Bakugou woke up with a numb feeling and a really dry throat.
He tried opening his eyes and when he did so, everything was white.
Was he blind? He blinked a few times but still all he saw was white, only white.
No. No. No. This can't be happening. He was starting to breath heavily and could feel his heart beating faster. Something besides him started peeping quicker. Where was he?
After a few minutes that felt like an eternity his eyes slowly began to attach to the lightning. Thank god he wasn't blind. He slowly turned his head to the left and saw that the room he was currently in was mostly empty.
The walls were white as well as the curtains. A little table was standing beside him with a box filled with pills and a glass of water on it.
He slowly turned his head to the other side investigating this part of the room too.
There was a big machine beside him, the peeping was coming from it. Bakugou asumed it was a heart rate monitor. The only other thing in this room was a small closet. Bakugou looked down at himself. There was a white blanket neatly lying over him, in his right hand he had a infusion and lots of other wires connected to the machine beside him.
Was he in a hospital? Probably, but why? He tried to remember something, but the last thing he remembered was him sitting in his father's apartment. What happened afterwards? God he can't remember anything. How did he end up like this? Bakugou tried to sit up but immediately stopped when he felt a huge pain in his chest and his whole body tensed up.
He opened his mouth and tried to scream for help but nothing got out of his mouth. Why was he not able to talk? He started panicking again.
Help. Please someone... help.
He needs to get out of here. What if they are trying to kill him here?
He slowly reached for the infusion and pulled it out quickly.
Fuck that hurt like hell. He took a few deep breaths before ripping some of the wires that were connected to the heart rate monitor off. He slowly rolled over and tried to get out of the bed but instead he fell down and gasped for air. It fucking hurts.
His chest felt like 1000 knives were stabbing through it.
His vision slowly started getting blurry and he felt like throwing up. He placed his head on his hands and tried to calm down.
Why is this happening to him?
He heard a dull sound which reminded him of a door opening and closing but it sounded so far away. He tried to turn the way the sound was but his body just wouldn't move. He couldn't focus at all. He heard some dull voices around him but couldn't figure out what they were saying.

When Todoroki followed some doctors into the room he felt his heart breaking at the sight of Katsuki. Bakugou was lying on the ground, his head in his hands and his whole body shaking.
He quickly kneeled down in front of Bakugou and reached out for his head. He placed his hands on Bakugous cheeks, pulled his head up and tried to talk to Bakugou. But he seemed to be completely gone, like he was in another world.

"Bakugou hey, Bakugou. Bakugou can you hear me? Katsuki!"

Said person seemed to be slowly coming back to reality.

"Katsuki I'm here. Everything is all right. You don't need to worry anymore, you're safe. You're safe Katsuki."

Little sobs escaped Todorokis mouth and Bakugou just looked at him like he couldn't believe that Todoroki was here right now.
One of the doctors slowly kneeled down beside them and looked at Todoroki as if asking for permission to make sure Bakugou is alright. Todoroki slowly nodded and let got of Bakugous face but was stopped when Bakugou grabbed his hands.
He looked up and his gaze was met with Bakugous crimson red eyes but they didn't had this confidence in them, he didn't had this teasing in his eyes. Again he felt sadness coming up and settling in his heart.
But Bakugou was here, he was here with him and Todoroki is going to replace the sadness, anxiety and panic in his eyes with the old confident and teasing gaze of Bakugou.
Bakugou opened his mouth, but needed a few attempts until he managed to say something.
His hands were slightly shaking and Katsuki tightened his grip around Todorokis hands.

"S...sta..stay..."

Todoroki smiled widely while tears of happiness rolled down his cheeks. How long had he not been crying ? Before he met Bakugou he probably hadn't cried for years but Bakugou just somehow manages to make Todoroki feel all kind of things.

"Of course. I'm going to stay right here with you all the time ok? But the doctors need to check up on you, they are not going to hurt you."

Bakugou slowly nodded and Todoroki looked at the doctor and gave him a sign that he could conintue.
The doctors checked Bakugou and the whole time Todoroki held his hand, watching carefully what the doctors were doing.

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A few days later Bakugou was strong enough to get out of bed and Todoroki helped him to get to the bathroom. Bakugou was leaning on Todorokis shoulder and they walked slowly. When they arrive Bakugou sat down on the edge of the bathtub first and takes a break. But Todoroki is so proud of his Katsuki even though he only walked a few metres.

"You did it Katsuki. I told you we were going to make it."

Todoroki smiled at Katsuki but he didn't seem to be so happy with his success.

"Great. I just walked 5 fucking metres and I didn't even walked on my own."

Bakugou looked down and avoided Todorokis gaze. Todoroki kneeled down in front of Bakugou and cupped Katsukis face in his hands. He placed a small kiss on his nose.

"Katsuki. You've been through a lot and you're going to take some time to get your strength back but we are going to make it. I'm here and I'm going to help you and we are going to make it, you got that?"

Bakugou looked in Todorokis heterochromic eyes.
He then got up and looked into the mirror. The last few days he has been thinking a lot mostly to regain his memory but sometimes other thoughts managed to get in his mind. And when he's looked at his reflection in the mirror these thoughts come back.
Doubt. Anger. Hate. Sadness.

"Look at me. I can't even walk alone, my body is covered in ugly scars. I don't have fucking hair anymore. It's going to take so many months till I'm fully recovered but I'm probably never going to be fully recovered. I had several breakdowns the last few days, you can't sleep properly because I always fucking wake you up because of my nightmares. I know that this hard for you and I don't want you to suffer because of me. Because I'm too fucking weak. I mean how the fuck-"

"STOP"

Todoroki stood up and turned Bakugou so they looked directly at each other.

"Katsuki what the fuck are you saying right now? This is bullshit and you know that. I love you and I'll always love you even when you'll never be able to walk again even when your face is completely covered in scars even when you have several breakdowns a day. I'm not suffering. Yes it's exhausting but I'm doing this because I love you and I'm going to do anything for you."

Bakugou was crying now and Todoroki knows that Bakugou doesn't cry a lot.
Todoroki wraps his arms around him and hugs him like he would lose him any second. Bakugou buries his face in Todorokis chest and Todoroki can feel the tears of Bakugou that wet his shirt. He carefully places one hand on Katsukis head and strokes through his stubbles whilst his other hand is drawing small circles on Katsukis back.

"It's all right Katsuki. I'm here. I'm not going to leave you. I love you I- fuck I don't know if I could be able to still live without you... you're the most important person in my life and I can't lose you, you got that? I need you Bakugou Katsuki. I need you."

Todoroki tightened his arms around Bakugou and placed some gentle kisses on his head. They stayed like this for a few minutes until Bakugou pushed himself away from Todoroki but only so much that he could look into his eyes. He needed a few seconds to sort his thoughts and what he wants to say until he speaks.

"I... I love you... I love you so much I think I've never loved someone so fucking much before and I just... you... god look at me. Who am i?... I just mean you're the son of the 2nd best... ex best hero, god you know what I mean and I'm the one whos always in trouble and well I'm not very popular because people just don't like me and... fuck... you deserve someone better... someone who likes going to those boring meetings and who is popular an-"

Bakugou's rambling was stopped with a finger on his mouth. Todoroki was looking at him and Bakugou lowered Todorokis finger so he could speak again.

"But I don't... I want you to be happy and I just want to spend the rest of my life with you. I'll try my best... no I  will do anything to keep you safe and to make you happy. I love you so fucking much Todoroki Shoto and you bastard made me fall for you, someone way better than me but you still want to stay with me so you better keep that promise and don't ever leave me... I just don't know what I would do without you."

Todoroki didn't know what to say he was just so in love with the person in front of him.
Bakugou placed a small kiss on Todorokis nose and then on his mouth. Todoroki quickly wrapped his arms around Bakugou and pulled him into the kiss.
Bakugou started laughing into the kiss and a few last tears ran down his face.
Neither of them could imagine a life without the other.

A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.

- Sheelagh Lennon -

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So yeahhhh this is the last chapterrrrr woohooo
I'm pretty proud of me that I actually finished this story and didn't like stop writing this fic🙏
And thanks for all the support, that really means a lot to me and you guys are so nice, interacting with all of you is fun ❤

UPCOMING STUFF
-so as I already said I'll write some small fics about future todobaku, the question now is would you guys prefer it if I would put all the small stories in one or different books?
-Gonna write my thoughts as I also already said and
-I'll probably write a "non fandom" story but I have so many ideas so I don't what it'll be about

I hope you're all having a nice day and week😊
Much love to all of you❤

-Minuna