ᴀɴᴅ ɪғ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴜʀᴛ ᴍᴇ
ᴡᴇʟʟ, ᴛʜᴀᴛ's ᴏᴋᴀʏ, ʙᴀʙʏ, ᴏɴʟʏ ᴡᴏʀᴅs ʙʟᴇᴇᴅ
ɪɴsɪᴅᴇ ᴛʜᴇsᴇ ᴘᴀɢᴇs, ʏᴏᴜ ᴊᴜsᴛ ʜᴏʟᴅ ᴍᴇ
ᴀɴᴅ ɪ ᴡᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴇᴠᴇʀ ʟᴇᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ɢᴏ

-ᴘʜᴏᴛᴏɢʀᴀᴘʜ ʙʏ ᴇᴅ sʜᴇᴇʀᴀɴ

Hyoora pov

I was sitting in my room looking blankly on my phone, at the picture of him. Why is it so hard to forget someone u loved. Why does the heart still starts to beat inhumanly for that one person whom i thought i am totally over. Sometimes life is just so unfair to deal with.

Everytime i remember about that day, i feel a clench in my heart. No, i couldn't cry, i couldn't let it out. And the burden is so heavy that it feels like its ready to kill me, it's suffocating.

1 year ago

Hanbin went to meet jimin in daegu. He went there for some of his business matter. Since he assists his father more than often, he needs to stay by his side always. Hanbin thought of surprising him by going there alone. With that, i was left alone here.

For some reason, i wanted to meet yoongi. Just for once i wanted to tell him about my feelings, how i felt. I wanted to take the first move. Whatever his answer will be, I'll control myself. I have to.

With that, i wrote a letter, for the first time in my life, for a boy, confessing my love. I was done and i started to get ready. I wore a simple outfit so that it won't cringe him out.

I went to his apartment and started to knock. But my heart was pounding as if it's gonna burst. After some minutes, the door opened. My anxiety raised to its peak level. Still i kept myself calm.

But to my surprise, it wasn't yoongi. It was a girl, whom i didn't know.
"Uh hey. It's yoongi's apartment, as long as i remember, right?"
My confused expression made her eyes scrunch in annoyance. She isn't giving me a good vibe.

"Yeah it's yoongi's apartment. What is it?"
Damn, she's rude. But what's she doing here?
"Well i wanted to meet-"
"Yoongi? He's not here. He went to daegu this morning."
She cut me off in the mid sentence, which i hate the most. But i kept myself calm.

"When will he come?"
She crossed her arms over her chest and raised one eyebrow. What's with these expressions of her?
"I don't think you'd want to meet him after he comes. Oh wait. Wrong. I don't think 'he' would want to you to meet after he comes."
She ended her sentence with a sarcastic smile.

It was my time to get my eyes scrunched.
"Why is that? Why wouldn't he want to meet me? I didn't do something wrong, did i?"
She left out an audible laugh, which was annoying as fuck.
"Look who's talking! I'm his girlfriend for your information. And he doesn't like u at all. I know this."

Whatever she said after, i couldn't hear a thing after she said she was his girlfriend.
"And do u know why would he hate u more?"
I looked at her without any emotion.
"U r hanbin's friend if I'm not wrong. Her best friend to be exact."

"Well. Just remember yoongi wouldn't want to talk to u. After all u r hanbin's best friend, the hanbin who just got dumped by jimin."
She ended with a smirk. While i was trying to untangle the whole thing.

"What do u mean?"
She just rolled her eyes and looked at me as if she's gonna slap me.
"Do i look like I'm gonna answer? Just fucking find it urself. And also, don't disturb my yoongi anymore. I hope u have some self respect left."

She slammed the door shut and i heard her say "Fucking slut" before closing the door. I took a deep breath and took my phone out. My mind was covered with dark smoke right now. What is going on to be exact?

Yoongi's girlfriend? Hates me? Dumped? I called hanbin several times but she didn't pick up. Her phone was switched off. I called yoongi as well. But his call went to voicemail. Why isn't anyone of them picking up? What's happening?

Later that day, i couldn't focus on my works. I couldn't even sleep at night. I didn't even know yoongi had a girlfriend. All along, i was residing in a dark absurd lie. The lie which was enough to kill me from the inside. Which made my feelings bitter, yet lively for that one person. And that's him.

Present day

After that, i let my inferior thoughts win and checked yoongi's social profile. There was indeed a girl named Sim YeoJan. And they had many close photos which they surely admire. Visiting the beach together, going on skydiving, hiking and many more.

My confusion got solved then. She indeed is his girlfriend. No doubt. Even now, i check that profile every now and then. They recently visited busan together. Seeing those, i could only sigh and regret for not expressing my feelings earlier.

I know, there's no regret in life, just lessons. But there are some incidents that gives us lessons, but there's no way to correct our past mistakes. We get overwhelmed by our negative thoughts, and keep ourselves away from taking the courage.

I still have that letter on my side desk. I knew yoongi liked handwritten letters. So i prepare this for him. Even if i was rejected, i could move on. But this felt like an illusion, an illusion that has no explanation and comeback.

Jimin indeed dumped hanbin, for another girl. That's what it was. Another reason for me not to contact yoongi. And that's the reason maybe she said yoongi wouldn't wanna talk to me.

Maybe he's now happy with his girlfriend, he doesn't even remember me. Maybe he's glad that I'm out of his life and not bothering him anymore. But does he know, how much i wanted to cry that night? How much i wished i could talk to him and tell him how i feel still now? He doesn't. I hope he never gets to know this.

My phone buzzed telling me someone called. The caller id showed it was hanbin. I simply got up and went to her apartment. There's no point in grieving for the past. There's something new waiting in the future. Gotta move on and cheer up my bestie.

"Heya bro."
Hanbin greeted me which was awfully odd. I sensed something up and eyed her carefully.
"Ok now stop checking me out. I know u already sensed something's wrong."
She left a huff and dragged me to the living room.

"Is that too much serious?"
I asked kinda getting scared inside.
"Kind of. Appa called me. And..."
She paused and looked at me.
"Yah why did u stop. And?"
I said getting impatient.

"Riri, before anything, u need to promise me. That you're gonna help me."
She said holding me hand in a pleading manner. I assured her to continue and she calmed down a little before continuing.

"Appa arranged a date with the guy..."

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Chapter 7 ends

Word count: 1209

A little bit of second lead moment. Hope u guys liked it.

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