In the evening as per Tomlinson – Horan family tradition we all gathered in our house near the fire place enjoying dinner after I had cut my special bunny cake baked by Ma (Niall's mom) and Christmas music playing in the background. The whole room consisted of chatters and laughs and some over enthusiastic people *coughNiallcough* singing along loudly and traumatizing my ear drums. Mommy and Ma were talking on the couch , Lottie and Fizzy braiding Daisy and Phoebe's hairs , Greg- Niall's elder brother was playing with Doris and Ernie while me and Niall were cuddling on the sofa , burying ourselves in the blankets with our mismatched socked feet poking out and watching movie and in Niall's case annoying me with singing off tune songs. He is actually a very good singer but he loves to get under my skin by doing all these shenanigans. Oh yes ! MR. Liv is also in his rightful place on Niall's tummy and trying to paw my hand away from him.

Niall's dad is also a complicated topic and we don't talk about our dads not wanting to lie or make each other uncomfortable. But I have only seen him visit them few times and I don't even remember his face as I never paid much attention to him coz I always had my papa to spend limited time with. I love this time of year, every houses are decorated with fairy lights and Christmas trees are set up in houses which have so many adorable and beautiful ornaments hanging on them, the sweet aroma of delicious food surrounding us , joy , love , happiness running through people, forgiving and forgetting hatred and embracing the call of nature to enjoy snow while making snow angels and having snow fights, kissing under mistletoe and just every small to big things gives me sense of content and my life beautiful and satisfying. I know we miss papa , and mommy even more , anyone can see and tell their love has only grown in the years and they have been always each others rock in hard times and their love is what is making my mommy's eyes twinkle with happiness and love remembering him and reminiscing the good old days with Ma because the same goes for Ma and Bobs.

I also wish that someday I find my soulmate who will be my strength and weakness , my rise and my doom , a shoulder to cry on , one who will love me with all his heart and soul , who will cuddle me when I am feeling down, who will understand my silence and the unspoken words, who will always be loyal to me , who will love me same even when will be on death bed and who will make love to me just as passionately each and every time, who will make me forget my name in the throes of pleasure and passion and also make me aware of each and every part of my body in his own beautiful way while leaving marks for the whole world to know that I am his and being protective and possessive of me. The last thought left me blushing but I am so much inexperienced in this area . I never had a boyfriend , not even a fat ass crush on anyone. I have never hold hands with someone in that way and so yes I have never even been kissed. But I have saved myself and my every firsts for my future husband and I am proud of that even though people make fun of me for being traditional and old fashioned but this is not about that. This is about waiting for the right person to give all of myself to him and forever be his. I know its delusional to think of getting the man of my dreams because people now don't believe in true love , sleeps around and cheat but somewhere I always hope and wish on the star that someday someone will come along and will color me with his love and leave me a never ending flurry of painting.

When I was 16 I had this little crush on my classmate Elais and I dreamed of getting married to him and having kids but that lasted for only few months and then that shifted to Danny but all along whenever I thought of my The One not even one of them appeared in my mind. I had and still have some favorite celebrities and characters from books from whom I wish my husband have some traits but deep down I want mine to be original in his own way. So yes, I am still single , happy and waiting for my Mr. Perfect to come along and sweft me off of my feet but its so long and sometimes I get tired of waiting and sad when I see all other people with their other halves but I always think about my theories and I have my own rejoicing machine called Niall. He also has the same ideologies but he don't like to admit that he is such a sap and hopeless romantic too and also waiting for his Mr.Right . I wish we find them together and that way the other will never feel alone but maybe all this is just wishful thinking, who knows what tomorrow holds for us ?

" ...ommo...TOMMO ! what are u thinking about ? you were zoning out again . Were you picturing naked men huh?!" Niall asks me wriggling his eyebrows suggestively.

" We both now Niall that you just act as all loud and forward but in reality you are just as much sap and romantic as me and also you are cuddlemonster and loves when someone gives you backrub and yes this is very much important that you get all shy when somebody talks about sleeping around and then you proceed to act as if you are all aware of it and accept that ...."

" I am nothing like that and I am not waiting for my husba.."

" while in real u don't like that type of people and I never mentioned about you waiting for a husband . So my dear pumpkin you are BUSTED !! "

" I AM NOTTTTT "

" Niall James Horan, you are not a toddler anymore. Behave yourself "

" Jay, tell Ma that I am still little for her and I was not whining . I was making Tommo understand that I am not waiting for.....uh uh school yes, school "

Mommy and Ma gives him weird look and he almost busted himself again and I couldn't help but laugh and fail to cover it up with cough but Mommy being mommy will of course comfort that pumpkin .

" Aww my foodie pie ! you will always be my little boy even when u will get married and have children of your own "

Niall blushes and nobody can tell difference between him and tomato and here comes his shy side out. I always enjoy him blushing and getting worked up like this so I wasn't able to control and started laughing to my hearts content.

" Don't laugh Loubear same goes for you too "

And now it was my time blushing and getting shy. Somewhere in this blushing concert Greg had joined us and was laughing at us .

" Greg, baby what about you ? Any young man caught your eye ?? "

And now we have three blushing lads, two laughing mommas and oblivious sisters bickering in the background. Safe to say everybody were enjoying the Christmas Eve.

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