Life is so unwinding. One day you are so happy, so high and other day, your whole world comes crashing down. 

I thought I was miserable after my breakup with my long time boyfriend but then I don't know what I am feeling now.
I didn't know when you became so important to me. We are so opposite personalities bound together with the love to help others. You believed no life is less worth while I was looking for something to work for.
I wish it was me other than you on this bed. I wish I told you before how much you meant to me. I wish.
I maybe would have never understood love so truly if you had not come in my life.
I believed I loved you for your beautiful face or your body. I thought whatever was between us was simple infatuation but no.
I feel so empty without you.
I want you to wake up look at me, make me laugh or call me annoying.
I don't understand how I got so attached to you in such a small time. It's like I can't function properly without you in my life.
I whisper in his ear,"Please wake up. I promise you I would be by your side and I won't leave you behind. I'm sorry. I really am. I should have told you that I love you that day. But I was afraid that you might have been joking. That you were just fooling around but you weren't. Why? Why Ananth? The only time I wanted you to be fooling around with me, you were actually saying the truth and I being myself was too naive to understand that. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry. I'm. "
And all hell broke loose. The emotions I had been controlling for the last three months left me. My mind started rewinding everything which happened in the last three months. My breakup. My first meeting with Ananth. Us working together. Him making me laugh all the time. His cocky remarks. Everything we had. Every single day we spent together. I cried harder and harder thinking of us. All the time I spent with him.
I wish. I wish I told you everything, how I felt about you, all that time, when you made me laugh, you would be by my side when I was down, when I needed you and you were always there, when we went on those idiotic yet cliché dinner dates but just as friends. Maybe we could have gone as a couple if I had told you. If I wasn't afraid.
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I really love you a lot. Maybe you wouldn't want me when you wake up. Maybe you will get someone better, someone not afraid of love, someone who will not let their past feed on them.
I will never be that for you but I love you nonetheless and I would be there when you wake up.