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Be her calm. Be her home. Don't be another battle she has to fight.
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July 29, 2020
Amy's POV

I woke up feeling refreshed since I slept early the night before. I had been sleeping well for over a week, and I could already see the changes. My face glowed, the slap mark vanished, my appetite was scary, and overall, I felt so much better, and I truly wanted to enjoy these early to bed days.

It was early in the morning, and I heard Jay talking on the phone with Allan, and cooking as I walked over to the kitchen.

My heart ached a bit thinking about Taehyung, and how we hadn't been able to speak well with each other for so long now. Taking over the cooking, I told Jay to speak in peace, and she went out to the living, laughing and happily speaking to Allan. I felt happy for her. She truly deserved a man who would make her happy and always keep her happy.

I tasted and seasoned the soup and let it simmer as my mind wandered.

Ever since Taehyung and I got back together last week, he had been busy with work, having loads of interviews and ad shoots. He was busy, and that's why he couldn't contact me properly.

Taehyung is someone who loves to love and be loved. He will call me when he's free... that was how I convinced myself.

Switching off the stove, I poured out soup for the two of us and put the toast on two plates and took them to the small dining table in the kitchen. I informed Jay and went to brush my teeth. When I returned, Jay was done with the phone call, and we both ate our soup and toast.

"Amy, you were so bright when you woke up this morning. Why do you look so dull now? What happened, babe?" She asked in a concerned voice.

"It's nothing, Jay. I'm just thinking about my accumulated leave days. When would I use them?" I lied, avoiding her eyes.

"Don't lie. Did something happen between you two again?" She asked, worry evident in her voice.

"What? No, how's that possible when we haven't even spoken for a week?" I chuckled uneasily, an unfamiliar sensation churning within my stomach.

"What? You haven't spoken for a week? But why? How come I never noticed?" She was shocked.

"We did. Like a few texts. He's busy with work, Jay. He'll call me when he's free, it's nothing serious. And I'm not thinking about it. It's really the accumulated leave days only..." I lied again, giving her a tight-lipped smile.

"Okay, so if you really want to use those days, avail them and fly for a vacation, maybe? Within Korea or outside. That's your choice," she suggested with a sweet smile.

"Alone?" I raised my eyebrows in doubt.

"Maybe I can wear a Taehyung mask and accompany you," Jay said with a serious expression on her face.

"Jay!" I slapped her hand teasingly, and we both laughed.

"Cheer up, Amy. Let's plan it out tonight. Okay? I gotta go now," she said cheerfully, and I nodded.

With that, Jay left the house closing the door behind her. In the past one week, I hadn't felt a bit of loneliness until that day. I didn't ever miss Taehyung so much as I did then. Suddenly, I wanted to see him so bad. I felt so lost and helpless, but all I could do was sigh sadly and go about my day as usual.

Reaching the hospital as usual, I went about my daily work like a robot. After meeting many interesting patients that day, I almost forgot all about missing Taehyung and my accumulated leave days.

This is precisely what I love about my job. It makes me forget all my worries. In fact, I empathize a lot with my patients and feel sad and happy and frustrated and experience all sorts of emotions, but none at a personal level. I could leave behind all those emotions at work and go back home each day with a light mind that I helped someone that day.

The ability to cut off work-related emotions and go about my life was one skill that I consciously formed over the years. Somehow, I wasn't able to do that with Taehyung. Was it because I already loved him as an actor when he came to me? The sadness and despair in his beautiful eyes pierced my heart.

I desperately wanted to help him get out of his struggle. But when I started out, I told myself that I would cut off ties with him once we were done. I was confident that it would be just a professional relationship and nothing more. But I wavered. I forgot whatever I told myself. I was blinded by his love and warmth and his mere presence. We became closer emotionally and physically. We've been through hard days. Now we're physically apart, but my heart is with him, and my mind is full of him. The pain sets in when I'm alone.

I buried my head in my hands, massaging my eyes with the base of my palms, and I kept telling myself that he would call when he was free.

This is how his life would be, and if I can't accept it, then I am not fit to be with him. This would probably be our future too, that is, if we had one together. Too much to think of.

My head started to hurt. I checked the time, and it was a little past 6 pm already. My stomach felt weird, and I realized I hadn't eaten anything since morning.

After washing my face and collecting my things, I picked up a juice from the cafeteria and swiped off for the day. I took a taxi home and on my way, I bought some eggs. Jay arrived a few minutes later, and I cooked ramen with eggs for us. We both showered and ate and settled down at the dining table to plan a vacation for me.

"Okay, Amy. So, how many days do you have?" Jay asked, pulling out her planner and flipping through to a fresh page.

Maybe a vacation will really help. I should try. Anyway, I don't work on Saturdays anymore.

"Around thirty-five days," I smiled sheepishly.

She was shocked.
"Wow! That's a lot. Will you be able to take off without a pay cut?"

"I have to check how many days I can take in one stretch," I said, nodding, unsure of how accumulated leave days worked in Korea.

"Okay, check that first. Let's assume it's a minimum of five days at least. Oh, by the way, can these be carried over?" She was curious.

"Yeah, for two years," I nodded and leaned forward resting my elbows on the table.

"Awesome... so if you can take five days off-" she began, and my phone rang inside the bedroom, interrupting Jay's plan proposal. I told her to wait and went in to see who was calling.

Picking up my phone, I saw that it was a call from Taehyung. My lips stretched into a broad smile when I saw his name, and I answered the call without any delay.

"Taehyung?" I said and sat down on the bed.

"Amy, how have you been?" He spoke in his deep voice that sent chills down my spine and made my hands tremble in excitement.

"Taehyung, I've not been doing great. In fact, I missed you so much today especially," my eyes welled up, wanting to hold him tight and snuggle up to him more than anything else.

"Baby, I'm so happy to hear your voice right now. I missed you so bad. Every day seemed so long," Taehyung spoke in his sensuous deep voice.

"Taehyung, I missed you too much," I let out sadly and leaned back on the headboard.

"Me too, Amy... I want to see you as soon as I can," he said sadly.

"Where are you now?"

"I'm driving back home now. I so wanted to speak with you, and that's why I decided to go back home early tonight. My work is done anyway. Amy, I have something to tell you. I'm sure you'll be thrilled to hear it," he spoke excitedly.

"Did you win an award?" I asked, my excitement overtaking his by a small margin.

"Not about work. It's about us," he said with a naughty chuckle.

"Us? Umm... Are we meeting soon?" I sounded even more excited this time.

Taehyung laughed.
"Yeah, we are... guess where?"

I was hyper-excited suddenly, and my heart began pounding faster.
"WE ARE? Oh my God, Taehyung... I can't wait to meet you. At the Korean restaurant?" I giggled, sitting upright in bed, hugging a pillow on my lap.

"No... even better," he clarified.

"At my house?" I raised my eyebrows.

"Even better," he said, laughing.

"At your house? It's definitely better than everywhere else," I declared decisively.

He laughed again.
"No, last guess... this place is even better." The mischief in his tone and the depth of his voice was making my skin bristle with anticipation.

"Only Jeju island could be better than your house," I tried, knowing how much he loved Jeju-do, also feeling quite confident that my guess was wrong.

"Bingo!" He laughed again.

I gasped, "What??"

"Yeah," he replied coolly.

"What yeah? Are we going to Jeju??" I asked in disbelief, my eyes rounding and my jaw dropping to the floor.

"We are. Get ready to go to Jeju with me. On the 1st. We'll be there for four days," his voice was low and smoky.

Am I in my grave?

I still couldn't believe my ears.
"Taehyung? Are you serious about this?" I asked again, my hands turning cold with excitement.

"Yeah, Amy. Baby, I want to make it the best four days of our lives," he said in his breathy, deep voice that sent shivers down my spine.

"Taehyung, wow! I can't believe this..." I sat up cross-legged and almost squealed on the phone.

"Wait until I take you there," he chuckled and passed a few kisses to me.

"Whoa... Oh my God! I'm so excited already," I squealed again, literally bouncing on the bed.

"Me too, Amy... I'm excited thinking about all that we can do together there. I can't wait," he giggled, and I felt my cheeks heating up, a blush that I could feel so obviously was creeping onto my face and my whole body.

"Me too, Taehyung... me too," I laughed and blushed in excitement, burying my face in a pillow.

"Baby, so no flops. Get ready to leave on the 1st. We're leaving early morning by a private jet. I'll pick you up from home. Okay?" He asked, and I hummed in response.

"Okay... so how many days to go?"
I checked the calendar and was shocked that today was the 29th already. "So just two more days to go??" I gasped, feeling totally unprepared, yet the adrenaline rush was making my heart beat at unhealthy speeds.

"Yeah..." Taehyung growled in his deep, sexy voice, causing goosebumps to erupt all over my body.

"Wow... okay, baby. I'll apply for leave right away," I said, mentally shortlisting the eligible clothes that would be appropriate for the trip.

"Yeah... and pack up well," he interrupted.

"I will," I chuckled.

"I love you, Amy," he said in a low, seductive voice, his baritone ringing deep within my ear, almost as if I could hear him from within my heart.

"I love you more, Taehyung," I said and passed a few kisses to him, wishing I could meet him right away. We both spoke for a while more and ended the call.

"Jay..." I called out and turned around to see her standing right there.

"No need for a Taehyung mask," said Jay from the doorway, leaning against the doorframe with her hands folded under her chest and a naughty smile on her face.

"Ahh... such a brat. You heard everything?" I giggled, putting my phone away.

"I heard what I needed to. That's one expensive boyfriend!!" She said with an impressed look and a nod of approval.

"That's just his way," I shrugged shyly.

"Babe, get that darned leave working. Shoot out an e-mail now!" Jay said and leaped onto the bed next to me.

So, we both sat down and sent my leave application request. Then we wrote a list of what to pack for the trip.

"Just pack two sets of clothes. You'll not need anything more anyway," Jay declared and tickled my waist.

I found myself blushing and giggling.
"What are you talking about? We're not going to just sleep around all day. I need to pack some good-looking clothes."

"Let's go shopping tomorrow then? Buy some fancy lingerie and a couple of nice clothes," she suggested, and I nodded.

"Taehyung doesn't mind those anyway. But still, yeah, let's shop tomorrow. I'll meet you at the mall at 6:30 sharp, okay?" I asked her, and she showed thumbs up.

My phone beeped, and it was a message from Taehyung. Opening it, I almost fumbled and dropped the phone to the floor, my lungs forgetting how to breathe for a brief while. He sent me a shirtless selfie with his messy hair that revealed just a bit of his smooth shoulders, collarbones to die for and a little bit of his chest.

He's such a tease.

A text followed.

Tae:
Do you want to see more?

Ahh... is he horny now?

Me:
I want to touch and not just see

I replied starting to feel twitchy already, and realized just then that the last time we slept together was more than a month ago.

Tae:
Ahh... 2 more days to go and I'm all yours... 😍

Me:
Sure gonna be the longest 2 days of my life 😭

Tae:
can I come over now?

Me:
Taehyung... stop it. I can't go to sleep feeling horny

Tae:
I can help you with it doctor 😉

Me:
Good night 😉

Tae:
I'll see you in your dreams baby

Me:
😍

We stopped texting for the night, and I hit the bed right away, feeling thrilled and excited just thinking about being with Taehyung, and I finally fell asleep after a long while.

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