I had a bestfriend once, but a long time ago.
Losing a friend is more hurt than losing your lover.
We have a big fight.
My bestfriend(I will not say if my bestfriend a boy or a girl) once say;
"I will kill you whenever I saw you again and whenever you try to talk to me."
Since that day, that words keeps repeating in my head and then there is this one voice that say to me;
"You never worth being with anyone, you will never be happy, you will never found your happiness in your life. The best thing to do is die, die, die, and DIE!"
I will hear that voice every night, every day and every moment.

And there is one time, I can't breath when I hear that voice and that was the wonderful thing because I think it was my ending, but yeah I'm still here.
My life have no different with a dark room where you can't found any bright light.