The guys are drinking celebrating before gradation 

I can't sleep through their conversations. My phone buzzes 

 "Hey"

"Are you okay?"

                                                                                        "Yeah, alive"

"No dumbo I mean like inside how you feel"

                                                                                           "Horny"

"why are you like this, anyways can we talk"

                                                                                             "About what?"

"You know about the thing"

I stare at the text

                                                                                                    "Sure"

A knock at my door scares me. I open it Lunicks stands in the doorway . I pull him in but the wrist and shut the door "I'm sorry I hurt you" "I'm not hurt-" "Yes you are, you're hurt so much that you've been avoiding me the past four months. I've been trying to talk to you, but you won't let me" he sighs "You won't even look at me"                                                                                                                 I turn around my eyes glisten in the moonlight.                                                                                                       I try to hold back my tears, but dammit I am hurt.