Didn't think it through.
Didn't know that I fell in
A sea for you.
I don't know swimming but I
Know that I'm drowning in
Affection for you.
You captivated my heart and now
You're playing it to the beat of your
Choice.
I cannot control because I'm too in
Deep to let go.
You're unhealthy, the way you've me
Sick with affection for you.
It's a chain around my neck,
Choking me, leaving me
Gasping for air.
You leave me breathless
In a restless way.
Make my skin tingle &
My heart burn with inferno.
I'm in love with you.
And I didn't choose this.
I didn't choose you.
It happened as though, it's meant to.
I found myself drawn to you.
Curiosity sending a shiver
Down my spine.
Drawing me to you till I
Cannot breakfree.

Fury.
Fury engulfs my veins,
When I don't hear from you.
Very unlike my behavior,
I guess that's what affection does
To you.
Changes you in a divergent way.
You have me whipped
Like fine cream.
Head in clouds,
You're the only one around.
In my dream,
In my rem sleep.
You're the one &
I didn't choose you.
I didn't choose this,
Why you?
Why you.

You confuse me,
I'm not a confused soul.
I thrive on clarity.
Yet I lose it all when you're
On my mind.
Inferno burns my mind,
Affection chokes my heart.
My soul is a pacified ocean.
Three in one:
Shivers, tingles, confusion.
All I want is you.
Do you confess your desires,
Will I ever have you?
I do not know.
All I know is I'm stuck
In inferno love.
And I need my antidote,
Before I lose myself in this maze.
3...2..1.
End this.
Disappear In thin air
You or me.
Inferno is not a sweet torment.
Especially not,
When you're consumed like candy
In love.

-Ridhima Joshi

I think this year, 2021, I've deeply fallen for someone.. I've never felt like this before and so this is my confession, for I'll never be able to voice it out to him.