Noel

I had read each and every word in the file clearly and carefully. I wanted to tear it apart and throw it far away. I couldn't believe that what all that was written was true. Allison wasn't a fucking a rat but an innocent girl recommended to my HR department by a firm in New York, and that too especially by one of my college friend Eric Blake. 

Each and every word in that file infuriated me, boiled my blood and made me angry at my own self. I cooked up a fucking story inside my mind just because I didn't trust people anymore. I blamed an innocent girl who was trying to fucking help me when my company was fucking in troubles. I had got it all wrong. My own issues had pulled me into madness and in my own madness, I had just done the un thinkable. I had hurt Allison badly just because I had seen her in the wrong shades. I had eventually turned into something that Cheryl called me years back. I was in totality now a monster. A series of coincidences was what I had thought to be a well developed plan pushing me on a path of vegence and that too from a person who had no role in my fued with Richard and hsi fucking company.

"Do you need more info on the girl, sir?" Alex asked from the other side of the table and I didn't have a damn word to say. The info he brought me had just tarnished my image in my own eyes. I didn't know how could I have done something so brutal. I wanted to shook myself up and ask that.

"No, there is nothing I need to know more," I said keeping the file back down at the table, shifting it towards him to take it away.

"I can't look at it anymore. Add it to the company records." I told him with my hands on my face. The distress was evident on my face by the looks Alex was giving me.

"Are you alright, Noel?" He voiced his concern while taking the file and reading it himself.

"Yes," My voice came out fast and harsh and he looked at me with a raised brow.

"This girl is clean, nothing wrong with her and you are still upset after reading this." He stated. "I mean you should have been happy with it. What Kelly has been telling me about you and this girl Allison, I think she is clean to date." His words did nothing more than filling my heart with guilt and remorse. I had done all that to humiliate her and right now if the truth or even the gist of what I had done with Allison yesterday evening came out I would be the one fucking humiliated in front of everyone. The worst part was that it wasn't in my hands anymore but Allison's. She could barge in the office or fucking tell the world about what I had done and I couldn't have done a damn thing about it. Allison was in fucking control right at the moment and from the way she had left yesterday she was going to destroy me. The worst part was knowing that I myself was the composer of my own ruin. Even if there was a minute chance that Allison would keep it herself then I would I have to play the part of caring for Allison as more than a friend. I had to keep on with the charade and doing it this time would be damn too difficult because there wasn't a happy or normal Allison here but an angry one who hated me.

"Did you two had a fight or something?" If Alex wouldn't have been my good friend and the security chief of my company I would have snapped at him more like fucking have him fired. But he wasn't any other employee he was a good friend and best in the field of work. He was a good friend but not a close one. He didn't have any idea what went down in my past between me and Cheryl and seriously I couldn't tell what was happening with me and Allison right now. I had to play it cool and agree with what came up in his mind. It was better to play it this way. I had eventually made a mistake more like a blunder but they didn't know about the blunder or what I did. I could call it a rift between two people who like each other and pray that Allison doesn't let our personal business out in the public for gossiping ears to hear.

"Yeah, kind of that. She said something and I didn't agree about. A bad fight and reading that file makes me realize that it was all my mistake. She was telling me about that she had worked with Eric Blake one of college friend and he had recommended her to us. I wasn't just believing it and see now she is mad at me and I'm mad at myself that I have her mad at me, that's all." I hoped that he would buy the lies I was dishing out.

"It happens all the time man. Women are women and maybe that is why she hasn't come to work today. I think she is still damn mad at you." He told me and that is why this man was the best. He had an observing eye for everything. I had suspected that Allison might not come today, well not suspected I was fully sure. I was expecting to enjoy the day until Alex bought that file and made me realize what a monster I was. Now expected Allison to come barging and giving me a piece of her mind or a lot more like slaps and what the hell not but she wasn't coming today, which I just realized as Alex pointed out. It had been two hours up then her reporting time and there was no way that she was coming in today which meant I had to myself find her and beg for her forgiveness. It would be a big dent on my ego to beg someone for forgiveness whom I barely know but after what I have done it was the least I could do. 

"Well, I guess I will have to say sorry to her. Let's hope she forgives me. I should get back to work now. Kelly has lined up a lot of files for me to see today." Kelly really had many files for me to go through and I wanted Alex to go now. I had major issues to deal with.

"Yeah man, see you later." Saying that he walked away with that file from my office. If I wasn't in the office I would have fucking thrown things and pent out my anger at myself for what I had done yesterday. I was just going to call for Kelly to bring in the files when my personal phone rang with an unknown number making me frown. Only a few people had this number who were family only. I picked up the call and the voice that greeted me from other side had me fall back in my seat and a small smile of happiness on my lips.   Christa, Cheryl's sister, had called after two years. The happiness was that there was someone who knew the whole truth and I could talk to without holding back. She was someone whom I hadn't to hide from.

"How are you, Noel?" 

"I'm good Christa. I'm so glad you called." She was someone I could talk to freely about anything without worrying about someone trying to gain something from me. We had face our family and friends together but when it came too much to bear she walked away. I couldn't blame her for it. What accusations were being thrown our way were too much to take. the snarky remarks of Cheryl were too much for her to put up with.

"I'm sorry for cutting you off Noel. I really hope you understand. It was just too much. Even your support wasn't enough to help me stand straight in the society with Cheryl and my family always present. It was so damn hard to face them and the world. Leaving felt like the only option." I could hear the pain and desperation in her voice.

"It's alright Christa. I understand. I was hiding behind my work but you couldn't like me not while staying there. However, I would have really loved if you could have just stayed in contact with me. I really had no one to talk to." I knew what it felt like to be lonely in a place where every other person was family and friends. 

"I'm once again sorry for leaving you like that but I'm happy where I'm Noel. I'm satisfied with my life now far away from their omnipresence in my life. I have even made some new friends though most of them are online there is this neighbor I have who is such a sweet girl and I could talk her ears off and she won't just mind.  She doesn't judge me neither she asks me for answers. she is so understandable that if I would have been a guy I might have married her." She laughed the last sentence out. Her neighbor had my interest piqued. If Christa was saying someone was that damn good then that person was.

"I'm not joking Noel. She is a damn good person and it's fun to be around her. Though it has been not so long for her to shift here and I really see a good friend in her." I was happy at least Christa had someone to talk to even though I didn't. "That aside tell me how you are doing, how's your life going on." 

"I'm good Christa. Life has been busy in trying to raise an empire of my own. Too much busy in files and meetings. Life has just dragged on with loneliness for me everywhere. It has just been office and sleep nothing else in my life." I really couldn't tell her about the obsession of Cheryl that I have just overcome and the blunder I had just caused.

"Oh Noel, I'm so sure your life has been boring and nothing else. I bet on it that you still have files lined up for you to read for." I laughed at this and it felt good. 

"You caught me, my secretary, Kelly has a lot of work lined up for me but I really have no desire to do it. My day has started on a bit of bad note and I really won't be having my heart in my work today." I needed to handle the situation with Allison and soon enough but maybe not today. That girl was a fireball and she would have been still seething in anger. I needed to give her time and then beg for her forgiveness.

"That's sad to know. Well, you won't be able to give your best at work and you are not having a good day how about you come to my home for lunch. I will call in my neighbor too and you will get to see my life now too. We could get to connect again and you won't be lonely anymore and maybe gain some friend." I heard the hopes in her voice to have me say yes. She was just like a sister to me and I really needed someone to hang onto as I was getting over Cheryl for once and all.

"I will come," Maybe this was the best decision I had made in a while besides leaving Cheryl behind. "Now tell me where your leave. It's ten in the morning I will meet you at your house in three hours." I wrote the address and we decided to meet in the afternoon. For the rest of the time, I had Kelly bring me a few files to study but I really had no interest in them. I loved my work but today wasn't my day. For the first time, time went on slowly for me. It had never happened but It today. I hoped that after talking with Christa and her friend maybe my mood would uplift and I could do away with my mistakes. 

Somehow those three hours passed and I myself drove to Christa's new house. It was an apartment just twenty to thirty minutes away from the office, a place where she wouldn't have ever expected to live. It was in a nice place but Christa was born with a silver spoon in her mouth. Her and Cheryl's grandfather was a big businessman back in his time. When they were born he was alive but when he died the business started to wither away. As her apartment building came into my sight I felt happy, at last, I would have someone to talk to. I was impressed by the security. It was in the busiest part of the city, outside was all chaos but inside was calm and soothing. As I took the elevator up to Christa's floor I was optimistic about life. My worries and problem had already started to uplift from my shoulders. I rang the bell for her apartment and waited to see Christa, that young girl who I assumed to be my sister. She felt more like my blood than my own parents. As the door opened I stood there shocked and stunned. 

"What the fucking hell are you doing here?" The words that came out were surely not pleasant but I really couldn't expect anything else coming from Allison. I looked up at the apartment number and then at a fuming Allison. I was at the right apartment but the person who greeted me wasn't Christa but Allison and then it clicked to me that she was the neighbor Christa talked about. 

The exploding question in my brain was How the fucking hell did Christa and Allison became friends? Was it just a coincidence or something else?

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At last I updated!

Umm, forgive me for being gone for long but I had papers like those that had my life depended on them. Hope you get it. 

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