"Namjoon, I need you to come over here now and bring everyone," Yoongi says over the phone.

"Why? What's up?" I ask, but dread fills me.

"I- You just need to get everyone here now please..." Yoongi says.

His voice is hoarse and it gets my heart racing. Yoongi never calls, he doesn't enjoy talking on the phone and the fact that he wants me to gather everyone means something's up.

"We will be there soon!" I say and hang up the phone.

I call Hobi and Dani to tell them to meet us as soon as they can and run around the house looking for the others.

I find Jin in the kitchen making some breakfast and startle him when I accidentally bump into the counter.

"God Nam, be careful, man! What's the rush?" Jin asks with a chuckle.

"Yoongi called and said everyone needs to get over to Kook's and Jelly's place... he didn't sound good," I say and watch Jin's face change from laughter to worry in an instant.

He quickly turns off the stove and wipes his hands on his pants. I watch as he starts putting stuff into the sink saying he will clean up later.

"Tae and Jimin are out, call them while we walk over," Jin says grabbing his keys and rushing outside.

The walk is quick, Jin is practically running. I don't give our youngest much info. I just tell them they need to get there now.

When we walk up to the house we don't even bother knocking. Jin uses his spare key and rushes right in. Calling to the quiet house that he and I are here.

My feet slow down, I'm almost dragging them as I force myself into the living room. My heart feels as if there's a string wrapped around it, tightening every second causing my chest to hurt. When only two figures meet my vision looking broken and beaten, with the older one clearly trying to comfort our youngest.

My eyes dart around the room looking for my tiny but fierce friend. But she's nowhere to be seen. I thought maybe she was with the little one, but then I see Arabella in her Doc-A-Tot on the couch.

Jin has sat himself beside Kook, taking him into his arms, and rubbing the top of his head as his silent tears roll down his face.

"What's going on?" I finally speak up.

Yoongi looks up at me and I can see what's coming before he even speaks. My usually calm and collected older friend looks frazzled, his eyes are bloodshot and swollen and he's struggling to keep it together. The tension from the strong string wrapped around my heart is unbearable, painful.

"Jillian's dead" Yoongi croaks out.

And then it snaps, the string has tightened so much that it completely cuts my heart in half as I register his words.

Dead? She can't be dead! I'm clutching my chest trying to stop the pain that's making it hard to breathe.

This can't be real I must be dreaming. But if this was a nightmare and I was in fact asleep, I wouldn't be feeling this unbearable heartbreak right now...

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I look down at Kookie as I move him away from me a little. He doesn't do anything, just hangs his head low and lets his tears flow.

It feels like my heart's been ripped out as I realize it's the truth. My sweetheart, my crazy, judgy, stubborn, and silly, baby sister is gone...

A terrible weight falls on my shoulders as I pull Kookie back into my arms. He holds onto me tightly clutching my shirt into his fists.

I look around at the other two breaking and fight back my emotions. I'm the oldest! I have to be strong for them! A state of misery fills me knowing there isn't an end to this grief anywhere in the foreseeable future.

When? How? Why? It all runs through my brain. My eyes drift onto my little sweet pea sleeping contently. And my heart breaks a little more.

She will never know her mother...

I look back to Yoongi over Kookie's head, the silent question in my eyes. He takes a shuddering breath and explains to me what Kookie has told him.

My heart is in pieces as I realize that any of us could have stopped this. I had noticed her cough and kept telling myself I would bring over medicine, but work had been crazy and it just slipped my mind. I let her down...

My head snaps and I then see a very heavily pregnant Dani rush into the house, followed by a stressed Hobi trying to get her to slow down.

"What's going on? Why the rush? Who died?" Hobi jokes.

He freezes once he makes it closer and sees the distressed state everyone is in.

"What did you do Jungkook? Where's Jelly?" she asks.

Kookie flinches in my arms and starts mumbling, but it's hard to make out as his face is pressed against my chest.

I shoot her a glare and she instantly grabs onto Hobi, closing her mouth and looking nervous.

"What's going on?" Hobi asks as he wraps his arm around his wife.

Kookie's breathing becomes more erratic as he continues to mumble against my chest. I move him away trying to allow him some air, but once he's at an arm's length his words are clear.

"I killed her..." he repeats over and over.

"What?!" Dani says loudly.

"No, Jungkook, you didn't." Yoongi says trying to calm him.

I'm sitting on the couch at an absolute loss. But as I look around, Nam is frozen beside the couch holding his chest; Dani is hysterically crying as Hobi tries to comfort her, but is also breaking down; Yoongi is whispering to Kookie trying to reassure him and poor Kookie is there in his own world, repeating over and over that he killed her, not hearing or seeing any of us.

The other two burst into the door running in the living room only to see everyone breaking down. Jimin instantly starts to tear up and Tae nervously rubs his arms.

Yoongi looks up at me, pleading with his eyes for me to do something. I'm the oldest, I have to help everyone get through this. I refuse to break. I have to be strong.

I get up from the couch and help Hobi sit Dani down. She's due next month and this can cause issues for her and the baby. I then grab the two frozen boys and guide them to sit down.

Yoongi gets up and switches spots with Jimin who instantly latches onto Kookie, pulling him into a tight hug. Kookie has stopped talking and is back to silently crying. His eyes not focused on anything.

I look to Joon and ask with my eyes if he's okay, but he just shakes his head. None of us will be okay.

Yoongi stands beside me as we look around at everyone. I hear him trying to take a deep breath, trying to find the words to explain everything.

I pat his back letting him know I'll do it. I take a deep breath and force down my own agony and grief. I have to be strong! I'm the oldest! I won't let her down again I'll be here for her family! For our family!

"Jelly is...she's gone, she's passed," I say into the room.

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