"Antonio you can do it, you have to be strong for her, and just read what she had to say." Sadie says, caressing his back. She scooted closer to him and rested her head on his shoulder urging him to open the letter.

Taking a deep breath, he opened the letter, stuttering on the first few lines as he read it out loud:

Dear Antonio,
My dearest Antonio, how did we get here? This wasn't our plan, our plan was growing old together, watching the girls grow up to be beautiful women, watching them get married and to watch them have kids of their own. I hope that you're doing OK, and that you are taking good care of our girls. I may be gone, but that doesn't mean that I don't miss you, Gabriella and Isabella. I really do miss you and love you all still. God had a plan for me, it wasn't his plan for me to be on this earth, his plan was for me to watch over and to protect you and the girls. To be your angel, I may be gone physically but I'm still here in your hearts.
I want you to know that I don't blame you if you wanted to move on, I don't want you to be alone and I do not want you to be dwelling over the fact that I am no longer here, it isn't healthy. I really want you to be happy and I want the girls to be happy.
I have watched how Sadie is with the girls and she is perfect. She has helped raise them, just as I would have. I know I was hard on her in the beginning, but I had my reasons, and I fell in love with her (well not literally) but you know what I mean. She is a wonderful woman who I know will take good care of you and the girls, I have seen how you have looked at her and what man wouldn't? She's beautiful, young, and a lot like me really. I have seen how big her heart is, she took on something many young women couldn't, or wouldn't have. Some would have only done it for the money. I saw that was not the case with her, she didn't care about the money and had shown how she cared about Izzy and Gabby. What I am getting at, is I really hope that you can fall in love again, and that doesn't mean that you forget about me either, but I really would like to see that you have a place in your heart for someone else to love, and that someone I am talking about is Sadie. I know in my heart that she would be the perfect mother and wife to my family. I would love it a lot.
I really don't want those girls raised by any other woman, other than her. I trust her with them and I trust her with you.
I ask that you give the girls what I couldn't, give them that brother they always wanted or another sister that they could fight with, haha. Like I said before, I know that Sadie is the one. Make her the mother of my children, please... You have my permission, and my blessings. I love you Antonio, don't ever forget me, I'll never forget you. You're free, free to love Sadie, love her as you have loved me.
I love you, make me proud.
Love, Harlow xoxoxo

Antonio folded the letter, and sat quietly for a moment. Surprised at what he just read, and for her to insist that he be with Sadie, to love her, to give her children, and to be their girls mom, had him amazed. He was flabbergasted, he really thought that she would be hurt if he moved on. She may be gone, but he knows that her spirit is around him always.

"It takes a strong woman to write something that beautiful. She had a really big heart, Antonio. Ethan was right... she meant well." she said quietly. She looked at him and wiped away some tears that were strolling down his cheek.

"I do miss her a lot." he whispered "I'll have to read her journal another day, this was already too much."

"That's fine, it's not like she expected you to read everything all in one day, Ethan did say that she wrote in it every day, that's over a year's worth of what was on her mind. I'm sure she wrote it for you and the girls to read whenever you wanted to read something from her, what she was feeling or thinking. When you're thinking of her, just remember that it will always be here for you guys."

She continued holding her arm around him, her hand then began moving up and down his back in a loving way. She felt better after reading what Harlow had to say to them, and couldn't believe how she wanted her husband to move on, wondering what woman would ever say that to their husband. Her heart was bigger than she thought it was. Feeling free, she came up with an idea, for the two of them.

"Come on... follow me." she says, taking his hand while standing up. While they began walking out of the room, he set the letters on the dresser.

"Where are we going?"

"To relax, unwind, to take our minds off of things, and be free." She says, taking him outside and over to the pool.

"The pool?" he asked, looking up into the dark sky.

She started removing her clothes and placed them on the chair near the pool. "Yea... come on..." she said with excitement.

"You want to do this now?"

She giggled "Let's get our minds off of those letters... when was the last time you went skinny dipping?" she asked, jumping into the pool.

Antonio stood at the edge of the pool, watching Sadie swim laps around the pool, she swam up to him urging him to come in.

"Come on Antonio, it will take your mind off of everything." she says, then went under the water.

Antonio felt that Sadie was right, thinking about what Harlow wanted and asked him to do. He shook his head, smiling. He decided to take his clothes off and get in the pool. Sadie came up out of the water and her heart sank when she didn't see Antonio, thinking that he left her out there alone. She swam over to the edge of the pool, started climbing out, and was stopped by Antonio's strong arms as she felt them wrap around her waist.

She turned around cupping the back of his head, and kissed him hard on the lips. "I thought you left me out her alone." She says, pulling away from his lips and smiled.

"I wouldn't have done that to you. Besides, who wouldn't want to go skinny dipping with you?" he smiled, winking at her.

Her legs wrapped around him as he spun them around slowly in the water, kissing each other like it was their first kiss, full of emotions, full of love, hot and passionate.

She released her lips from his, and swam away from him, making him chase after her. He caught up to her grabbing her, and spinning her around in the water, water splashing into their eyes.

He took her to the wall of the pool, and started making love to her. The feeling of being free in the water sent incredible sensations throughout their bodies.

She leaned back into the water as he thrusted in her feeling every inch of him inside her, he held onto her waist and back, as her arms floated on top of the water, water splashing over her face each time he thrusted deeply inside her.

They both moaned and groaned while they came together, he pulled her up to kiss her, while he was releasing his warm juices inside her, hungrily and wildly kissing each other, as if it was their last day on earth.

They parted to catch their breaths and swam around for a while acting like two teenagers in love, while chasing each other and dunking each other under the water.

They were turning into prunes and figured that they were out there long enough and climbed out of the pool. Sadie walked over to the cabinet and grabbed a couple towels, handing one to Antonio before they walked into the house. Sadie started walking towards the stairs, to go down to her room to change, until Antonio stopped her.

"Why don't you come up to my room. Stay with me up there." he begged, pulling her to him, and kissing her forehead softly.

"I can't, it just doesn't feel right." she says quietly "At least not yet."

Antonio looked away, looking upstairs and feeling that he understood why. He didn't like sleeping in the room alone, and hated seeing the empty spot in the bed next to him. He looked back at her, picked her up and carrying her down to her room. "You're right, maybe another time, but that still doesn't stop me from sleeping down here with you." he smirked.

He laid her gently on the bed, and yanked his towel off him. He climbed over her and opened the towel that she had wrapped around herself. He moved his head down to her pussy and spread her legs, placing his face between them, and tickling her clit with his tongue that had her raising her hips up high. The moment his tongue hit her clit she grabbed a hold of his hair, pulling on it hard.

Licking her clit in circles, and softly up and down, then lightly sucking on her swollen button, had her squirming. The more he teased her clit with his tongue, her body shook rapidly, his tongue then thrusted inside her warm wetness, and tasted every inch of her insides that his tongue could reach, loving the taste of her warm apple pie.

She reached her arms behind her, and grabbed a hold of the pillows firmly, as her excitement grew, and electricity was running all throughout her body, sending jolts up her spine as she was reaching her peak. Her hips raised up, as she was about to cum. He placed his hands under her ass, and held her up to continue licking into her hole. He felt the warm juices sliding down his tongue and groaned, tasting her until she was finished releasing.

He lifted her one leg, and placed kisses along her inner thigh, and doing the same with the other leg before he moved up to her navel, slowly moving up and kissing every inch up her body, while gently massaging her breasts. As he moved his way up towards her breasts, he latched onto her nipple, licking and sucking on each one.

She lifted her head up to look at him, as he looked up at her, she ran her fingers through his hair gently pulling him up to her lips, and thrusted her tongue into his mouth, tasting herself.

Their kiss turned heated as he placed his cock at her opening and thrusted his cock deeply inside her, thrusting in and out slowly. She pulled away from his lips, and dropped her head back into the pillow, moaning. The deeper and harder he thrusted, sent strong tingles throughout her body.

He pushed her arms above her head, holding them with one hand as he thrusted harder and faster, her body squirmed and shook as she hit her arousal.

"Sadie..." he groaned, while she was moaning out his name.

They both continued moaning and groaning until they came together. He pumped his cock into her a few more times, while he released, making sure everything was out of his system. He laid on top of her for a while, just looking at her. He kissed her lips before sliding off her, and pulled her into his arms while he rolled to his back.

"Antonio?" she asked, as he caressed her arm, giving her goosebumps

"Yes?" he whispered.

"What if I were to tell you that I haven't taken my pills for a couple weeks?" she asked, whispering nervously "I've been out of them, and haven't been able to get to the pharmacy to pick them up."

He stopped caressing her arm and smiled, he rolled on top of her, and looked into her eyes, then lowered his lips to hers and kissing her with passion.

"I would say that is great news." he moaned into her mouth "I told you earlier that I wouldn't be upset if you stopped taking them."

She stopped kissing him, and looked at him with a serious look. "Well, I'm telling you that because it's true, and I didn't want to say it to you earlier, just to see what kind of reaction I would get out of you, I thought that you would have been upset."

"Upset? No... you just made my night even better." he grinned, rolling back onto his back, and rolling her on top of him. He held her hair behind her, wanting to see her face. "I'd be even happier if you would move into my room." he said, while smiling.

She laid her head into the crook of his neck, and laid there relaxing, and not saying a word.

"Please think about it, and reconsider it."