Demons, angels, vampires, werewolves, warlocks and many more. Oh can't forget the world it's all about. The shadow world, where shadowhunters protect mundanes from the evils. The shapeshifting demons and the downworlders. Mundanes or humans as they call themselves. Shadowhunters are half mundane and half angle. Shadowhunters born from the said to be archangel Raziel. From the mortal cup that was filled with angelic blood

Raziel is often called the keeper of secrets and the anble of mysteries. Shadowhunters are the appointed nephilim warriors on earth. Created by the angle Raziel himself. From the world of seelies who are born to never lie. Although the older they are the better they can be and working around the truth. Warlocks who can be new or centuries old.

Angles who are everlasting and so forth you know. The world that some grew up in would be different. Some crave violence and others just want normal lives. Well you can't live a normal life when normal isn't what you thought. I won't tell you about myself just yet, but keep hanging in there. There is so much you must know about me and my world.

Wars aren't described the way mundanes would think. Those wars are different then our catastrophic ones. Where while species can we whipped from earth. Where multiple dimensions exist along with magic. Portals, spells, demons, the princes of hell and the devil. All of it, the supernatural things that belong in books.

Fictional books that aren't supposed to be real. Well the legends and the myths are all very much true. From the shadowhunters that protect the downworlders and the mundanes. To the rivalry between them all that has gone on forever. How people can't see those with the runes on their skin. Unless they do chose to the the mundanes see them.

These things aren't supposed to exist and can drive one insane. I grew up in this insane world. Where monsters are real and the roam the earth. Whether some are visible and some are not. When you grow up like I have it's all so normal. For mundanes it's complicated they don't have to worry about us. We protect them without a thanks in return.

Why because it's our sacred duty to do as the rules tell. Rules or laws whatever you'd like to call them. More like a list on paper that holds you back. From doing what is more right then what the paper says. How does one go about defining good and evil. What is the definition within one's mind. Is good what others find evil and is evil what others find good.

Like Prince Charming from Cinderella and whatever. Mundanes they have their weird movies don't they. Off track sorry I'm off crack, sorry about that really. I'll tell you my name my real true name shortly. After I explain all of this stuff that you probably won't remember. My life has and always will be very tricky and complex. I grew up with all this stuff around me.

Parabatai a person who your soul connects to instantly. Not a soulmate you don't end up together. Well it's a possibility for sure, but unlikely. Wedding runes, the parabatai runes, night vision, enhanced hearing. Protection, anti possession runes. There are so many of them that you can't even list them all. You can if you see them and have studied them like I.

The gray book of runes where your taught everything. Taught from the moment your brought into the world. The world of shadowhunting, the shadow world per say. Where you fight for what's right or fight for what the clave tell you. The world is a crazy place for anyone and everyone.
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They say a lot of things about someone when they change. They change the definition of good and evil. When you've lost as much as I have in life. Then you can officially start to judge me. For why I changed for how I put myself into my work. Into doing what I needed to in order to forget. Forget him forget the person I was bond to forever.

My parapatai, my soul bonded other half. The one person I fought beside on every mission. They say part of you dies when they die. It's more excruciating then they say in the beginning. I didn't believe them when they warned me. I didn't believe when they told me our life would flash before my eyes. That I'd watch like a playback of when we met and our ceremony. It's the worst feeling in the world and I should have believed them.

Believed them when they warned me to protect them at all costs. To never let emotions cloud my judgment. Why can't we feel when we absolutely need to feel. Feelings don't cloud our judgment they absolutely don't. No in fact they make us stronger, better that before. That is until everything is ripped away from you. Then you lose all feeling and become numb. You become ruthless and cold, you become unlovable.

You throw yourself into work because you can't do anything else. You can't focus on anything because it hurts to much. Hurts to eat, to think, to move with put them. You want to do anything and everything to stop the pain. The pain of the loss you'd never have back. You feel like you've failed everyone and especially your parapatai. Your parents who died long before the bond.

Your best friends and all those that fallowed. When I lost him I dropped everything. I didn't give myself a second to mourn afterwards. I felt nothing, no I chose to feel absolutely nothing. My parapatai the one who was bond to me. Died right in front of me and I couldn't stop it. I was feet away from getting to him, but it was no use. The bond was then severed and I felt so much pain.

The pain was so much and it hurt to watch it all happen. Hurt to see the moment we meant flash in my mind. Hurt to see the ceremony we once had for the bond. To feel the burn of my rune fading away because I'd lost them. Lost them and failed to protect them at all cost. I really should have listened to that warning.

Although in the end I would have outlived them. Outlived them all because I was different. Different in more ways than just one.