Why couldn't I see Him?

Susan walked through the catacombs, passing fauns, centaurs, and dwarves bustling about as they sharpened and cleaned various weapons. Turning a corner, she decided to be more direct.

Why couldn't I see You?

No answer. No reply.

And no help, she thought.

In that moment, she could almost understand those back home who called themselves Deists; believing that God had created the world then left it on its own.

Where are you?

Still nothing.

I know I've not been who you want me to be-but I'm not asking for myself. Won't you at least save your people, the Narnians?

There had been moments in England when Susan had doubted that all of it had been real; Narnia, Aslan, the Battle, talking animals, Jadis-the whole lot of it. But they'd only been brief; banished with a shake of the head and a reminder of what they'd experienced. But, before Caspian had sounded that horn, they had become more frequent, more plausible, even more welcome. What if they had imagined the whole thing? What if it was as Edmund had first postulated; a children's game and nothing more?

Then of course, it would be silly to mourn over a pretend world invented by bored siblings. Silly to feel so deeply for a game one used to play.

After all, wasn't it easier to say something had never existed than to grieve its loss?

A/N: Sorry for the long wait, guys! This actually came to me while cleaning the house for Christmas celebrations and I wrote it down, then let it sit just in case I came up with something to add to it. Nothing came to me, so I decided to publish as-is.

This is my take on why Susan stopped believing in Narnia. I've seen her typed as an ISTJ, ISFJ, and ESFJ. Due to the fact she became immersed in party life and popularity in the Narnia books, I tend to believe that she's an ESFJ. ESFJs can become illogical and go into denial when upset. They don't like conflict-external or internal-and will seek to resolve it. In this case, that would be through denying the reality of what Susan lost or believes she will lose.