private messages

junebug
i'm sad

s(mel)ly
suffer in silence

junebug
no mel i'm actually sad

s(mel)ly
like real sad?

s(mel)ly
not your usual ''my cat doesn't like the sweater i knit him" kind of sad?

junebug
like real sad

s(mel)ly
oh no

s(mel)ly
what happened?

junebug
today would've been my 3 year anniversary with seb

s(mel)ly
you act like he's dead

s(mel)ly
he's still here june

junebug
you're right

junebug
the only thing that's dead is my relationship

s(mel)ly
aren't you the one who broke up with him

junebug
yeah

junebug
i just didn't realize how much it would suck to find out he has a new girlfriend

s(mel)ly
did he tell you that

junebug is typing...

junebug
technically i saw it on e!news

s(mel)ly
june

s(mel)ly
e!news is the least reputable source on the face of god's green earth

s(mel)ly
last week they published an article saying you died in a paragliding accident

s(mel)ly
i mean it's a pretty sweet way to die but still

junebug
i know

junebug
i just don't understand why i'm feeling this way

s(mel)ly
could be indigestion

junebug
it's been a year and a half and i'm the one who broke up with him

junebug
all the reasons i broke up with him still exist nothing has changed

junebug
so why does it feel like the time you punched me in the stomach every time i hear about him moving on

s(mel)ly
that was self defense

junebug
i sneezed

s(mel)ly
it sounded like a gunshot i panicked

s(mel)ly
sorry back to emotional turmoil or whatever

junebug
i've just spent a year and a half wondering what things would be like if we'd never broken up

junebug
and it kills me that he's not wondering the same

s(mel)ly
i'm sure he is

s(mel)ly
the day that man stops being hopelessly and irrefutably in love with you is the day i enjoy human contact

junebug
you think?

s(mel)ly
i know

s(mel)ly
okay this talking about our feelings thing has been really great but i think it's giving me hives so i'm going to go

junebug
you're my best friend in the whole world remember that

s(mel)ly
gross

junebug
i love you

s(mel)ly
i sometimes manage to tolerate you

s(mel)ly
ugh look at me getting all sappy

AUTHOR'S NOTE: i'm a hoe for jeb sorry. also, i'm a hoe for mel and june's friendship. it was one of my favorite parts of sonata so expect a lot of soft fluffy moments ruined by mel's inability to emote in the future