https://youtu.be/WCCovrKvAtU

we are on the ROOFTOP somewhere in the
CITY. winter embraces us in   deadly arms
of //// c-c-cold ///// of        misty breaths
mixing into the sky like
                     WHITE ROSES
(not painted with blood)

we sip on the CITY LIGHTS,    in winter,
oh, we sip on the    c i t y l i g h t s
and the SENSATION of  f a r a w a y
between  u        [10 cm]          s

AUBURN'S                    POV

you're  holding a  red umbrella over us
as we stand
u n d e r
the  snow
         falling all around
         falling snow • falling sensations
                      filling my lungs
               &
        d r o w n i n g
i n                          f e a r
               &
u n  e v e n  b   r e a   t h i   n g
 i'm scared i'm scared i'm scared i'm scared
imscaredimscaredimscaredimscaredimscared
         [after all this time i'm still afraid]

we've standing here for hours without any
words, just the unspoken ones.      time
                        p a s s e s
             in     slow     motion
like
             g r a y & o l d movies

i glance at you,   and suddenly the blurred
night sharpens into CLARITY. CLARITY.
because right then,     you catch my eye
                &
i'm
    f
      a               b a c k
    l
      l
    i       n       t       o
      n
    g
                          SPACE
and
                           TIME
& something that makes
my vision sway, as if i
were drunk   on dizzy
                 s e n s a t i o n s
           of     t      º·  • .  . º·    
                 a  🌠 *⁕ 🌍   ☀
                 r     •  º· • *⁕✨
                 l   • .  .  🌃 º· •
             w h i s k e y             
                 t
         { vertigo / vertigo }
( s t a r l i t           w h i s k e y
               i n
y o u r                     e y e s )

there's something  strange in my chest,
something that i don't   UNDERSTAND.
it feels like          { gravity / gravity}
           and,
it doesn't feel like that of      LOVERS 
it feels like something that of       stars.
something more than ASTRONOMICAL,
and it SCARES me,
                scares me more than
                       falling does.

ROSELIN'S                    POV

you look at me as if we were lovers again,
with a strange glimmer in your eyes. eyes
that hold light years
                 &       s
                    n e u t r o n
                          a
                          r
                          s
before you look
a w a y again

oh, auburn.   i really don't understand you.

auburn. where did we go?   because we are
                                here
but we're not
we are here but
we are not, here
but we are not.
                      so where are we?

we continue to walk together,  despite how
f a r   a    w       a             y
             e       r
                     e
we continue to walk together,     as lovers,
                        then strangers,
                       then something
                          i n  t h e
              MIDDLE,
something                      GRAY

so, auburn. let's be        g   r   a   y
                 toge
                 ther
let's be    GRAY TOGETHER, TOGETHER.
because you are darkness,
and i am light, but broken.
                    ( could anything be
                      more beautiful?)
we are both looking for home,
somewhere to return to every
time we fade. so, until then,
let's be       GRAY        TOGETHER.

    º·       • .       . º·    
   🌠 *  ⁕       🌍           ☀
      •  º        · • *    ⁕✨
     •          .   .  🌃 º      · •

11:59:55.  11:59:56.  11:59:57.  11:59:58.

12       :       00       :       00

( as the fireworks exploded,   they both drew
closer to one another. but never close enough )