Katniss POV

AFTER A FEW DAYS, MY BURNS HAD IMPROVED SOMEWHAT. These days were certainly one of the hardest of my life. I am pleased that I saved my little duck of a terrible death, but ended up losing him ... I can not even pronounce his name without end up in a river of tears. Every night I cry out his name, hoping he'll come into my room and calm down. 

I was not yet released from the hospital, but in a few days I will because my scars are now healing. I let them do what they wanted in my body, I do not really care. The physicians from the Capital did a surgery on me, rebuilding my skin and leaving almost no scars. Even though I'm still hospitalized, I was allowed to walk through the hospital, so every day I visit Prim, who is also recovering very well, she looks better than me not only the appearance but also in the mood. Some days I can not even smile, not even to her.

Right now I'm going to visit Prim, her room is next to me. I'm walking down the hall when I end up crashing into someone. I look up and I end up finding the one and only Finnick Odair.

"Hello Katniss! I was about to pay a visit to or Mockingjay!" he says happily "Would like a sugar cube?" 

He seems to have not received the news. His lips form a smile that would make any other girl melt. 

"I am not in mood to play now, Finnick." I say sharply. 

"Look that! Kitty got claws!"

 Yeah, he doesn't know. 

The tears dread to fall but I don't let them fall. His smile transforms into a worried expression.

"Heey! What happened?" 

"Do you really not know?" 

"I do not know what you're talking about." 

The tears that were dreading to fall, fall on my face, but manage say. - 

"When I was going to Snow's mansion, had a lot of people in the square and in front of the mansion had a human shield of children from the Capital and and some peacemakers. Then appeared a hovercraft with insigna of the Capitol and dropped some gifts and then I spotted Prim. She was taking care of some children, the gifts were actually bombs, and some of them exploded, away from her, and then I spotted him...

Tears stream down my face, I'm not used to cry in front of someone, even if I trust in this person, but I can't help it, this is the last memory of him... Finnick looks at me curiously, I take a deep breath and continue.

"I saw...Peeta" His name out of my mouth for the first time in days. 

I want to collapse in tears, but I hold them back. Not now Katniss, control yourself  

"He was there and he ran towards Prim and pushed to me and told me to flee, and that was when the remaining parachute... exploded."

I'm crying like a baby now, I can not handle. This is very painful. The pain I felt all these days return even stronger, as tough I'd taken several stabs in my chest but believe me, I could take millions of stabs in my chest it will never compare to the way I feel right now.

Finnick looks at me puzzled. His eyes are watery. He hugs me and tries to calm me down but no one can right now. Not even Finnick, who is like a brother to me.

"I'm sorry Katniss." That's all he says while still hugging me.

"This is not fair. He didn't deserve it! I loved him and still keep loving him and I only realized this after I have lost him. I do not want to live anymore, Finnick, and please don't say that I have a life ahead for me to live it, because I do not have any life. I just want to be with him!"

He does not say anything, he just holds me and snuggles my hair. He hugs me tightly, but I just want to be in Peeta's arms, where I belong. I eventually feel some tears in my hair. It's not his fault he's crying, Peeta was also like a brother to him. 

"I need to kill Snow, he took Peeta from me and I need to kill him, Finnick!" 

"We all want him dead, Katniss, but killing him will not bring Peeta back." 

"I know, but he deserves to die. I want to kill him. Snow must to pay for what he has done" 

"So be it."

 After a few minutes I pull away from Finnick and try to wipe the tears that continue to fall on my face. 

"I'm sorry Finnick, now your shirt is all wet" 

"Do not worry, we both have more things to worry about." 

"Thank you Finnick. Really"

He smiles sadly.

"Anytime Katniss. And I'm really sorry about him" I nod. 

I'm ready to go to Prim's room when an employee appears in front of me. 

"Miss Everdeen, President Alma Coin and Plutarch Heavensbee want you and the other victors in Snow's mansion. Please, follow me." 

It looks like no one wants me to hangout with Prim. I nod and follow him. He takes me to a kind of parking lot where waits a black car. He says to me to in and I obey. The mansion is a bit far from the hospital, then after a few minutes we came across it in the same place where the explosions occurred, the same place where I almost lost my precious little duck and where I lost Peeta.

We enter the mansion and after many hallways we finally arrive. The command is really just an office with a large table in the center and a few chairs.

Coin and Plutarch are already here, so I sit down in one of the chairs and I wait for what is about to come. Finally, after a while, everyone is already here. Finnick and Annie come together and sit on my left, just after Johanna; sitting on my right is Lyme, Beetee and Enobaria and then finally Haymitch. After all sit, Coin begins:

"Well, after the revolution and our victory against the Capitol to end the games, we decided that there will be a last edition of the games, a Symbolic Hunger Games with the Capitol's children, but we can not put it into action without your opinion about it, being the only living victors. What do you think?"

A much as I would like for the Capitol to understand what the districts have been trough those 75 years, I believe that Peeta would not do that. We went through the same things together and he suffered much more than me, but I'm sure he would not accept it. 

"Of course! Why not? They should suffer what we went through all these years! I say 'yes" says Johanna smiling 

"I agree, I heard that Snow even has a granddaughter! I am also in favor" says Enobaria "Let them have a taste of their own medicine"

"No! This is unacceptable! I am not in favor." Says Beetee.

"Me too" say Finnick and Annie together.

"I'm with it" says Lyme.

I can not stand it and punch the table.

"What? That is not fair! The Capitol's children had nothing with it, why would we then send them to fight to the death? That was what we were fighting against! I am not in favor and I'm sure that Peeta would say the same thing." 

They all look surprised at me. They expected me to be in favor. It looks like I'm not what they think I am. Coin sighs and continues: 

"Haymitch..." 

"I'm in favor" he says looking directly at me, as if trying to tell me something.

"Well, we've got a due. I'm going to schedule another reunion, so meanwhile you can think about your next answers."

They get up and leave the command. I am the last and when I am about to leave when Coin calls. 

"And Katniss, get ready, tomorrow is a big day. You're now released from the hospital and will spend the night here in the room 19 on the 3th floor. Good afternoon." I nod and leave the room. 

On my way to my room I find Haymitch. Great, I really need to talk to him right now. 

"Hello sweetheart. Come here" he says grabbing my arm and leading me into a room. 

"First I want to know how did you get in that conclusion about the games?" 

"I just thought that wasn't right."

"Okay, so you're probably wondering why I didn't agree with you in the command. So you can see why she did it yeah? She wants power and be in the place Snow was. She will definitely keep the games on going. She's just trying to use our thirst for revenge."

"Yes, I did. Coin will keep the games, but with the Capitol's children and even more deadly. She just wants Snow's place and I've got to kill her." 

"Good. Now, I'm sorry for what happened with the boy. I miss him too" 

"Come here" he says opening his arms and I do not hesitate to hug him 

"Everything will be alright" 

No Haymitch, it will not. And I let the tears fall.

I walk down the mansion when I stop at a door with two peacemakers in front. That looks like a greenhouse.

I walk down the mansion when I stop at a door with two peacemakers in front. That looks like a greenhouse. 

"Can I pass?" 

"No" says one of them sharply. 

"I am the Mockingjay and I want to get in" I say this time with more authority. 

I'm about to say something when Paylor appears.

"Let her go. It will not cause damage. She has my authority" 

"Yes ma'am" says the second peacekeeper.

I send her a look of gratitude and mouth 'Thank you' and she just nods and smiles. I step by the peacemakers, sending them a glare.

The greenhouse is huge and contains huge plantations of white roses. The strong smell invades my nose and makes me tear up. I'm passing through the plantations when I see him. His snake-like eyes stare at me, the smell of blood and rose together only confirms it. Snow. Shivers spread through my body. After all he did, those children, Peeta...

I try to control myself not to kill him on the spot. Tomorrow I will have completed my revenge. Well, almost. 

"Finally you found the way to my quarters. There are so many things we should talk, so let's go right to the most important things." He starts coughing, and uses a small tissue, which gets red from the blood.

"I wanted to know how sorry I am for the death of so sweet Peeta."

His words makes a stinging pain runs through my chest. There are no limits to his cruelty, he will try to destroy me how much he can. 

"Such an unnecessary loss. I was ready to surrender when they released the parachute." His snake eyes fix on me, without missing a move I make. 

Who are they?

"It really did not cross your mind I would have given that order ? If at that moment I was in a hovercraft under my commands, I would be using it to escape, right? So why I would give me the job of killing those children? We both know that for me, there is no problem in taking lives, especially of children, but there would be no reason for me to destroy an enclosure full of Capitol's children. Coin executed a flawless plan, to change the mind of my people and their loyalty to me. It was also broadcast live. One can see one Plutarch finger on it, right? I was too slow to realize that she just wanted my place from the beginning. It seems we were both victims, no?"

After what Haymitch explained to me, I know he's right, but I will not admit it. 

"I do not believe  in you." He just smiled lightly watching me, pretending to be mad.

"My dear Miss. Everdeen. I thought we agreed not to lie to each other."