I eat as much as I can

My mother looks proud

Tears glistening in her eyes

She is happy again

I hope.

But I'm not even half way there

When a feeling overcomes me

And I rush to the bathroom

Crying

Crying.

I can't hold it in

It's got to go out

I throw up

Crying

Can't.

I'm not strong enough

I haven't conquered it

It's back

Again

My mother's face changes

When I get out

But she comforts me

She says give it time

Slowly.

I want to eat now

I want to be normal

I want to be back what I was like

A long time ago

Bring me back.

But mother says wait

My stomach is still accustomed

To little portions of food

Slowly I'll get there

Impatient.