Joss' POV

I noticed the indecision on Bas' face. I had to act fast. My happiness was on the line here. I was pretty sure that if Godt had been in my shoes he would have done the same.

Before he could take the call, I grabbed his shoulders and started to kiss him.

His mouth was slightly open because I had taken him by surprise.

While I was kissing him the phone stopped ringing but the sweetness of his lips made me lose control completely. I kept on kissing him, pushing my tongue inside his mouth, sucking on his lower lip.

To my great surprise and delight, he started kissing me back.

I felt his arms slowly going up and his hands holding the back of my neck. The feel of his lips pressing against mine gave me indescribable happiness. I had kissed and received kisses from others before, but this one was so different and I knew that there wouldn't be anything else that could give me this kind of feeling except from his kisses.

We would have gone on kissing when his phone sounded with a notification of an incoming text message.

Bas pulled back guiltily and took his phone to read the text.

I looked away to give him some privacy.

After a while, he put his phone back in his pocket.

"P'Joss," I looked at him when he said my name. "I had a wonderful time having lunch with you..."

"......but you have to leave me to meet up with Godt," I finished his sentence for him, trying but failing to hide the sadness in my voice.

"P'Joss," he tried again, "I'm very attracted to you..."

"......but you don't love me because you love Godt very much," again I finished his sentence for him.

He started to sob. "I'm so sorry, P'Joss, maybe if I had met you before I met him......"

I placed a finger on his lips.

"Please don't say anything more," I said, "my heart is hurting enough already. It might not be able to withstand the constant assault and battery that it's taking from you."

"I'm really, really sorry, P'Joss," I heard him say to me.

He tried to give me a hug but I held him back.

"Would you like me to take you to Godt's apartment or to take you home?" I asked.

"I couldn't ask you to take me to P'Godt's apartment," he said, "that would be insensitive of me. Just take me home, please, P'Joss."

"Okay," I said, standing up to take my car key from the small copper bowl on one of my book shelves.

When he stood up as well, I couldn't resist giving him one last hug

"Please remember, Bas," I said, as I hugged him, not wanting to let go, "if ever you need my company, if he ever breaks your heart, I will always be here for you."

Bas pulled away from my hug.

"Don't, please don't P'Joss," he said, his voice cracking with emotion, "you deserve someone better than me, someone who will not hurt your feelings the way I have. I am sure you will find that special someone soon."

I shook my head sadly.

"I have found him already," I whispered, "he is right here with me right now."

I shouldn't have said that because his tears started to fall once more.