In his diary

Ezra's POV:

Dear Diary

Today I learned how to balance the elements and find peace! Every time when I'm stressed, I do it. You have to focus on the 4 elements and on yourself, that sounds easier than it is! First you lift yourself up with the first element, Earth. Then when you're 3 feet (1 meter) high, you focus on your second element, Air. And at last, you have to balance Fire and Water in your hands. In your right hand you hold Water and in your left Fire. That's the hardest part! I always fell over because you have to find your balance on the rocks and then the wind flows next to you and sometimes blows against you. AND then you have to balance Fire and Water in your hands!? It sounds so easy when I tell it... But trust me... IT ISN'T!!!!

-his mind -

"You're a coward, Ezra!"

I'm not!!! It's just difficult, okay! And I'm trying to say that! So I'm not a coward, Arze.

"What you want..."

-back writing in his diary...-

Now I'm sitting in the main room with Raven and Barriss. If I have to be honest... I miss home so much! I miss Dawn the most! I'm here now for 5 days and I heard nothing of the crew...

It looks like they don't even search for me... I planned to be here just for 2 days, so I could relax for a second... Without the drama and that stuff. But now...

Now I see that I'm useless for the Rebellion... And I guess Kanan tried to tell me that by training Lissyene instead of me... I think about staying here. Nobody will miss me there. The only one that will be missed are they..........

But by me........ I hope they have great time there. I'll have a great time here! What am I saying... I miss them like Zeb missed his waffles when we were on a mission for some days! The mission after that one, was getting waffles for the big guy! ... How would it be there now? I want to bet there all sitting around a table, laughing... Having fun... I want to bet they already put my chair away so Chopper could stand or sit or whatever droids do, on my place!

Karabast... I'm only making myself depressed... I'm going to find peace with the elements... Something I'm going to do a lot here... without the crew...

Ezra Bridger Out