One step at a time I can do this.

I stare at my reflection in the mirror as I run the razor along my cheek. Jin's talk was a wake-up call I needed to get my shit together and he needed to grieve.

We all had a talk last night and agreed that they would help but no one would be staying here any longer. If I needed them all I had to do was call and they would come running.

Last night was nerve-wracking. I felt like I was taking care of a newborn all over again not an 8-month-old. Bells was up every hour almost. I would walk into her room, sing our song while I held her chupí in her mouth so she would fall asleep, only to repeat it before I could fully go back to sleep.

I was so exhausted that I ended up just taking her to bed with me. Her tiny figure pressed flush to my chest as my other arm rested lightly over her. She never woke up again and I managed to get 5 hours of continuous sleep before Tae woke her up this morning.

He came around 7 a.m. nervous because I never called last night. I guess the guys are on a routine also because I received at least 30 texts this morning reminding me what she likes to eat now, where the diapers are stored and just anything I might need to know.

I felt my heart swell with happiness knowing I truly wasn't in this alone. Bells and I had a wonderful support system and we would get through this.

I quickly finished shaving and tied my hair up in a bun. I had let it grow too long and it constantly covers my eyes. I would try and get it cut sometime this week.

I get dressed and take some clothes down for Bells so I can get her ready for the day.

"Oh you're such a pretty girl, aren't you beautiful!"

I watch as Tae leans forward scrunching his nose and rubbing it softly against hers. Her smile is wide as her small hands grab onto his cheeks keeping him close.

He chuckles and gives her a kiss before lifting her out of her high chair to clean off whatever he fed her.

My precious daughter doesn't even turn to me as she stares at Tae listening to all his ramblings, cooing along as if she's answering him.

I clear my throat to announce my presence and watch as they both jolt.

"Fuck, you scared us!" Tae says snuggling Bells close.

"Am I interrupting?" I ask with a chuckle as I walk up to the pair.

"As a matter of fact, you are. Isn't that right, Honey?" he says squishing his nose into Bells cheek making her giggle.

"Well, sorry to break up the party, but I need to get her ready. We are going out," I say as I reach for her.

"Where are you going?" he asks as he clings to her.

I roll my eyes and take her into my arms as I watch him pout. She happily comes into my embrace as I give her a kiss and snuggle her.

"I'm taking her out for a Daddy-daughter day. We need some time, just us," I say as I lay her on the couch to change her.

But her eyes land on Tae who is pouting and her little face looks concerned. She holds up her hands to him waiting to be picked up. When he doesn't make a move, her eyes start to well up.

"Oh no, Honey, don't cry," he coos as he quickly pushes me off the couch to get her ready.

"I'll do this, go pack a bag," Tae says nonchalantly as he resumes his baby talk to Bells, making her smile happily up at him.

I sigh and do as I'm told knowing she's closer to them because I've been absent. But I won't let it continue. I quickly gather all the things I'll need for the day and load them up into the car.

Tae straps her into the car seat and gives her a kiss saying he will miss her and tells me to call if I need anything. I wave him off and start heading to our destination.

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"You know this was your mom and I's favorite spot," I say as I sit on the blanket with Bells sitting on my lap.

She's happily chewing on the ear of her floppy yellow bunny. There is a nice breeze and the sun is happily shining.

I decided to bring her to our place because it held some of the happiest moments in my life. It was where I first asked Jelly out on a date, it's where we would come and lay to watch the stars, it's where she agreed to be my girlfriend.

My heart ached a little being here, but all the happy memories helped soothe it. I wanted to make memories here with Bells too, this would now be our place also.

We've spent a few hours here, she was happy crawling around into the grass. I had been practicing with her standing trying to get her leg muscles to strengthen. She tightly held on to my fingers while standing and her chubby legs wobbled trying to keep balance.

She babbled on and on as I hyped her up and told her how well she was doing. Eventually, the jingles of the ice cream truck could be heard and I stood with her in my arms waiting in line to get a vanilla cone.

She at first scrunched her face cutely at the cold texture. I thought maybe she wasn't going to be fond of sweets, just like her mother. But after a few more tastes, she greedily devoured it. There was ice cream all over her face and hands, it had made it onto her clothes as once she decided she liked it, she wanted to hold it.

I tried to clean her with a wipey as best as I could, but there was no saving her without a bath.

She was already yawning by the time I'd strapped her in. I looked into the rearview mirror to look into the mirror that was hanging on the headrest to see her and she was already knocked out.

I smiled as I continued to make my way home, glancing at her every chance I got. She may be my mini-me when she is up and awake, with her large doe eyes and button nose that matches mine.

But when she sleeps she looks exactly like Jelly. Her tiny full lips would pout out as she slept and her long lashes rested against her cheeks. Her hair has lightened and now resembles the red-orange color Jelly had, only slightly darker. It was mostly straight with a few waves here or there, I could only wish they would turn into the beautiful, wild curls her mother had.

When I pulled up into the driveway I could see Hobi and a few of the guy's cars already there. I chuckled knowing they couldn't stay away. I carefully took Bells out of the car and made my way up the porch steps.

But freeze as I hear a voice I wasn't expecting. My heart clenches painfully in my chest before it starts racing. I open the door slowly and make my way in quietly, but then I hear it again.

It can't be...

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