I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

I am a worthless, horrible excuse for a human being.

I can't even keep a stupid promise to you.
Even though I always say I stick to my word.
I guess to do, but this one promise I made, I KNEW I could never keep, yet I still told you I would.

I LIE to you face
I tell you I have other things on, just cause I don't want to come.
It's not you, it's me.
Honestly.
I just can't stand going out.

I lie to your face when I tell you I'm fine.
Want to know what the truth is.
Yes I'm fine, here bleeding out in my bed, on the floor, in the shower, anywhere, bleeding out with a blade by my side, typing I'm fine, staining the screen red.

But you know what.

I honestly deserve it.

I always ask what i did wrong.

But I just said it.

I'm so sorry.
But I'm just a worthless piece of shit.
Rubbish to be thrown away.
A useless tool.
Nothing worth your time.

I'm sorry.
But I'm a horrible excuse of a human being.
Why should I even stay in your shadow.
When I don't deserve to be there.