I fucking love this song!
Trigger warning btw

Tom's POV

  It felt like that moment could go on for forever this way.

  Until the door was pushed open by a specific someone...

Edd's POV

  I open the door "to ask where the remote was". Nah I just wanted to witness the gay. But they don't know that...

  I see a furious Tord as he stands up and yells something while flailing his arms. //Arm seizure// "Edd, du knullende kukblokken!" I giggle a bit under my breath.

  "I was just gonna ask Tom where the remote was." Tom rolled his eyes and told me that it was on the kitchen counter and that I didn't check good enough when I looked for it. "Okay, farvel, nå Edd!" I hear Tord speak again as he pushes me out the door.

  I rolled my eyes and snicker as I hear the click of the door being locked and walk to the living room.

  There he was, my gingerbread man! I plop down next to him and lay my head in his lap. He pets my hair and I let out a small purr but cover my mouth.

That
Did
Not
Happen

Matt's POV

  Did Edd just...purr? What even? It was mcfreakn adorable! I look at Edd to see his flustered face. "Hey hon?" I giggle a bit during my sentence. "Hmm?"
"Wanna go somewhere today?"
His smile fades as he sits up and looks at me. "I'm sorry Matt I am planning something with Tord... But we can go wherever that is tomorrow!"

  He smiles again and boops my nose saying boop while he does it. I get a bit upset but put on a fake smile and nod. The voices in my head kept coming back.

Wonder what those plans are huh?

It's fake!

Each word echoed in my head, tears welling in my eyes.

What if you were to leave?

What would he do?

How would he live?

Maybe he could live perfectly fine without your vain ass!

Maybe Tord and him were just planning a surprise or something hehehheh right? Right?! I mean, they are friends. Friends talk. I can let him hang out with his friends that's what it is.

//Ooh someone jelly//

My breathing gets faster and so does my heart beat.

I stand up and start to walk to my room so I can just calm down. "Babe? Are you okay?" I stutter out realizing that he knows when I'm lying. "I-im fine!" He gets up and puts a hand on my shoulder.

He gives me concerned look and repeats himself. "Are you sure?" I get ticked off. "I said I'm fine Edd Jesus Christ just leave me the fuck alo-"

He looks at me shocked but hurt. I try to take a deep breath and run upstairs quickly.

You hurt him Matt!

Why?

How could you?

He didn't deserve that!

I lock the door behind me and sit on my bed sobbing silently.

I soon get up and take out my hand mirror, shattering it, and taking one of the pieces. I slowly roll up my sleeve and murmur to myself.

Why am I such a failure?

Why do I take things to siriusly?

Why am I not good enough for him?

What's wrong with me?

...

I hiss at the pain as I drag the piece of glass across my arm for every thing I say. The first cut doesn't bleed so I cut deeper.

I wish this was over
I wish that this was a dream

Why am I worrying so much? They are friends, friends hangout and talk and shit!

I start laughing a bit. I mean what do I have to worry about? Hehehheh...

I stumble over to my vanity and grab a couple of bottles. I then start popping pills. I just realized that it hurts if you don't have water.

As my vision gets blurred and my skin gets colder
Appearing young but I'm growing older

I let myself fall on my bed and I softly tell myself "Can anyone save me from myself," hot tears stain my cheeks.

//Damn did that escalate quickly//

Edd's POV

  Matt snapped at me and ran up to his room a while ago and hasn't come back. I'm really worried. He just left after I said I had plans with Tord.

  What he doesn't know is that Tord and I were talking cause I was thinking about something for Matt and needed help on how to plan it.

  I was gonna need Tord's hoodie, red paint, and something else. I was talking to Tom about it cause it's a secret and Tom tends to say random shit when he's drunk (the majority of the time).

FLAAAAAAASHBAAAAACK

Tom came home shitfaced drunk stumbling through the door.

He jumped on the table, took off his hoodie, wrapped it around his waist, and spoke dramatically. "Mom, dad!" He then jumped off the table a yelled, "I'm gay!"

Edd picked Tom up off the floor and told him it's pretty fricken obvious. Matt snickered and Tord tackled Tom, still laughing.

"Wrong! I hope..."

Flaaaaaaashbaaaaaack ooovvverrrr

 
I can't tell Matt, but I hate to see him hurt. But he's taking this "hanging out with Tord thing" a tad bit too Sirius. (Huehuehuehuehuehuehue puns don't you fuckn judge me)

I was walking upstairs to go to the bathroom and heard soft sobbing for Matt's room.

I start to try and open the door but it's locked. "Matt let me in!"

A/N

Holy shit it took me like two days to write that how even that's not allowed.
Hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I'm so sorry
I forgot about the story
Jesus Christ this escalated
Dis story is about to get at the actually decent shit
Yes I know for all you people saying there was more tomtord then eddmatt  and this being an eddmatt story
I'm sorry
Those were little tomtord bits
The base of the story is eddmatt
You'll understand when the story progresses
Yeah my head canon for Matt is that he immediately assumes shit
Then he stresses
And blames himself
Yeah
I will say all my head canon for the characters in my random book (for those of you that read it)
And yeah
Well bai