You've ever had that feeling, where your whole body feels cold, even if the weather is quite hot? You find yourself shaking and shivering, you feel the Goosebumps and your heart is literally running a race?

I felt the same way every time Arnav got mad at me, or when I was scared of hurting him. I don't know, it just felt uncomfortable and I'd keep feeling the shivers, the cold and the Goosebumps the entire day.

I dint like him being mad at me, he was the only person that I cared about, that I worried about, that I saw being in my life forever, so whenever we would have an argument or disagree on something, I would feel so scared I would literally start trembling.

I don't know if it's only me or other people out there feel such things, I hope I'm not crazy or I'm not too weak, but when it comes to Arnav, I always get pretty scared

I kept looking at my watch, pacing around in the hall nervously, he said he would pick me up at seven for the date, and as much as I was excited for the date, I couldn't stop worrying about this truth that I had been keeping from him, and it was making me feel all this things I just said.

I knew how he was going to react when he found out, and I swear I was scared as hell to lose him, because I knew he wouldn't forgive me for it. Why did I have to do it? Why did I have to do the only thing my best friend had asked me not to do?

I heard the car hoot out the house and I almost jumped, jeez! Could I just stop feeling this way for a second? Arnav was never going to find out, I was going to make sure he dint, I could lose anything but not him, without him, I didn't even know what to do with my life.

He was my life.

Okay that was cheesy, but seriously, not even in a romantic way or anything, he was my best friend, I never wanted to lose him no matter what.

"Shona!" he called me out as he knocked at the door.

Would my heart stop racing for just a minute please? Why was I feeling this way? I hated feeling this way.

"Yeah, be right there." I shouted, as I rushed back inside the room just to check if I looked okay, I stood in front of the mirror, staring at my reflection. I was trembling, I could see it even in the damn reflection.

"You have to stop this Khushi!" I said to myself as I inhaled a couple deep breaths hoping they would help me calm down but it dint really work, I just hoped Arnav wasn't going to notice it.

I grabbed my purse and rushed outside quickly, I unlocked the door and found him standing beside his car, leaning against it while he stared at his phone, once I stepped out, he looked up and smiled at me.

God, he looked hot!

He was dressed in all black with a white blazer type of thing, not official, not casual, just something in between but he freaking looked hot!

He stared at me all the while as I locked the house and walked towards him, he had his mouth wide open as if he had never seen me look this beautiful.

He was my best friend, he had seen me look like a homeless drug addict and attending a red carpet event, this wasn't anything new.

As for today, I was dressed in a off shoulder white dress that hugged my body perfectly and along with it I had some black heels, I had curled my hair loosely and left them open, I had a little bit of makeup and for jewelry I had put on earrings, a thin chain with a cute star pendant and similar bracelet. I wouldn't lie, I had put quite some effort into this look, I dint put as much effort on the date with Armaan.

Maybe it was because, with Arnav... I wanted to. With Armaan, it was because I was just trying to run away from what I felt for Arnav.

"If you weren't my best friend, I would kiss you right away." He smirked making me blush. I always thought if Arnav would say anything like this, I would be disgusted because he was my best friend, but the whole point of this date was no more being best friend, and I was glad that it was actually comfortable.

He held the door open for me and once I was inside the car, he shut it and then rushed towards the driver's seat, got in and drove off.

I dint talk much, I dint even ask where we were going or anything as I was still quite nervous, I just stayed silent and would only answer him if he asked something, or sometimes I would just nod so he wouldn't hear my shaky voice.

Be confident Khushi!

*****

Once we arrived at the restaurant where Arnav had planned the date, he grabbed my hand and held it into his, intertwining our fingers, it felt... kind of romantic. He had booked an outdoor table for us so the waiter led us there and let us settle down.

I looked around, there were quite some people but everyone minding their own business, I hadn't even been to this place before, it seemed nice.

"So, what would you like to eat?" He asked.

"Let me see." I grabbed the menu and went through the list of food they had, there were lots of varieties but I was in mood for some lasagna so I ordered that for myself, Arnav ordered some pizza for himself.

"I have a long date planned, I hope you're okay with that." He said.

"Is it going to take us forever to eat?" I giggled.

"No, I have something else planned afterward stupid."

"Who calls their date stupid? Now I am offended." I pouted.

"You are my best friend before my date Shona, I am always going to be your Arnie before anything else." He smiled.

I loved that I was still going to have my best friend, even if we took this date thing forward or not, but what he still going to be my best friend if he found out what I had done?

As if my thoughts had turned real, my phone started ringing, I quickly grabbed it from the table and looked at the contact flashing in shock, I couldn't receive this call in front of Arnav.

"Excuse me, I need to go to the washroom and receive this call too." I said, if I said I had to go away to receive a call only, he would have definitely known there was something wrong because I usually received my calls around him.

He nodded so I stood up and rushed to the washroom, and finally received the call.

"I had been calling you since morning, why wouldn't you pick up?" I asked angrily.

"Sorry Khushi, I left my phone at home, I just got back and saw your missed calls. Did anything happen?" She asked.

"Yes, a lot happened. I am on a date with Arnav, not a best friends kind of a dinner, a date! You know what that means aunty? Your son is in love with me! He told me that himself, and I can't... this secret is too much for me, I don't want to hurt him."

"Khushi, calm down. We'll figure a way out. He won't ever find out, I promise."

"I can't do this while I'm hiding something this huge from him, it's always going to bother me. You either have to come here and talk to him or I don't know what I'll do."

"He hates me Khushi, he wouldn't even want to see my face."

"Then what should I do? Tell him that I've been talking to him mom behind his back after everything that happened? He will hate me too. Why was I so stupid? I should have just listened to him and never talked to you, now I am trapped here." I almost cried.

"I'm really sorry, I'll figure something out, just give me some time."

"You better do, I can't lose him please." I literally begged her.

I rushed outside the washrooms once I was done with the call, I dint want to stay longer and make things suspicious, I just hoped his mom was going to find a way.

The things that happened in the past were horrible, I just hoped that when they came out, Arnav would try to understand me.

"Everything okay Shona?" He looked at me curiously as I settled down on the table.

"Yeah, I'm hungry." I said as I grabbed my lasagna and started eating even when I didn't feel like eating. I wondered what Arnav had planned for us after dinner.

"Can I taste?" He asked as he grabbed a fork ready to taste my lasagna.

"You should have ordered yourself one if you wanted." I said as I pulled my plate aside.

"Come on Shona, people on dates are supposed to share food, it's romantic." He winked at me making me blush again. Wow, was there ever going to be romantic stuff between Arnav and I or was I always going to act like a best friend?