Baekhyun's Pov.......

"Baekhyun!!!" Open the damn door." Kai shouted banging on my room door but I couldn't anymore. I couldn't hold on anymore. I wanted to die. The blades dug into my wrists and I cried wincing at the pain it gave me. My heart loved Chanyeol. My body yearned for his touch. If I stayed any longer I would really go mad. But before I could hang myself a hand pulled me into a warm embrace hugging me tightly as I wailed my soul out.

"I...I...love him Kai...I need him like crazy...I'm going crazy. I can't. It hurts me." I cried so loud my voice was sour and my chest hurt.

"Baek my dear, Chanyeol would die a million times if he knew you hurt and kill yourself." Kai carried me to the hospital room as he dabbed my cut and started stitching it.

"Ahh....But I want Chanyeol...." I cried again and he smiled patting my cheek.

"I know Baekkie. Listen don't orphan Chaelah Baekhyun. She at least needs her mother." Kai made me lay on the bed. "Rest I'll be back in a while." He said walking away.

"Chanyeol!!! Chaelah kicked." I had giggled holding my baby bump and feeling for his hand as I placed it on my tummy.

"I wish she looks like you." Chanyeol had said kissing my baby bump.

"No I want her to be just like you." I had giggled again blushing as he carried me bridal style and swirled me around.

"I'm sorry for being such a monster baby." He had teared up and pouted putting me down.

"Honey, It's fine. I'm happy in your arms and that's all that matters." I had smiled and kissed him softly.

"Mommy!!! I can finally go home but I want Daddy..." My daughter pouted just like her father from Anna's hands as I walked it with my Hospital coat. I was stupid to think of leaving my baby alone in this harsh word. I stretched my hands towards her and she clung onto me, squeezing me on the process.

I feared going home to empty solitude. His absence was haunting me like crazy. I tucked Chaelah to bed and went to the west wing as I sat near the door of his studio and started singing through tears,

"I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me
I still feel your touch in my dreams
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why
Without you it's hard to survive'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last
Need you by my side'Cause every time we touch, I feel the static
And every time we kiss I reach for the sky
Can't you hear my heart beat so I can't let you go
Want you in my lifeYour arms are my castle, your heart is my sky
They wipe away tears that I cry
The good and the bad times we've been through them all
You make me rise when I fall'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last
Need you by my side'Cause every time we touch, I feel the static
And every time we kiss I reach for the sky
Can't you hear my heart beat so I can't let you go
Want you in my life'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last
Need you by my side."

We used to sit in this very room, singing for our heart contains. A silent melody of a faint heart beat filled my ears but I was too sad and shattered to look further.

"You hold it like this and your fingers should do the job. Like it should play the lyrics that your heart sings. Got it?"  Chanyeol had felt my hands as he placed in gently on the guitar.

"Woah It sounds amazing!!!" I had gasped bouncing on his crossed legs  with his shirt on and only a boxer.

"Just like you..So Umm I'll sing for you my princess..." Chanyeol kissed my neck and I giggled blushing and nodding as he started playing and singing with his deep velvety voice.

"With my old guitar

I'll take all the confessions I couldn't say
All the things I swallowed inside
And tell you right now as if I made it into a song
Just listen, I'll sing for you

I love you so much but I don't tell you that I love you
It's awkward, my pride won't allow me
I'll take courage and tell you today
But just listen without much thought, I'll sing for you

The way you cry, the way you smile
Do you know how much you mean to me?
Words I wanna say, words I lost
I'll confess to you but just listen
I'll sing for you, sing for you
Just listen and smile

It's kind of funny, I only have you
But sometimes, I'm worse than a stranger to you
When in truth, I just wanna put my head in your arms
And be held by you

The way you cry, the way you smile
Do you know how much you mean to me?
Words I regretted as I turned around
I'll apologize but just listen
I'll sing for you, sing for you
Just pretend that nothing's happening

I'm so thankful every day that you are here
You're a gift from God

When today passes, I might get awkward again
But I wanna tell you today, so listen

The way you cry, the way you smile
Do you know how much you mean to me?
Words I wanna say, words I lost
I'll confess to you though it might sound awkward
Just listen, I'll sing for you, sing for you
Just listen, I'll sing for you .

I love you Park Baekhyun." He had hugged me tightly, his love over flowing as my tears fell on my thighs. 

It was so hard that my heart no longer pumped blood but sadness and pain that my body was weakening drastically. I held my heart in pain as I sobbed into my hand. I need him. We were falling sick and Chanyeol was our only cure. But he wasn't there.