Noel

"Did you find her?" Christa asked hastily as soon as I got back in her apartment. I had run to catch Allison and say sorry to her again only to end getting infuriated seeing her with Adam. He wasn't my enemy in a way Richard was but he was his friend and a part of the group of the people I had hated. He was one of the main partners besides Richard and his brother, Jayce and that made me hate him too.

I wanted to beat him to shit just to send a message to Richard that he had messed with the wrong person but then I saw her. Allison stood there with her icy blue eyes and golden curls giving me glares. I could feel her hatred sending shivers down my spine. They made goosebumps rise on my skin. No one had this effect on me but she did. I felt that loathing she had for me inside me and somewhere it tugged at my heart on the wrong way. A slap from Christa on my cheek brought me out of my thoughts.

"Don't tell you said something humiliating to her once again? I assure you if you did I would kill you if you did." She screamed at me while I stood there rubbing my throbbing cheek.

"I couldn't say anything to her. She went away with Adam somewhere," I told her only to have her look at me with narrowed eyes.

"Don't you dare think that she is planning up something against you with Adam because I know it very well she isn't. She is new to this town and could have only met Adam the day I met you. I can vouch for that because she had hated from the moment she saw him staring at her straightforward." She assured.

"Didn't look that way downstairs?" I mumbled under my breath. I hated seeing them like that and this thought made me hate myself more. I hated the fact that she was affecting me. She wasn't supposed to, no one should then why the fucking hell she was.

"What did you say?" she demanded.

"I said that it didn't look like that way. It looked like they were fucking going on a date. You still want to vouch for her because-"

"Shut the hell up! One more fucking word and you would find yourself out of this house and never talking to me again." Her anger my anger shoot the sky. I was mad at Allison, mad at Adam, mad at her and fucking angry with myself.

"If she would have to go on a date with Adam she wouldn't have come to join us for the meal. I know she would have surely told me up if anything was going on with Adam." She informed me. Yeah, like she hell would have.

"Yeah, like the way she told you about what happened to her?" I snorted only to end up with a more angry Christa shooting glares at me. Damn, I shouldn't have said that.

"Do you fucking think any woman would share such a humiliating and degrading experience she had suffered herself. If you think so then I think should go and shout out to every other person I meet about what I had gone through. Even have it published in the newspaper!" she yelled at me and her last words made my eyes snap wide.

"Tell me, Noel, should I knock every other door in this building and tell them about how I was degraded myself. Do you think any woman should?" Her words put me to shame.

"It wasn't the way it happened with us, Christa." I tried to reason only to be shut up by her words.

"Really? Because the way I look at things. It is similar to the thing that happened with me. I was degraded by my own sister and family. My friends turned their backs on me and I had no one left. I think what you did to her what ten times worse than what happened with me, Noel. You made her believe you were interested in her. You build an illusion of love for her, allured her, fucked her and then degraded her just because you thought she was a rat, which she clearly wasn't. You don't have a fucking idea how much you have hurt her, not a fucking inch on an idea. I'm disgusted thinking that you have done this, Noel. For the first time in my life, I don't sympathize with you." I saw the disgust in her eyes for me and it killed me. I had no one besides her and knowing I had let her down made me hate myself. Shamed me in my own eyes.

"Not only that, you still had the guts to call her those things right here in my house. Tell me, Noel, you knew she was innocent wasn't she before coming down here. I bet you knew it and in the rage, you called her those disgustful things. How could you hurt anyone so much, Noel? Is this is who you are now? A fucking bastard and a rapist, as you wanted her to call it, as they had wanted me to." I closed my eyes at her words. Her words hit me straight in the heart, stabbed me, made me bleed and I was the one to blame for it. I looked at her and all I could see was disgust, anger, and disappointment.

"I didn't have sex with her," I said low, in hopes that it would pacify her.

"Huh?" She asked, confused. Rubbing my face I strode towards the window in her apartment and looked outside.

"I didn't have sex with her, didn't fuck her but made her believe we had," I told her with my eyes set on the setting sun.

"What? How? God! what the hell are you saying?" She angrily asked.

"I'm saying what you heard Christa. I didn't have sex with her but made her think we had. I had slipped ecstasy in her drink with a mild sleeping pill and seduced her to bed. Our clothes were stripped and that's when the drugs she kicked in. She pleased her self and I enclosed in myself in the bathroom until her moans died down and she passed out. I didn't fuck her just made her believe it. She assumed we had fucked and she had fallen asleep later on. When she woke up I asked her to get out, blamed her for being a rat and called her every dirty thing I could think of in that moment. I told her to go to Adam or Richard and shout this out as fucking rape. I just wanted to send the message to them that I didn't fucking care. However, when she persisted over the fact that she was innocent and I would pay for what I did I got her file checked this morning only to find that she wasn't what I had assumed to be. I had just cooked this story in my mind about her being the rat and Peterson's helper that I did things that were wrong on a high level." I turned around and saw her face losing its anger.

"I can't tell you how mad I was at myself, Christa when I realized what I had done to an innocent person. I felt like I had done those things once I was accused of. When thr truth washed over me about what I had done today morning, all I felt was guilt. The worst part of it was the lies I had to build up to preserve my reputation, to keep what I had done hidden and keep myself innocent to the world. I felt like I lost my right to be called innocent. She was right about one fact that I was a monster. What I had done to her shouldn't have been done but I was so much blinded with my own imagined lies and anger that I didn't realize what I was doing was right or wrong. All I wanted was to hurt them before they began to hurt me and do that I did something that I only regret now." I let her know what I felt. The anger vanished from her face and a sad look took over.

"Noel, we aren't sure that it was them who was behind what happened to us. It might be them who would have profited from it but we can't blame it on them. I know you blame them but you need to put an end to this fight right now. It has to end somewhere. If you think they did it then fight them in a way that is right and legal not the way you did. I don't know whether they play dirty or not but you shouldn't. You are not like this, not like the man I have known." She made me try to see a reason to stop fighting but how could I stop it.

"Have you forgotten what happened to you, Christa? How Jayce humiliated you and dumped you after the incident? It felt like he knew every detail of it and you still think that they haven't done a thing. I can bet you that they were involved in what happened somehow so I can never back down. I know what I had done was wrong but God, Christa I couldn't stop myself. I thought that I was taking revenge on Peterson's and Adam."

"Then you need to stop this right now. You need to let this hatred and feeling of revenge go. My sister is the biggest idiot and stupid woman who left you. She is to be blamed for this not other people. You have to let her go. If you live with this hatred and feelings for her, you would harm your only yourself. Can't you see what they made me do? They made you do this to Allison, your hatred for Peterson's and will to take revenge made you hurt and innocent. What you did was wrong and nothing can change what is done but from now on you have to promise me that you will let all this go. If they use dirty tricks drag them to fucking court and stop taking matters in your hand and becoming a monster. Stop doing such things and start saying sorry to Allison for heaven's sake. That girl didn't deserve that and what happened today in this house. Don't be the monster once someone tried to frame you to be." Her words put me into deep thought. She was right I had to let this go, let this hatred go. Maybe I was blaming the wrong people. Maybe it was never them and it all came down to Cheryl's trust on me. Maybe it was wrong on her part and others that caused us to be apart. All I knew was that someone had framed me up for the incident that night. The only question was who could it be if it wasn't them.

"Go back to your house and rest for now. Tommorrow I want you to come here first thing in the morning and then in my presence grovel to Allison for forgiveness and get her back on the job." I looked at her wide-eyed.

"Grovel?" I questioned shockingly. "Grovel to her wasn't a sorry suffice."

"That girl won't do with a sorry, Noel. From how much I have known her you need to do more than grovel to make things right with her. If you don't make things right with her then consider never talking to me ever again. Now get going." She ordered pointing towards the door. I walked out of there with one question in my mind.

How was I going to grovel and that to Allison? But the biggest question I thought was about why the hell did I feel things for Allison. Walking to the elevator I thought about the anger that I had felt seeing Adam there with Allison. I had felt these emotions once a long time back. I had felt jealousy of some kind from him when he had tried to talk with Cheryl when we were young and today I felt the same thing. Maybe it was the guilt of hurting Allison that made me care about her or was it something I was feeling all over again. I shook away that thought. No way could i feel something like that for her. Not for Allison. She was the complete opposite of Cheryl. No scratch that she was one of the boldest and frank women I had met. Was my taste changing after the betrayal from Cheryl or was Allison warming up to me? If it was the latter I didn't want that. Never.

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Allison,

Noel,

Christa and

Adam.

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