A/N: look who's back!

No, not Jensen Ackles...

Okay okay, here's the chap.

Chapter 64

Elsa's POV

It makes me wonder when waking up had become such a task. I'm the farthest thing from being a morning person, but even then it wasn't this hard to get up in the morning.

Maybe because I lost my purpose.

Finally doing it - finally telling Jack - didn't lift the heavy weight off of my shoulders. Probably because it didn't turn out so well. I don't know if letting him go was the right thing to do. But even if  it was, the right thing to do, then why doesn't it feel right? Maybe doing the right thing didn't always feel right. But then again,

I don't know anything anymore 

My mind has been in this state wherein the line between reality and fantasy got too thin that it all eventually just collided, and now I'm having a hard time deciding what is real, what is right, what is wrong. My priorities, everything that mattered, I'm not sure are still the same.

Maybe I was wrong, maybe I wasn't. It wouldn't really matter, he's gone. And I'm just exhausted of it all.

But as they say, no rest for the weary.

I woke up to the sound of my phone going off, I squinted my eyes and checked who the caller was, immediately propping myself up from the bed as soon as I saw.

It was Emma.

"Emma?" My voice was raspy and I had to cough before continuing, "you called, why?"

"Elsa?" I struggled to hear Emma's voice over the background noise that  was easily overpowering her voice, "I kinda need you here, I'm sorry but I really do."

I stood up from my bed and began pacing around the room, "Where are you?"

"I'm at the  police station, and things are not looking good."

I frowned at that, "Emma, why are you at the police station?"

There was a loud noise that interrupted her before she replied, "It's Jack."

"Jack? What's he doing there?"

Emma sighed, "The suspects they - they were caught just this morning and as soon as Jack knew about it, he... he lost it."

I went silent after that. I could feel my heart beating faster and gulped. What was I supposed to say? 

"Elsa?"

I shook my head, "uh yeah... still here."

Emma sighed, "Elsa I really need you here."

"I'm not exactly Jack's favorite person to see at the moment, won't I just rile him up even further?"

"Rile him up or not, it's a chance we've got to take. Look, I'm sorry, Elsa. I'm aware that you and Jack aren't exactly in the best of terms but we both know that he'll listen to you."

I closed my eyes, "Alright," I licked my chapped lips, "fine, I'll be there."

"Thanks, Elsa," Emma breathed out a sigh of relief. "I'll see you in awhi - hey!" She yelled all of a sudden, noises echoing in the background, "- don't hurt him!"

my frown deepened when I heard a click, signaling that Emma had ended the call.

*****

After freshening up and putting on decent clothes, I told Lucy that I just had to be somewhere important since Anna was still asleep. Only minutes later and I was already at the police station in record time. 

And Emma wasn't joking when she said thing didn't look so good.

There were loud thudding noises that became more evident the closer I get to the station. I felt my heart pounding rapidly that it  just might rip itself off of my chest. 

My mouth suddenly felt dry and I had to take a moment to calm myself, I walked towards the entrance and sure enough, Emma was waiting there. She was restlessly pacing back and fort, her phone held in one hand. She noticed me making my way towards her and I  could evidently see her breathe out a sigh of relief. She ran half of the distance to meet me, before almost throwing herself into  my arms.

"Thank you for coming, Elsa." she whispered.

I hugged her back just as tightly before pulling away, "Where's Jack?"

Her face visibly turned pale at the question, "I'm stupid, I should be there with him. But he lost it and I couldn't - I couldn't -"

"It's alright, Emma, I understand. Now let's go help your brother."

Emma sniffed but nodded and forced  a weak smile as we both went in the station, expecting to see God knows what.

As soon as we turned to a corner, I could already hear clashes and thrashing of things and I was just seconds away fron walking away when I felt Emma squeeze my hands.

I looked at her and felt like my eyes were gonna pop out. I felt sick all of a sudden. I can't seem to wrap my head around the idea that Jack was part of the people making those noises.

I squeezed her hand back before letting go and walked right into the waiting area where the noise was coming from, Emma tailing me from behind.

My intake of breath was abruptly cut short at the scene in front of me; three men in police uniforms were trying to strain Jack from getting to the suspects. He was reaching out with his hand and trying to grasp at the shirt of one of the suspects.

"I'm gonna kill you!"  Jack yelled and his eyes momentarily looked murderous. I was beginning to worry just how much he meant what he said.

One of the suspects laughed at that, "Oh, little boy, you shouldn't be making such declarations in front of the police. " 

Jack stilled for a second before going on full charge and knocking off the police men that were restraining him. He leapt to close in the space between him and the suspect and threw a punch hard enough that I was pretty sure that Jack had dislocated the man's jaw.

"Who are you calling little boy now huh? You despicable being! I'm not even sure what you are, but you most certainly aren't human." Jack yelled as the police men tried to restrain him again but were failing miserably.

"Jack, please stop." I finally found my voice again when Emma tugged at my arm.

It was silent for a moment, before several eyes landed on me, making me even more nervous. But I stood firm, to signal them that I was serious.

Jack stared at me, expression unreadable. He didn't say anything.

Apparently, the same man who insulted Jack was the first to recover, "See little boy? You're the one who's pathetic, needing a whiny girlfriend to save your little as--"

"You," I cut him off sharply, earning his attention, "Shut your mouth before it kills you." I didn't know where my sudden rage came from but I held onto it. It was all I had left keeping me from breaking down.

"I could say the same for you, sweetheart." He retorted.

Next thing I knew, Jack was charging once again and was punching the life out of the man. The man threw some punches as well, effectively able to hit Jack a couple times.

"Stop!" I yelled but no one was listening.

"Jack!" Nothing.

I could feel my face heat up with rage and before I knew what I was doing, I screamed, "Jackson!"

Jack stopped immediately before looking pointedly at me. He let go of the man who looked pretty beaten up, the police made th eman stand up.

"You stop this right now! I promised her I wouldn't let this happen, that I'd take care of you. I promised her, damn it! And you!" I pointed to the beaten man, "You don't get to ruin that for me! So shut it! Don't you think you've done enough, you abomination? Go rot in jail before you inevitably rot in hell!"

I looked at him in the eye,"And you will."

I felt lightheaded after that and felt Emma hold my shoulders to ground me. I silently thanked her in my head.

The police were able to lead the man and the other suspects behind bars after that.

It was unnerving seeing Jack stare hardly at me as he walked my way. I was subconsciously walking backwards, the look in his eyes were dangerous but once he was near me, they softened a bit.

"What is this, Elsa?" He whispered.

I didn't know what to say.

He massaged his temple in exhaustion, "Stop getting my hopes up."

I blinked, "I'm n-"

"Don't." He cut me off. "I don't wanna hear it. I can't hear it now."

I pursed my lips, my mouth felt dry once more and I was trying my best not to gasp for air because right now, I felt like I couldn't breathe.

"You ended it," He looked at me, his eyes watery. "At least have the decency to keep it that way."

He walked away after that. Brushing past me. And it hurt.

It hurt so much. And I always believed that people were so untouchable when walking away. And they were; because as easy as they walked up to you, the easier they can walk away.

And you can't do anything about it.

***

An hour. Maybe more. Maybe less. I wasn't sure. I just stood there, not moving.

I was only brought back to reality when Anna called me. I was gone for too long.

The drive from the station and back to my house was a blur. I honestly couldn't remember how I even got home.

Anna was the first person to meet me at the garage.

"Elsa, what happened?" She frowned

I shook my head, "I'll tell you later, Anna. Can I... I just want to rest right now."

Anna's frown deepened but she nodded, "All right. We'll talk later."

I nodded back before walking towards the stairs. But before I could climb up the steps, Lucy appeared beside me.

"Mis-" She caught herself, "-Elsa, I found this in the mail. Apparently it were left at the post office and only sent here now."

I looked at the envelope and noticed mom's familiar hand writing at the address.

I thanked Lucy before taking the envelope and went upstairs. I opened the envelope in my room and sat myself on my bed before reading the letter.

Elsa,

Happy 18th birthday, my dear. I'm sorry I couldn't be there right now. I'm working extra shifts and apparently we have a meeting so I can't call you. I'm writing this in advance and hopefully this will arrive just in time for your birthday. I'm very proud of you, you took care of Anna so well, and I'd like to believe that you are part of the reason why Anna is how she is now. I'm sure your father is very proud of you as well. He's watching over us now, and in a way, he has seen how you grew into the beautiful woman you are now. Woman! My daughter is now a woman! My my, I've always wanted to have a daughter ever since I was 10, I dreamt of it- a happy family with my husband and children. And I couldn't ask for more. Having you as a daughter was such a blessing, then Anna came along, and the family seemed brighter, filled with love.

Mom's beautiful handwriting covered the entire paper. I read it all - top to bottom. But never did I see any mention of having to run the company.
I stood up and went out of my room. I was about to call for Lucy when I heard my phone ring. I sighed as I walked right back in my room to retrieve my phone from the nightstand.

I looked at the caller ID, my eyebrows drew together and I answered the call.

"Mom?"

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DUN dun DUN dun JOSH DUN!
(btw i worked hard on this A/N lmao let's see it.)

So before you stone me to death for disappearing for 6 months (6 months, angella! Have you no shame?)

I am here to explain.

So I've already mentioned before [redacted]

It's just really hard to take it all in. [Redacted]

But I've come to terms with it.

I won't go into detail but let's just say that my way of coping was writing.

(But gee, if it was your way of coping then why didn't you update for six friggin months?)

I already told you that I made another account, right? So while I wasn't updating, I was writing 14— and I'm not joking, literally 14, I'd give you the titles but eh, I'd like to keep my profile private:) — books. I've finished two. And I'm not gonna lie, I really missed being on this account. But the things I were writing were too dark for this account. (Wow, like them breaking up wasnt enough) so I had to let off some steam and writing those 14 books did just the trick.

I can't say that I'm 100% back ngl but I wanna finish the remaining 12 of those books as well. And I've only published 3 of them wow i suck.

Okay enough about me.

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OKAY OKAY I HAVE TO END THIS BEFORE IT GETS TOO LONG BUT;

THE SPECIAL CHAPTER IS UP NEXT

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