The sun was beaming in their eyes as they arrived at the gate way of their mansion. Colby's head was still in Sam's lap, Sam was playing with Colby's hair, Brennen was being jealous, and Elton.. was being the uncle. Like always. 

"Should we wake him up?" Sam asked softly, chuckling at the last part of the sentence. Elton nodded in response and Brennen repeated Elton's actions. 

"Wake up Colbs.." Sam pushed the brunette hair out of Colby's face. Colby's eyes instantly fluttered open in a panic as he raised his head.

"Oh my god! I-I'm so sorry.. I didn't mean t-" "It's okay, It's okay. No worries Colby." Sam cut off Colby with a reassuring smile as Colby's body slowly relieved itself.  

Sam, Colby, Elton, and Brennen got out of the car and shut the doors. They all walked up to the huge mansion doors and unlocked them. Home.. sweet home?.. Colby thought to himself, not changing his blank expression. 

"Colby We all want to talk to you about what happened." Elton said sternly. Colby knew he didn't have a choice. Elton was going to get a word out of him no matter what happened. Colby nodded with slight regret but he didn't mention it. Sam and Brennen exchanged glances. They were both thinking the same thing. Is he comfortable?.. Sam and Brennen both nodded to each other. This needed to be done.. For Colby... right? 

"We'll give you a few minutes to change clothing and shower. Meet us down here in the living room once you're done." Elton explained with a stern look. Which made Colby nervous, But he wasn't sure why. 

Colby walked up the stairs to his room. He plopped on his bed with a few tears trickling down his face. There wasn't a reason to cry this time, It just happened. 

!TW! SH AHEAD

Find your blades.

Find your blades!

FIND YOUR BLADES!

Colby's tears ran down his face faster as he stood up and headed for the washroom across the hall. He opened the door and shut it quietly, locking it quickly. He looked through the bottom cabinet and grabbed the towel at the back, revealing a blade from under it. 

Slice more than once.

Colby turned on the shower. He didn't care to even think about what he was doing. He gave in to his thoughts. He didn't care if he would regret it. He knew he would. 

Colby grabbed his blade and hopped in the shower. 

Slice more than twice.

Colby dragged the blade across his wrist deeply, creating a line with oozing dark blood coming from within it. Colby continued to do that on each arm eight times, creating sixteen cuts in total. Colby continued to cry. That's all he could do.

Failure.

Your father hated you.

Sam hates you.

I HATE YOU!

"Shut up.." Colby winced at the stinging sensation that came from his wrists. Why.. What did I do to deserve this?.. I thought I was working hard.. I failed.. I failed my dad, I failed Sam, I failed Brennen and I failed myself. I'm scared for the future and I regret the past.

The water started to get cold, which brought Colby out of his thoughts. Colby got out of the shower, wrapping a towel around his waist. He walked out of the bathroom, quickly walking towards his bedroom and opening the door. He went into his closet and grabbed boxers, socks, black joggers, and a grey hoodie. He put them on quickly and sighed. He didn't want to go downstairs.. He was scared. What if I cry again? I might burst.. Colby thought as he opened his door slightly.

Colby took small steps down the stairs, trying not to be heard. But, just to his luck, Elton and Brennen were waiting right there on the couch staring at him. Colby sighed as he took the last step and walked towards them. Colby avoided eye contact as he sat down, looking at his hands, Colby started to speak.

"Where's Sam?.." Colby asked, Colby needed Sam more than anyone at the moment, Brennen was hiding the anger in his features while replacing it with a soft and gentle smile. 

"He had to go to Katrina's house. She said there was an emergency.." Brennen spoke softly. Colby hid the tears in his eyes, while still looking down.

"Colby, I need you to tell us how you feel about your dad." Colby just stared in shock at Elton. How could he say that? Colby wondered what his response should be. Colby never had a good relationship with his family. They all called him a fag, worthless, and they all ignored him. Sometimes he would get hurt physically too but it wasn't as bad as the words. The only one who helped Colby through his life was his mother.

"I-I'm.. not really.. sure." Colby said, holding back a sob that was threatening to break through his chest.

"That's not an answer." Elton said sternly. Colby understood that he was frustrated but Colby needed to be comforted not interrogated.

"E-Elton please.." Colby pleaded.

"No! Colby you have to understand that everything isn't about you!" Elton shouts slightly. Colby winces at The pain coming from his wrists and Elton's voice. 

"Sorry.." Colby mumbles as he looks up at Elton and Brennen with tears in his eyes. Elton's gaze slowly softens as he sees the look on Colby's face.

"Col-" Elton gets cut off by his own voice when Colby gets up from the couch. Colby walks upstairs and shuts his door, hoping to get away from all the chaos that has been caused by everyone.  Once the door shut, Colby instantly slid down it with tears rolling down his face to no extent. They'll never understand.. I never wanted to feel this way! I'm not asking for everyone to be worried sick about me. I can't help it..

Actually, you can help it.

"W-What?.. How?.."  Colby asked the voice.

Feel pain, or even better, Kill yourself.

"T-They wouldn't want me t-to.. right?" Colby asked while the tears started to slow down a little bit. Colby put his head in his hands as he started to wonder what life would be for others if he wasn't there? Maybe they would be happy.. Colby didn't know unless he tried. I don't want to cause anyone pain..

But you won't, You'll make them happier. They hate you. At least that's something you all have in common. 

Cut even more.

Cut even more!

CUT EVEN MORE!

"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" Colby shouted, punching the door quickly. His knuckles started to bleed heavily, but he could care less. He was sick of feeling numb. He thought he knew everyone wanted him gone, but without him realizing that's the opposite of what they wanted. Especially Sam. 

There was a knock at the other side of the door..

Colby's eyes widened. Who was it?.. 

"Colby?.. Are you okay?.." He heard a soft voice say, which he recognized, It was Brennen.

"Y-Yeah I'm good.. I'm good.." Colby repeated while slowly starting to shake. The pain in his knuckles was starting to become unbearable. 

"Can you let me in?.." Brennen asked, hopeful, leaning up to the door with his ear against it, hoping for answers through sounds.

There was a pause for a moment. But the sound of a click broke the silence. The door opened slowly with the sight of Colby, red tear streamed cheeks, bloodshot eyes, bloody knuckles and his bright blue eyes filled with numbness. Brennen's eyes widened at the sight of Colby's knuckles. 

"Colby! Oh my god, Y-Your knuckles.." Brennen exclaimed grabbing Colby's hand. Colby blushed in embarrassment, but right now he didn't care much. Brennen took Colby's hands that were filled with blood and he guided them to the washroom. Brennen picked Colby up in a swift motion, which caused Colby to yelp, and he placed him on the sink counter. Brennen looked through the cabinets searching for gauze and bandages. He found peroxide, and bandages. They were probably out of gauze at the moment.

"This might hurt.." Brennen said softly while taking off the cap to the peroxide with a flick. Colby didn't respond he just stared at Brennen in awe. Was he really taking care of him?.. 

"Alright.. I'm going to count to three.." Brennen said as he was getting ready to put the peroxide on. Colby nodded, waiting for the stinging the sensation to come after Brennen's voice spoke. 

"One.."

"Two.."

"Three.."

The stinging pain came suddenly, as Colby winced as his eyes shut tightly. The bubbling caused it to hurt more, but that made Colby wonder if he succeeded in feeling pain? Did he deserve this? Colby was more focused on Brennen's mental stability after seeing that much blood.

"Colby.." Brennen started, he paused for a moment, thinking about the question he was going to ask.

"I-Is there more?.." Brennen questioned, while looking up at Colby, who was wincing on the counter. Colby shook his head saying no, he couldn't say anything because that means he lied for sure, and that's the type of thing he couldn't bear.

Brennen bandaged up Colby's knuckles and picked Colby up again. Colby yelped, wondering why Brennen wouldn't let him go? Suddenly they were brought back to Colby's room. Colby noticed Brennen lock the door behind him. Colby's eyes widened. 

"Br-Brennen?.." Colby asked with a slight tone of fear in his voice. Brennen walked closer to Colby causing Colby to get pinned up to the wall. Brennen smirked, while grabbing Colby's wrists and pinning them above his head.

"B-Brennen! Please! What are you d-doing?!" Colby shouted slightly, even though Colby had the picture painting itself in his mind, he needed to ask, It came naturally since hes been in this situation before with his father. 

"I'm sorry Colby.. But I'm going to need this memory of you." Brennen said with a smirk as he kissed Colby deeply. Colby squirmed trying to get out of Brennen's grasp. One Brennen pulled away, Colby's breath hitched. As he screamed quickly hoping someone would hear, but Brennen just chuckled.

"Sweetheart.. nobodys home.. You were left alone with me." Brennen smirked as he started to suck on Colby's neck. Colby whined, he didn't want this. Tears started to roll down Colby's cheeks. Brennen unpinned Colby from the wall and threw him on the bed, causing Colby's ocean blue eyes to widen. He was about to go through this all over again..

                                                              ~To be Continued~

A/N: Poor Colbs.. What do you think will happen? CAN I GET A #JUSTICEFORCOLBY in the chat? He needs it. I'm sorry for making Brennen the villain if you like him? I'm so tired school's a bitch not gonna lie. Anyways! I hope you enjoyed!! CYA! -yaoifanficsyaoi