"Follow through with your whole arm, Bean!" Yoongi shouts right before I go to shoot.

I hear him loud and clear, taking my shot just as he showed me. The ball swoops in a perfect arc making a swish sound as it goes through the net. The crowd erupts into cheers, I'd just made the winning shot for the state championship. My team rushes me engulfing me in their arms. I separate myself from the team and run to Yoongs screaming with happiness as he scoops me up.

"You did amazing, Bean!"

"Did you see that, Yoongs?! I can't believe I made it! I was so nervous I thought I would throw up," I gush out as he puts me down.

"There's no way you would have missed that, baby. You're an amazing player," Dad says as he steps up beside Yoongi.

"Thanks," I say and offer a weak smile.

"Would you like to go out for dinner to celebrate?" he asks hopefully.

Things with Dad and I have been strained. I decided not to stay at home, I needed time to figure things out, and I felt bad Dad was all alone, but I also found out that Violet was the one who chose to leave. Dad was forced to be alone, he didn't make that choice for me and my already broken heart couldn't cope with staying in the house right now.

"Uh, I can't. I'm sorry," I answer quickly and turn my attention back to Yoongi.

"I was actually going to ask if I can go out with Vincent. I'll be back before curfew," I ask since I've been staying at Yoongi's since everything went down.

"Bean," he sighs.

"Please, Yoongs! We had already planned this, but Dad understands. Right?" I turn to Dad and he nods his head sorrowfully.

"Yeah, that's no problem we can go out this weekend?" he offers and I find myself agreeing so that Yoongs will not force me today.

"Fine, but be safe...and make sure to be home by 10 or you're never going out again," he says trying to be menacing, but I laugh kissing him on the cheek and waving bye to dad.

I skip off towards the locker room but two arms engulf me. I can't wipe the stupid grin off my face when I turn around to hug my boyfriend.

"You were amazing out there," he says and gives me a quick kiss. "Did you get the all-clear?"

"Yeah, Yoongs said I need to be home by ten."

"Perfect! Quick, go get changed and we can get out of here."

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"So when do you think you will go back home?" Vincent asks as we lay on the hood of his dad's truck.

"I don't really know. I want to but now it's just awkward. I'm supposed to have lunch with him this weekend, will you come with me?" I plead and he frowns.

"Can't, beautiful. I'm going to my grandparents, it's their anniversary."

I sigh and snuggle closer to him. Everything feels messed up, I'm missing a whole part of myself, and it's become more evident now that I'm on the outs with Dad. Hearing Vincent talk about the things he does with his family and seeing them interact really makes me long for what he has.

"What are you thinking?" he asks carding his fingers through my hair.

"Nothing," I say closing my eyes.

"I can basically hear your wheels turning in your brain. Let me know what's got you thinking that hard."

"I absolutely hated Violet, but I do want a family. Well, I just want my mom or to feel closer to her."

"Why not make up with your dad and ask him about her?" he suggests and I shake my head.

"Dad has no problem talking to me about her but I dunno. I just want something more, who was she before she met my Uncles and Dad? Was she good at sports like me? Was she stubborn as a child? There's just a lot of things Dad doesn't have the answers to."

"What about your mom's parents? I know you said your dads have passed but what about hers?"

"Dad says they aren't great people, but they're alive."

"I think it would be worth asking him to reach out. I mean, he owes you that much."

"You're right, I guess. I'll bring it up to him this weekend."

"If anything goes wrong, you know I'm here for you," he says, gently brushing some hair out of my face.

"Thank you," I smile in return, truly thankful I have someone like him in my life.

"You know I love you, right?"

"I know," I nod and he smiles leaning down and connecting our lips.

We lay there for a while under the stars sharing soft kisses until he deepens it and his hands try to go under my shirt.

"Vince," I push him away and he groans.

"We have been together for more than a year now. Don't you trust me?" he questions and I nod my head.

"I do. But I need to get home before Yoongs comes and hunts me down," I say making an excuse.

"So if it wasn't for Yoongi, you would be okay with taking the next step?"

I nervously bite my lip and sit up on the hood of the truck.

"I don't think so..."

"Why not? Do you not believe that I love you?"

"I do," I say meekly.

"Do you not love me?"

I grow quiet and his brows furrow. he quickly lets go of me sliding off the hood of his car.

"Vince," I sigh out and he shakes his head.

"Let's get you home before the crazy one comes to kill me," he says helping me off the car.

The drive home is silent and when we pull up in front of Yoongs' he doesn't move to get out of the car like usual.

"I'll call you tomorrow and let you know how the talk goes with dad," I say nervously and he nods his head.

"Sure, have a good night, Arabella."

I hop out of the car and walk up to the door of Yoongs' house. I turn to wave bye, but he is already driving off not sparing me a second glance. I take a deep breath and head into the house pretending nothing is wrong and rushing to my room.

Because if Yoongs saw me, he would definitely know something is up. He's got this weird sixth sense and nothing gets past him. I lay in bed letting all my thoughts keep me awake.

I liked Vincent a lot, but was I in love? I listen to my dad talk about my mom and I have heard the stories from my uncles about how in love they were with each other. Dad says that mom was his forever and always and he and I will be always and that's what I want. I want to have someone be my forever and always.

Was it Vincent? Maybe but I'm young and don't want to make such an important choice when I'm not sure. Plus there are so many other things going on that this is the furthest thing on my mind.

One step at a time, just like Uncle Jinnie always says. So tomorrow I will talk to dad and handle that problem first and then I'll deal with my relationship.

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