He haunts the passages
Of my palace, of my dreams.
He walks seldom by my
Stairs of soul.
He, a thought of him,
Sets my heart on inferno.
He clouds my head,
Setting my crown on cloud 9.
He sets my inhibitions wild,
Catches me afloat in this
Art of surrealism.

Spinning my head 'round n' round
My head is a constant wheel of
Thoughts.
Of emotions, of feelings, circling
Back & forth with thoughts
O' him like a kathakhali.
Chandelier smile, rosy cheek,
Starry eyes;
A whole different persona with
His name on my lips.

A name as beautiful as the
Start of time,
What lies beyond, nothing ever
Stops.
A name melodious enough to take
Me back to musical performances.
This would happen,
I would fall head over heels;
Face flat on ground for an individual,
This deep in an abyss, I didnt
Fathom at ends.

He's beautiful.
Beautiful like earth.
Like spring, fresh & enchanting.
Draws in fairies and drew me in.
His face is sculpted by Michelangelo
Or perhaps I've gone insane for him.
Singing hymns o' love,
Writing poems like a poet does,
Ironically I am one.
Incorporating art and music.
Is this what falling In love
Feels like?
Orchestra playing,
Violins singing,
Dramatic melodies of piano,
Rising and falling like waves.
Is that what been struck by
Cupid's arrow feels like?
Is this the phenomenon,
Literature talks of?
People romanticize, is this what
Fairytales are based on?
Is this real life or fantasy?
Illusion, delusion or fantasy.
A dream, a bubble.
Rainbow tainted light threatening
To break into a sliver silver.
Is this real or am I dream?
Is he a dream or am I lost?

Smile finds itself to me
As & when his name comes up.
Didn't think I'd be covered in
Cheery blossoms & rose petals
One day.
Smile as bright as diya lit room.
Everyday is diwali when his
Name comes up.
I cannot control how I feel
Sparks of jealousy,
Of fire cover my eyes.
My eyebrows dance when I find
Out about his shenanigans.
Fury covers my face like a
Veil when I do not hear from him.
Fury & envy, the cons of affection rise.
A tornado threatening to rip up.
Horns on my head, I lose it
Momentarily.
Halo on my head when I think
Of what future lies ahead.

He doth know how I feel.
Hope & awareness may cloud his head.
Is it strong enough to manifest into
Reality or are we going to circle
Back & fro in a garba in this
Euphoria.

Hide & seek.
Hide me in his affection,
Seek me in my dreams.
A game of swirling circles,
Of starry night,
I doth not mind playing it.
It takes 2 hands to clap &
Make one sound.

I want thee.
My soul craves his.
I want him & him only.
Like a child fascinated with
Universe,
My heart thunders & roars on
How much we want it to happen.
Never thought I'd be the one
Wanting things like these.
Didn't think someone could
Sweep me off my feet.
Dance & dance in rainy clouds.
Is this what being struck by
Cupid's bow feels like?
Going insane and calm at once;
My heart chakra linked to my
Crown & third eye.
Tis has set my entire being
Ablaze in a good way.

My soul linked to his,
My intuition and dreams.
A home to walk in & around.
My heart a bed of thorn covered
Roses open for him to lay & rest in.
He has clouded my crown in a
Way I didn't see coming.
Slow & fast, it has me in a
Whirlpool.
Clouds and cupid bows.
I hope the voyage sails before
It's too late.

-Ridhima Joshi