I dint give up, not so soon... the first day he dint come home, so I came back the second day, waited for him the entire day, and then the third day and waited for him again but he never showed up.

I thought that maybe he had gone somewhere to get some space because he was so mad at me, but then as days passed by, I started losing hoped of ever seeing him again.

I went there daily, for over a month and he never showed up and then I stopped going, of course not at once, but slowly, I went once a week and then a couple of months later, the house was rented by someone else, and that's how I knew, he was gone and that he was never going to come back.

You know what was the worst part of it all? That he didn't even tell me. I get it, I did something to hurt him, he dint want to be with me and see my face, but I at least deserved a freaking closure! I deserved to know he was leaving.

He just left, and I stupidly waited for him, every day and not even once he bother to call me or even text me and tell me why he was gone or anything. Was it that bad that I talked to his mother that for it he had to punish me like this? I thought we were best friends. Best friends don't leave each other.

Everything changed slowly by slowly, at first I lost him, and then I lost Tanvi. I mean of course I dint lose her like I lost him, she just decided to go live in another city and in the beginning we would video call and stuff but eventually it got less, now we were at a point where we talked once in two months maybe.

It was like I lost both my best friends at once and I was left all alone with no one by my side, it was heartbreaking actually. I had never been alone my entire life, I had always had Arnav by my side, and now I had no one.

I looked at my watch realizing it was late so I stood up to leave, for some reason, no matter how mad I was, I dint stop hoping, I still hoped that someday he was going to come back so I started waiting for him at the park opposite his house. I would go there anytime I was free and sit for hours doing nothing, hoping one day he would show up and everyday I ended up being disappointed.

Ishq jahan humne likha... kaagaz woh tune jala diya...
Phirse shaame bhi gaayi... phir yaad ne teri rula diya...

It had been a year now, and I hadn't given up, even though I felt betrayed too, even though he left without bothering to tell me. I wish there was a way I could find him, I tried all I could, but it was like he had disappeared just like that.

Chal diya chodke, aise dil todke.. Dheere dheere mujhe Tanhayi maardalegi...
Mujhko yeh teri bewafai mardalegi... Lagta hai mujhe yah judaai mardalegi...
Mujhko yeh teri bewafai mardalegi... Mujhko yeh teri bewafai...

I mean he dint even consider our love, let aside our friendship, he dint consider how I would feel if he left like that, I had just fallen in love with him, how could he break my heart like that? How could he leave without informing me? How?

I looked towards the door of his house one last time and then walked off with a broken heart once again.

*****

I threw my keys on the table as I walked inside the house, I sat down on the couch feeling frustrated, I dint know how to move forward, I dint know how to find him and my heart dint want to move on from him.

I mean we had literally grown up together, done everything together and finally fallen in love with each other, everything was so great, why did he choose to punish me like that?

I get it, it was wrong to talk to his mother despite his refusal, but was it such a crime that he had to leave me for it?

The doorbell rang to I stood up lazily and headed to open the door, I found Armaan standing there so I moved aside and let him come in and then I closed the door and followed him inside as we both sat down.

"You okay Khushi?" He asked.

"Yeah, why?"

"You haven't answered my calls the whole of today, I got worried so I thought I'd come check on you." He said.

"I'm fine you don't have to worry about me." I sighed.

He just looked at me plainly not knowing what to say to me. Since Arnav and Tanvi left, the only person I had close to a friend was Armaan, I know we started out with the whole dating thing and when Arnav and I got together, I pushed him away but at least unlike Arnav, he was here when I needed someone.

Armaan and I weren't dating though, once Arnav and Tanvi left, I used to be alone in college most of the times, and one day he just came and sat with me, we talked and we started hanging out slowly.

There was one strange thing about this whole thing though, after that last note with which Arnav and I separated, there was never any other note, no doorbells ringing at night, nothing.

I had no idea if it was because Armaan and I had become friends and he was the one doing it and he stopped after Arnav and I separated or it was someone doing it all just to separate Arnav and I and once they got what they wanted, they stopped sending the notes.

Although the guy in the footage looked a lot like Armaan, I dint think it was him that had been sending the notes, I mean of course he had tried asking me out again but I had told him I wasn't interested and maybe he should just stop hanging around with me so I don't give him any false hopes but he refused to leave.

I know he stayed around hoping one day I would change my decision but I had told him so many times it wont change and he dint seem to give up just like I dint seem to be giving up about Arnav.

"You went there again didn't you?" Armaan asked.

"Yeah I did, why?"

"Why do you keep hurting yourself like that Khushi, Arnav is gone, and he isn't going to come back, you have to accept that and move on in life."

"I can't Armaan, not until I get answers at least. I mean was what I did so horrible that I deserved a punishment like this for it? All I wanted was for thing to be okay for him, because he was my best friend, I wanted him to be happy and I cared for him, was that why I got punished?

I mean why couldn't he talk to me, just once? Why couldn't he ask me why I did what I did? Even if he dint ask, at least he could have listened to me, I wanted to explain to him why I did what I did, but he just got mad and left, who the hell does that?" I shouted angrily.

Wow, I was so mad at him wasn't I? And despite all this anger, I still wouldn't stop hoping that he was going to come back.

I wish I could find out whoever sent those notes, I would literally murder that person, whoever that guy way, he ruined my whole life, he took my best friend and my boyfriend away from me.

"Are you waiting for answers Khushi or for him to come back so you both can get back together once again?" Armaan looked at me seriously.

I really dint know actually, I dint have an answer for his question. I was of course mad at him and if he came back, I don't think I would forgive him for leaving me just like that, I agree I deserved a punishment for what I did, but not a punishment where he would leave me just like that.

I think maybe I wanted him to come back so I could get answers, I wanted to know if this was what I deserved after all that I did for him. I mean dint he even consider that I was there for him when no one was? I believed him when no one did? I stood like a pillar beside him, fought his family with him, I mean did he just forget all that?

"I need answers Armaan." I said.

"So if he comes back, you want nothing to do with him apart from answers?" He asked.

"Exactly. I need peace, and I cant have that unless I get answers." I sighed.

"I wish I could find him Khushi, I have tried so much, I did all I could but no one could help, maybe someday, if destiny has it, you two will meet again and solve whatever this issue between you is." He said.

"I don't even know if destiny is on my side anymore."

"Don't be so gloomy, cheer up, I'll take you for a long ride come on, you can listen to music and look at the road, how does that sound like?"

"Armaan, just because I don't want to forgive Arnav doesn't mean there are chances of us happening you know?"

"I know Khushi, right now I am just trying to make you feel better and cheer you up, believe me."

"Fine, if you say so... let's go." I stood up and so did he, he smiled excitedly as the both of us walked out of the house and got into his car.

Was Armaan right though? Was I ever going to meet him again?

What if I don't... how will I find my peace?