Later that night

Princesspeaches&cream🍑💦:
Hey

Jk97:
Hey

Princesspeaches&cream🍑💦:
You left so quickly before I wanted to make sure you're okay

Jk97:
Yeah well I didn't want your mum seeing me and get you into more trouble

Princesspeaches&cream🍑💦:
Well she didn't so you don't have to worry about that

Jk97:
Good

Princesspeaches&cream🍑💦:
Are you sure you're okay???

Jk97:
Yeah honestly

Bangtan gc

Jimin shi:
Thanks for abandoning us before kooks

Jungkook💪:
Sorry
Just needed to avoid Mrs L/n from seeing me

Jin:
So what happened???

TaeTae;
Innit don't leave us hanging

Jungkook💪:
I saw Y/n about to kiss BamBam

Jin:
NO!!!

TaeTae:
Da fuck!?

Jungkook💪:
It's not like that
Or so she says

Jin:
Wdym?

Jungkook💪:
It was supposed to be an act for her mum to see so she'd stop forcing Y/n to go to these dinners

Jungkook💪:
She wants her mum to think BamBam is her boyfriend so she'll be less strict on when she can go out 

TaeTae:
Oo sneaky

Jimin shi:
So when she goes to see you her mum will think she's with golden boy BamBam

Jimin shi:
Kinda clever actually

Jungkook💪:
Do you think it's the truth?

Jimin shi:
Yeah

TaeTae:
Yeah

Jin:
I acc do

Jungkook💪:
I'm skeptical

Jin:
Nah you're just insecure af

Jungkook💪:
Thanks

Jin:
Remember how crazy she is about you

Jungkook💪:
You should have seen him tho
BamBams hot af

Jimin shi:
Kooks is there something you're not telling us?

Jungkook💪:
Fuck off I'm not gay

New message from Princesspeaches&cream🍑💦

Princesspeaches&cream🍑💦:
Was there anything you wanted to tell me before by the way?

Jk97:
There was
But it doesn't matter now

Princesspeaches&cream🍑💦:
Oh
You sure?

Jk97:
Yeah but do me a favour
Come round tonight

Princesspeaches&cream🍑💦:
But your parents are home

Jk97:
I know

Jk97:
But I wanna fuck you

11:32pm-30 minutes later

Y/n PoV

I tap the window gently and wait, my smile growing when I see Jungkook peer through the curtains. He opens the window for me to climb in, doing his regular action of shushing a finger against his lip to avoid me talking too loud from excitement.

"I brought face masks." I say, but the site of Jungkook removing his hoodie shuts me right up.

"Yeah okay." I nod and begin to remove my own clothes until I'm naked and being kissed on the bed. It always feels so great being with him like this. My skin feels more sensitive, like every touch from him sends a reaction throughout my body to the point where all my cells are fizzy.

"I love you." I say just as he kisses up my neck. I don't expect him to say it back and it doesn't even hurt when he doesn't. I know it should but it's hard to feel any kind of pain when he's kissing me like this.

I watch him progress down the bed, himself planting rushed kisses over my tummy and thighs until he's where he wants to be. With force he pushes my legs apart and I gasp, now watching him devour me with that beautiful pair of lips and tongue. It feels amazing. So good that I'm having to bite my own shoulder to stop from screaming. It's amazing. How he can make me feel such pleasure, such emotions.

"Jungkook I—." As I go to sit up he slams me back down, his hand now pressing hard against my chest as he continues pleasing me. It's a roughness I'm fond of until he does it a second time. "J-Jungkook?" He slams me back down again and I can't handle it, fear hits me.

"STOP!" I manage to sit up, my back now pressed against the headboard as I watch him look at me. His clothes are still on but I'm left to cover my naked self with one of the pillows on his bed. I furrow my brows at him. "Are you angry with me?"

He doesn't reply.

"You are aren't you? You're angry about what happened at the restaurant—."

"I'm not." He interrupts before getting up, himself now pulling his hoodie back on.

"Yes you are I can tell. You've never been so rough with me before—."

"I just wanted to try something new."

"No. You're lying. My Jungkook is sweet and caring, he wouldn't spring something on me like that without checking if I was okay with it first."

"Look if this is because of what you saw before with me and BamBam—."

"I couldn't give a flying fuck about him." The boy spits, and it actually brings my eyes to sting with tears. He sounds so harsh. So mean. It's not like him.

"Jungkook why can't you just admit you have strong feelings for me?? I know you haven't said it yet but you're in love with me just like I am with you—."

"I won't admit to being in love with you Y/n."

"...why not?"

The look in Jungkooks eyes is worrying. So worrying that I regret even saying anything. In fact I've never wanted to just erase a moment more than I do right now.

"Because you scare me Y/n." He says.

"I scare you?"

No. No please don't tell me all of this has been fake. Don't tell me he still thinks I'm a freak?? Don't let this fairytale be over!!

Just before I prepare myself for a panic attack. The boys next words bring me a small sense of relief.

"Tonight proved that you have the power to break my heart Y/n. And that terrifies me. I've already got so much shit going on in my life. My parents constant disappointment in me, popping pills just to avoid having a panic attack in class, feeling like an outsider in my own friend group."

"And then there's you." He hands me one of his T-shirts to change into, and when I pull the fabric over my head I'm able to see him how sitting beside me. Lifting his hand he gently cups my cheek, wiping away my tears with his thumb. "The one good thing in my life that actually feels perfect. Perfect for me. So perfect that I'm scared to ever lose you to someone else. So please don't make me admit to being in love with you Y/n. Because then you'll have the complete power to break my heart."