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THE WEDDING.....FINALLY

ENJOY !

Don't hate me please....

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I entered the house and immediately I was bombarded with the smell of fresh baked food and just the smell of home in general. It was a bit cramp inside but still it was oozing the warmth of home. The living room made way directly to kitchen where in the corner dinning table was placed. At the other corner of the room was a staircase that lead to the upper floor. The room was filled with soft looking eggplant giant couches and sofa with 2 tables in the corner and a big one in the middle with plants placed around the sofas and couches. It had two  windows which had fairy lights hanging on the frame and had beige coloured curtains. The room was lightened with soft yellow lights in th living room while the dinning area was more luminous with white LED lights. All the elders were sitting on the table having dinner while we all jammed into the living room taking our plates and some left over snacks to eat. The house had a bit of modernisation touch but it still felt like an off grid adobe. The kind I would like to spend my vacations and most of the life with my family.

The other thing I noticed was that the middle aged man and woman were Josh's parents. The man was the same one I had noticed in my office the first day and in the bus the other day, Paul Higgins. I wonder why did not he introduced himself to us soon ? Why did he act as if he was a stranger ? That's weird, right ? But all that doubts apart, they were very warm and friendly. They were actually pretty nice to talk too.

Cederic and Niall were roaming here and there with plates full of food and annoying others but in Niall's case he won't do anything less than civil in front on Aunty K and Uncle Geoff. Gotta keep good points ! I was sitting on one of the sofas and was eating sandwich with some veggies while Harry and Liam were eating as if there is no yesterday. Josh and Zayn were talking about something and it looked as if it was something serious. My siblings were playing in the room and doing their stuff.

" Um Josh, this house is so beautiful. It gives homey vibes. Is this yours ?"

I asked Josh but his head snapped towards Harry as if asking something. He then coughed awkwardly and just gave a very curt short answer.

" No..its not mine. "

" Oh..then who own- "

" LOUIS ! COME HERE " Niall shouted making me almost jump. This boy !

I went outside from the back door and what I saw made my breathe hitch. I gasped admiring the beauty of the night. The moonlight was washing over the trees and in the distance it looked like a lake which had something sparkling around it. The backside of the house had fairy lights and what made me stop breathing were the giant rose bushes with so many roses on it. I was standing there gaping. It was so beautiful.

I heard the door squeak in th background when I was just caressing the flowers which made my finger cut with the prickle on its stem. I jerked back my hand and it was immediately craddled by the strong hands very softly. It was Harry. Of course ! He was Harry ! It made me smile a bit assessing the situation. He was like the rose. He brought me happiness,  butterflies and alien feelings in me, made me feel what is very close to love and passion but at the same time he showed me darkness, the shadows and the other side of love. His essence brought happiness but not without the bleeding of my heart. I saw Niall and Cederic were standing there in worry.

" Its okay..You guys go inside. Your moms were calling you both. I will take care of....this situation "

SITUATION ! REALLY ?

Niall kissed me on the cheek saying that it was his magic healing kiss and left with Cederic who gave me a little side hug.

" Are you guys done now ?" Harry asked annoyed.

" Oh P-uh-lease ! " Niall exclaimed and while glaring at Harry left the place giving me his not so subtle knowing look. I rolled my eyes at him and looked at Harry whose eyes were just staring at my bleeding finger.

" Who touches rose in that way, Lou ? You keep on hurting yourself and putting yourself in danger. I am so...so fed up now."

So he is fed up with me now. Great ! I did not tell him to worry or take care of me.

" Then don't think about me or my tantrums or my nonsensical acts. You are free to go."

I snatched my hand away from him in anger and started to walk away from there. I felt a strong grip on my wrist which made me halt with a sigh.

" What now, Harry ?"

" Let me put a bandage on it."

" Its not that deep. I will wash it with antiseptic"

" Why must you argue every time ? Listen to me for once."

I saw he was not irritated or annoyed. He said it softly which made me relent that time.

" Okay. I will ask for first aid kit then."

" I know where it is. Follow me"

Maybe he has been here before. I mean of course !

Harry took me on the upper floor in a medium sized room with a comparatively big bed in the middle. At the headboard, there was a big window which blew cool night air inside it. The room was made of log, as the whole house, with a painting on the side wall. It consisted of a medium wardrobe and a table in the corner of the room. Further aside of cupboard, there was a door which was supposedly washroom. The bed was covered with grey sheets and had dark blue and grey pillows.

" Sit here. I will bring first aid"

Harry instructed me and went to retrieve it in the washroom. I sat on the soft bed and it immediately made me feel to just sleep there soundly. The tiredness of the day was taking toll on me. I folded my legs and sat on the bed Indian style. Harry entered with a box in his hand.

" Um don't you think we should ask for permission before we uh enter someone's bedroom ?"

Harry stared at me for a second with some look and replied with a smirk.

" No need, Lou"

Weird ! Why is he smirking ? I did not say anything funny now, did I ? Harry softly took my hand in his big one and with the antiseptic cotton started cleaning my  which made me hiss and jerk. He blew air on it to soothe it but a tear left my eye. So what, I cry all the time ! He looked at me and I tried to wipe my tear subtly but failed from his intruding eyes. He put a bandage on it and just stared at me with questioning eyes.

" What ?" I whispered not to break the comfortable silence. He just sighed and caressed my cheek with the back of his hand which automatically made me lean on him some more.

" Close your eyes, Lou"

He said looking at me with his soft emeralds. Something in his tone made me follow it. It was scary and exciting at the same time. I felt the bed dip and the sound of shuffling of feet and then it was definitely a hot breath on my neck. It happened so sudden as if the dew drop slided down from the petal. His lips brushed on my cheekbone very softly, very shyly and it left before I can even react but it did not stop me from gasping loudly. I opened my eyes and saw Harry was already at the door making his way downstairs but not before saying

" Healing Kiss, Louis"

And then he was gone leaving me baffled sitting on the bed with too many questions and feelings making my heart squeeze with desperation and something so close to ache.

I made my way downstairs and saw everyone were settled in the living room. Now I felt there were actually too many people gathered for my 'wedding' already. I saw every eyes turned towards me and it was very awkward for me to be a centre of attention. I nervously walked and sat beside Niall who immediately gave me his big smile making my nerves ease.

" Now, as there is not enough space we will have to adjust and sleep together. So decide, with whom you all wanna share the rooms ?" Uncle Des said.

" Me me me ! " Cedric immediately started chanting  standing in the middle.

" Yes..you what, Ced ? " Mommy said chuckling.

" I will choose first. I want my team with me."

" Who are in your team?" Uncle Paul asked.

" Its Zayn, Louis and Niall " he replied instantly.

" Okay..go take them upstairs and sleep fast. I don't want to hear your gossips in the night." Anne said smiling with stern voice.

" Then its decided. We all will cramp in living room and the other room here while Josh, Liam and Harry can settle in the other room upstairs"  Papa said.

We all made our way upstairs and proceeded to go inside the room which had a double bed. Me and Niall took the bed while Zayn and Cederic took the sleeping bags. They insisted to sleep in it anyway. We switched off the lights and soon we were engulfed in the darkness except the moonlight filtering from the two windows. Judging by the silence it seemed that everyone were tired and not in condition to chatter. I too needed sleep because tomorrow is a really big day and I have to put my plan in action which nobody knew. I hope it works. I closed my eyes and let my mind dream and get lost in the abyss of wonderland.

The sunlight was filtering in making my sleep slowly drift away. Also the patter of feet and chatter of people was making me gradually aware of the world outside my dreamland. I opened my eyed rubbing off the sleep and stretched my body, moaning lowly, which made my bones producing cracking sound. I sighed lazily and dragged myself in sitting position. Time to put my plan in action.

I woke up properly and did my morning routine in the attached washroom. Everyone else were sleeping in the room. So after taking shower I changed into normal house wear and made my way downstairs.

WOAH ! 

The house was a big mess. Everywhere there were decorations and flowers and accessories to decorate the house. The house looked even more beautiful now with the additional plants and flowers. Everyone were running here and there doing the work they were assigned. Looking at all these made me nervous so much that my hands started to shake.

It was real. Today is my wedding. That too with Joshua. Oh god..I am gonna faint ! I cannot do this. I got this sudden urge to scream, cry and run at the same time. This is not how I imagined my wedding. This is a situation to be handled, not a wedding. I have to get out of  now.

" Tommo, what did you think ?"

Niall appeared suddenly from behind me, whispering and all dressed up.

" Its not something fancy. I am going to talk to Papa."

" TOMMO ! You know he won't listen now. You just...just run away. I will cover for you."

" And go where, Pumpkin ? You know that is the wrong thing to do. It will also tarnish Papa's image."

" This is wrong too, Tommo. This is very very wrong. They are forcing you to marry someone who possibly likes someone else. That is unfair to all three of you. "

" I know, Niall. I am gonna say NO when they will ask me for 'I do' in ceremony. "

" WHAT ?!"

" Yes..that is the only way, Niall. And I am gonna convince Papa too."

" We are in deep shit, Tommo"

" I know right"

" Together"

"Together"

We shared an emotional hug and parted our ways. Soon I was dragged away by Anne on the side. She knew that there was something , is something in my heart for Harry. How can I face her now ?

" Louis, dear. I am sorry. This all happened so fast. "

" Don't be sorry, Anne. Its not your fault. Nobody even took initiative to explain me all this. All they did was order me around. "

" Its for your own good, sweetie. I know it seems tough and wrong right now but in the long run you will see that all we wanted was your safety."

Safety ? I want my Mommy right now to console me. She and Papa behaved as if I am invisible. My feelings don't matter. I like Anne but I miss my Mommy. Why she is not with me ? If I stay here, then I will cry. I need to leave.

" I know Joshua is a good person. I wish I learn to love him somehow and vice versa. "

" Loui-"

" S-sorry Anne, I- I need to leave"

I stumbled a step in my haste but I left that place leaving Anne confused and myself in almost tears. I spotted Papa decorating the tent they had set up for the wedding. It looked almost ready from outside and a sneak peek of inside.

" Papa, we need to talk. "  I shouted from the distance.

Papa looked at me and gave me a soft smile. How can he smile like that when I am in misery ? That smile will make me cry. I gulped hard and swallowed my tears.

" I will not marry Josh, Papa" I said as soon as he reached near where I was standing.

" Not again, LouBoy. You will marry today."

" I won't. Do whatever you wanna do."

" You want all your siblings and Mommy in danger. Do you want to get yourself in danger ? ANSWER ME "

" I DO NOT. BUT THIS IS NOT THE SOLUTION. THIS IS NONSENSE."

" LOUIS, NEVER EVER SAY THAT BONDING CEREMONY IS NONSENSE."

" IT IS IF THERE IS NO LOVE. "

" JUST SHUT UP AND GET READY. YOU WILL MARRY TODAY."

He left after our little shout out at each other leaving me broken and my cheeks stained with tears. I love my family but I cannot just marry Josh. I am not even ready to marry anyone. This is not what I planned for my future.

But the words of Papa kept ringing in my mind. I cannot put my family or anyone in danger. What if this is actually very serious ? What if everyone's safety depends on this ? But I cannot just marry anyone if even I plan to marry. OH GOD...why this is so hard ? Why its me that is tangled in all this ?

I made my way inside with tear stains on my face and sniffing. As soon as I reached the room, I heard muffled voices.

" You have to tell him now."

" You know I cannot. This is very confidential. What if someone somehow gets this information to other clans."

" But its his wedding. He will get to know soon. "

" Then first, I am gonna get him ready and then I will tell him"

" Afterwards you will obviously have to tell him"

" This is not how I planned my baby's wedding, Anne."

" I know Jay. But this is for his own safety and others. We will make Louis happy. Don't worry, he won't hate you."

" He has always been my sweet boy and look what I did to him. He should hate me."

" I don't hate you Mommy. "

It was too much for me to witness my Mommy and Anne cry. It made me loose all the emotions I had kept locked inside. I ran into the room and hugged Mommy tightly while we cried in each other's neck. That comforting smell of Mommy made me relax a bit. Even though my mind was in chaos and my heart is bleeding but amongst all this I felt a sense of comfort and I gained the strength to make everything alright.

" I will marry Josh, Mommy. But please after sometime when everything gets settled, I will set him free. I cannot burden myself on someone and snatch their happiness away. "

" Uh..we um " Mommy stumbled on her own words and both of them looked awkward and uncomfortable standing there. What is it they are hiding ?

" All the boys are ready and Niall will be here soon. You start wearing your wedding suit, Lou"

They both kissed on my cheeks and left when Niall entered the room in a black suit. He looked gorgeous. He wore suit with white crisp shirt and polished black boots along with silver cuff links. His hair was done nicely and were swept up into small spikes. His eyes looked vibrant blue and his face looked beautiful as always with a bit of pinkish cheeks, dark eyelashes and pink petals of lips. All in all The Perfect Best Man.

How I wish this was a real wedding with hearts involved !

" Lets get you dressed up, Tommo." Niall said cheerfully with an apprehensive tone.

I moved with the notion and started getting my wedding suit out of its covers. There were two gasps heard when the suit was disclosed. One was mine and other was of Niall. We just stared at it in awe. Beautiful does not even begin to cover it up.

The suit was crisp white with a golden embroidery on it. It was to be wore from front and the suit had a zipper from the lower back,  almost at the swell of my ass, to the neck. It was again disclosed by the round golden buttons made with red embroidery design on it. The designs were the swirls of patterns which looked like the creeper of some exotic plant with a bit of modernization touch. The swirls made an epi center at the back giving an illusion as if by removing that brooch there, the suit might fall open. The neck line was studded with a rose red diamond on the left side and on the sleeves in place of cuff links. The hem of the suit reached till my knees and it was cut in a way that show off the side of my thighs. The front of the suit had no designs with plain white cloth around which the patterns were embroidered. The trousers were also were pale beige colour which almost looked like a second skin. The side that remained exposed on my thigh by suit had little black symbols which looked like ancient runes. The same were also disguised in the patterns of suit too. The suit looked elegant and perfect. It was an embodiment of phenomenal and was truly made to be worn by a Prince or someone who is equally beautiful, who can do it a proper justice.

After seeing the suit, all my insecurities about my body came rushing making me almost in tears. I am not slim and what people calls figure to die for who can pull off that suit. It was proper fitting which will expose my chubby and pudgy tummy along with my thick thighs. My arms had a bit of fat accumulation which even gross me out. How can I wear such tight fitting suit when everyone will be staring at me ? When everyone will see how imperfect my body is ? The tears of shame started falling unknowingly from my eyes which I realised when Niall pointed it out with very worried and sad expressions.

" Please Tommo, stop thinking so low about yourself. You. Are Beautiful."

" NO..I am Not. You don't have to say that for making me feel better. I am already fat and ugly and.."

" SHUT UP TOMMO. I am not telling you this because I wanna console you. I am telling you this because it is the Truth. You have to accept it yourself one day, Louis. You have to see what I, what everyone sees in you."

" Everyone sees is a fat guy with geeky and nerdy personality who is too shy to even talk and is an introvert, almost whiny and boring and tensed about each and every thing. "

" Stop with your pity party. You know how much it hurts me, all of us who loves you when you put yourself down like this."

" I am sorry Niall. But I cannot help it. I just am not proud of my body. Its not..perfect."

" Nobody is perfect, Tommo. You just gotta accept your flaws and wear it proudly because acceptance of what you truly are is being beautiful. Being with a good heart and compassionate is beautiful. You cannot define beautiful as caking your face with products, dieting and losing weight, getting slim, and then bitching about others being ugly compared to you. That is not called beautiful. These were the things you told me yourself but when it comes to you, you never consider them. You think you look ugly but to everyone you are more than beautiful. And above all, the beauty lies in the eyes of people who sees things in their own way, their own perspective. One person finds nature beautiful enough to paint, to write poems from its every aspects, even its calamities while one never thinks of nature for anything and just gets on with his life. If someone cannot understand the real, inner beauty of soul and heart then he is the biggest blind person. Even blind people sees love in things they haven't seen just by feeling its essence. Now, it got loaded but you gotta get your own words in your head properly and apply to yourselves first. Get ready. We have audience to dazzle. "

Niall said winking at the end to lighten the mood. How can I forget the things I believe in ? But it is hard when you have to apply it to yourselves. It is more than tiring to make oneself believe that they are worth it when all their life, they just considered themselves low. I know it will be hard for me to accept what Niall said in my context but before today, I never even tried to stand in my own shoes with my own advice. You cannot just wake up and accept that ' Yes, I am beautiful. I am perfect' It takes time, sometimes years to accept the truth but it is not impossible.  Sometimes others help and sometimes others try to drag you down. But the love and acceptance from who you believe in keeps you going. They give you the strength to fight against your own demons. They stand by as pillar to support you when you stumble. But even if you don't have someone, you can fight it. You don't need anyone to appreciate your every move or body. Not everyone who you meet will be honest. So all you have to do is believe in yourself. Believe in the real beauty of compassion, love and soul. If you wanna change, then change to be a better person. Nursing your body externally is not a bad thing but doing only that while your soul is rotting is wrong.

I halted my inner battle and started getting dressed in my wedding suit. I was still insecure, still uncertain and not confident enough to carry it with proud but the whole ordeal made me strong enough to wear it and appear in front of an audience.
I got into the trousers and suit but there was this tinsy minsy problem. I wasn't able to close the buttons and so I had to ask Niall for help.

"  This looks elegant but you know I cannot wear it myself. That's ridiculous."

I protested scrunching my nose and almost pouting. But I loved the suit and I have Niall to help me wear it so I am doing just fine.

" Shut up, Tommo. Your face screams you love this suit. Now lets do your hair."

He combed my hair and styled it in a cute fringe on the side which I can say looked good. He made me put cherry lip gloss on my lips which made them more pink and luscious. I would laugh at this ridiculousness if I wasn't getting married today. He suddenly slapped me on my cheeks and pinched it because his words 'Natural Blush is the blush, Tommo' I am gonna make his whole face pink with natural blush on his wedding day. Just wait and watch Blondie !

I finally was ready and I noticed there were shoes too placed on the side of the bed. I put on my socks which had strawberries printed on them around the toes and heels. I know normally people don't wear that type of socks on their wedding but its cute and I don't have any other option. Its not like I have to impress Josh or something. That sudden thought made me almost sad but I controlled my emotions somehow and willed away the tears before it fell.

I wore the white polished shiny shoes with golden roses studded on the side of ankles. It went perfectly with the suit. I wonder when did my parents do all this stuff and all the arrangements. Its absurd ! But its nothing as my life is already consist of some sort of lies and secrets and maybe...magic !

I got ready and me and Niall started to made our way downstairs in the room I was asked to wait until my call for wedding, but not before sending God my silent prayer for starting this new journey to give me strength to keep going. As soon as we reached the last step, we heard noises of two people talking or more like arguing with each other.

We leaned towards the door and saw Cederic standing in the doorway and blocking the way of another man. Cederic was in his navy blue suit with white crisp shirt and hair styled messy on his head. He looked cute and actually very pretty. But right now, it looked like he was fuming. The stranger was dressed in grey suit and had brunette  hair. He was very tall and looked handsome. He also had spectacles on his face which was like carved perfectly with sharp cheekbones and accentuated feautures. 

Tom Hiddleston as Dragomir Kazlovsky

" Look Dragon man, I don't know you and I cannot allow you in this house. We have function."

Cederic said hotly trying to stand tall and look intimidating. He was taking his duty very seriously.  Well..he can get away with anything with his cute persona and puppy eyes.

" First, my name is Dragomir and second I am Harry's friend. Let me in, kid"

The stranger, apparently Dragomir said getting irritated in annoyed tone.

" What did you call me ? A Kid. I am not Kid. I am a grown man.Do not try to defy me, Mr. Dragon whatever ."

" What the hell ? You are Josh's younger brother, right ? What are you called again ? Cedwick or something. "

" How dare you Mr. Giant Dargon ? My name is Cederic. Have some respect. "

" Oh I can see, how warm welcoming and respectful you are, kid"

" I AM NOT KID."

" That's all the kids say, kiddo."

" You know what ? I am not obliged to answer you. Leave this house this instance. I will not tolerate this behaviour in my house."

" Your house ? Are you sure you are not missing something important here ?"  Dragomir said raising his eyebrow with a knowing smirk.

" Okay...its not mine but I am closer to Harry and you..you are not. "

" I don't think anyone is inside or if they were then they would have been out till now hearing your annoying voice. I gotta leave. Bye kiddo. It was not at all pleasure meeting you."

Dragomir left without looking backwards, not even glancing at the fuming and raging Cederic behind him who started cussing him in hushed voice. Now who is Dragomir ?

Cederic turned and made his way around the corner, spotting us in the process. He smiled brightly as if the last few minutes did not even happen and started squealing about  beautiful I looked and how Niall will get  proposal too. We made our way into the room and waited for my call. Meanwhile we talked about general things.

I heard the faint music playing in the distance and knew that soon Papa will be coming to take me. I started to feel suffocated and nervous all of a sudden. Cederic had left before few minutes to look at the decorations leaving only me and Niall in the room. Niall took my hands and consoled me somehow.

" Tommo, you can do it. You just have to walk and say ' I Do' "

" Wow...I will say these exact words to you on your wedding and then we will see how motivating they are. " I said angrily with nervous to him but not with real heat.

He offered me a soft smile and hugged me saying he wished me his Irish luck and now everything will be better. I prayed to God one last time to bless me and waited for Papa just when he entered.

" My LouBoy. You look marvellous.  Ready for the big moment ? " He said smiling softly at me and Niall. Niall left with a good luck kiss on my cheek while I composed myself and got ready to face what life has yet to throw at me.

Papa kissed me on both cheeks hugging me tightly and whispered in my ears.

" I am so sorry, LouBoy. Thank you so much for understanding the situation. You will get to know many things soon. Just marry today and please try to love him with all your golden heart. I promise, you won't regret it. No matter what, we love you, LouBoy."

His sincere words made my eyes water but how can I love Josh when my heart already belongs to someone. I am not sure if its love or not. But I know its not some flitting crush that will vanish away easily. And above all that Josh and Zayn likes each other even if they didn't confess. How can I be selfish to ignore their feelings ? I won't do that. I will never do that. That is not me.

" Its okay, Papa. Just few days and when everything gets settled, I will set Josh free and me too from this confines."

I said hugging him back but he stiffened at my words and looked guilty when he made eye contact at me. We started walking towards the door and entrance of tent where the wedding was held. I was clutching his sleeve  tightly that it got creases in it. My legs were trembling and my heart was beating like drums and my blood was rushing into my brain making  feel dizzy. My breathing was ragged and I was trying to compose it by inhaling and exhaling slowly but it did not worked. 

" I am sure you will love your husband with all your heart. Its just, for the safety I had to keep a little secret. Please don't freak out, okay ? We will explain everything after the wedding.  Remember, we love you."

Huh ? This is not at all helpful. I am already nervous and Papa says he still has some secret up his sleeve. I will definitely faint now. We entered the tent and song ' A Thousand Years' by Cristina Perri started playing on the system.

The day we met
Frozen, I held my breath
Right from the start
I knew that I found my home in your........
Heart beats Fast
Colours and Promises

Oh my god ! It is real. I am getting married. It was also the song I wanted to be played at the exact moment in my wedding just not in this circumstances. I was looking down all the way since Papa was talking and as I slowly lifted my head, I was not ready for the shock I received. My knees buckled but Papa was there to hold me steady keeping me from falling. The guests gasped a bit but no extreme reaction was seen from others. Niall was stood at his spot with worried expression on his face. The people gathered were staring at me in concern as I had stopped walking and was just gawking. But my eyes were fixed on the spot which held my soon-to-be- husband. All I could think was he looked beautiful. Greek God in person !

How to be brave ?
How can I love when I am afraid to fall ?

My mind went numb and all my blood rushed to my head. My hands were still trembling and my breathing was still ragged and I was still getting married today. Although all that changed at this moment. I got mixed feelings at that time. I was too shocked to react. Papa pushed me and brought me back from my shocked state and as if on autopilot I started walking towards the aisle.

But watching you stand alone
All my doubt suddenly gos away somehow

One Step Closer

I was getting one step closer to the beautiful being. One step closer to my future beautiful handsome husband. One step closer to the man who will hold my heart. One step closer to my future. One step away from my past. One step closer to the possibilities.

One step closer to Harry.

Harry, My Groom.

I have died everyday, waiting for you
Darling, don't be afraid
I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more.

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So, thoughts ?

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Updated on : 06/05/18

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