvi, the same Tanvi that was our best friend, the same Tanvi that knew I had been looking for Arnav like crazy, she knew, she knew all this while where he was and dint bother to even inform me?

"Look who's here." I said as I looked at her angrily, I swear I wanted to punch her at this moment, why wouldn't she tell me that Arnav was here if she knew?

"I thought we were avoiding each other." Arnav said.

"I am not talking to you, I am talking to her." I said as I walked closer to Tanvi, she seemed nervous suddenly, as if she was scared, why would she be scared if she hadn't done anything wrong?

I mean wasn't she my best friend? Why wouldn't she tell me she knew where Arnav was? And then Yug's words came to my mind, she's always following him everywhere, she's his girlfriend! That's why.

I dint know what to be shocked about, that she knew he was here and still dint inform me or that she was dating Arnav, my boyfriend! Well ex-boyfriend but still.

"Hey Khushi, what a pleasant surprise." She smiled at me, so she was going to act like everything was normal.

"Are you two dating or something?" I looked at Arnav, I dint even want to talk to Tanvi, wow, now I know what Arnav must have felt like when he found out I had been hiding things from him, exactly the same way I felt about Tanvi right now.

"Why do you care, you already have a boyfriend don't you?" Arnav said.

"Yes or no Arnav!" I looked at him angrily, I was so angrily, I was mad! I felt like I was going to punch someone on the face. Oh god!

"NO!" Arnav screamed back, he seemed just as angry as me, the difference was, I was angry at Tanvi and he was angry at me.

I mean look at us, once upon a time, we were best friends and now we were in a position where there was no friendship left.

"Yug said she's your girlfriend." I looked at Arnav.

"Yug doesn't... wait, did you agree to date him because you thought I was dating Tanvi?" Arnav moved towards me, grabbed me by the shoulder and looked me into the eyes.

As soon as he touched me, all my anger vanished, all I could feel was pain, just pain, an intense amount of pain. It was like one moment I was all strong and all it took to break me was a touch from him.

I was literally overwhelmed with sadness, my eyes filled with tears, all this felt like a burden, a burden that I couldn't handle anymore.