I skidded into the driveway and told the kids to get out of the car, Rebecca helped her brothers out and took my keys to unlock the front door of the house, All of a sudden my phone vibrated in my pocket I pulled it out, it was a notification from twitter.

@VanessaAnderson are you coming to watch my performance or will the dare have to have photographic proof cause we both know that I don't want any pictures taken XD

Shit! I forgot about the stupid dare games I had with Jake!

I tweeted him back: @JakeBuckner Can't make it to your 'performance' tonight so the photographic proof will have to be posted on twitter or else it's a forfeit!;)

I slammed my phone down on the seat beside me and dumped my face into my palms "UGHHHHHHHH" I moaned really loudly. I hopped out of the car and stormed into the house, the kids were upstairs packing. I ran to my bedroom and flopped onto my bed, maybe I should text Chloe?

Me:Chloe please don't be mad

Me:I was gonna tell u soon I just wasn't ready

Me:Chloe I know uv read these cause it says read

Me:Come on Chloe put urself in my shoes

Chloe:I thought you could trust me

Me:U think I didn't tell u cause I didn't trust u?

Chloe:Y else?

Me:Chloe finding out that I was adopted was the biggest thing that ever happened to me! It took long enough for me to process how my whole life has been a lie! And ur angry cause I wasn't ready to tell u!?

Chloe:Save it Nessa

I stopped trying with her cause she'd just find a way to lash back at me. The one thing that was know crossing my mind was: Can she keep my secret? All I wanted to do was reverse time and just skip last year's thanksgiving! I needed to relieve my anger and stress and I remembered what the school psychiatrist said about how keeping a diary helps calm down in these sort of situations. I went and rummaged through my drawers, I pulled out a pink leather diary which had 'SHIT' written across the front cover, I opened it, grabbed a pen and began writing.

So my life is SHIT. It has always been Shit and it will always be Shit and it took me until last thanksgiving to realize that. I know no one will ever read this but I need to tell someone or even something about what happened last Thanksgiving, just to get it off my chest. So here it goes.

Every year my grandma hosts a massive Thanksgiving party, mostly only friends and family attend but I'll tell you one thing she has a lot of friends and a huge family! Last year she decided to make it exclusive and small, only inviting Karen, John, the kids and I because we lived only about a block away. We had no clue why she decided to do this but we went along with it because lately she's been kinda... loopy I guess. When we arrived at her house she hadn't any of the usual decorations up and she had no food cooked. She made us all sit in her living room for about twenty minutes in complete silence. We assumed that she was talking to herself in the hallway cause we heard a lot of mumbles and whispering. She walked in and sat right across from me on the couch. She began talking about how all my siblings had blond hair and blue eyes and I had dark brown hair and hazel eyes, she then moved onto the fact that I was much older than everyone else, in the meantime my Karen and John tried to interrupt but Grandma has knack of speaking very very loudly. She then asked me how I felt being so different, it was an awkward and uncomfortable situation to be in cause I had never really thought about any of that kinda stuff before. My Grandma then took my hands and told me that she was just talking to my mother, I glanced strangely at Karen, I was so confused. She told me that I had a chance to speak to her if I wanted to.

I dropped my pen and closed my eyes remembering it as just yesterday.

Flashback

"Vanessa dear I was just speaking to your mother" Grandma said, glaring into my eyes, I glanced at Mom and back at Grandma.

"Mom's sitting right there" I replied.

"You can speak with her dear, if you want to" She said slowly.

"I speak to her everyday Grandma, we live in the same house" I giggled nervously, I looked over at Mom again who was now red in the face.

"That's enough now Mrs Anderson" Mom ordered sternly,

"She's right mom, that is enough" My dad agreed.I looked around at everyone confused, what were they iding from me? The whole room had gone quite, even Jacob was silent, all the kids were listening into our tence conversation.

"I would like to know what is going on" I stated, I was growing agitated, what were they hiding from me!?

"Your real mother dear" My grandma interrupted.

I laughed nervously, my palms had grown sweaty and my eyes were beginning to water with frustration. "Can someone please tell me what is going on!" I shouted. I grew extremely tense. I saw my parents glaring at my grandmother.

"Honey you have nothing to worry about" Mom assured, rubbing my back, I shoved her away and stared at my Grandma.

"Did you not know dear? You're adopted" the words froze in mid air, my body weakened and my heart dropped. I didn't expect that a person would act this way but I couldn't control myself. I had to grip onto the couch to keep my balance, I began to breath heavily. I could hear faint arguing and bickering between my 'parents' and my 'Grandma'. Was I actually adopted? Why did I feel such hatred for my parents, I mean they gave me a home, but they still kept this massive secret from me!

"What do you mean I can speak to her?" I mumbled through tears.

"I was just on the phone with her, you can have her number if you want dear"

"That's enough Mom! We are leaving this instant! Rebecca, Charlie and Jacob get in the car now!" John yelled. I was dragged out of my seat and shoved into the car and drove home.

End of flashback

Reality slapped me in the face when I found myself lying flat on my bedroom floor.

"Nessa get off the floor" Jacob giggled from above me "You're not supposed to sleep at day time" He laughed as he ran out of my room. Wtf? Why was I on the floor? I slowly picked myself up and sat on my bed, did I fall? Or did I just lie down? I picked up my phone and went on twitter. I was surprised to see that Chloe didn't subtweet me, she usually does to anyone who even slightly annoys her. I got a notification from Jake.

@VanessaAnderson I did it! Here's picture proof oh and btw I'm suspended from the school football team for 2 weeks so it's about to get realXD

I clicked on the photo to see him running in the middle of the pitch in 6 inch heels in a ridiculous outfit. I let out a laugh as I retweeted it.

@JakeBuckner What's my dare? I'm up for anything ;)

I placed my phone down on my desk and lay backwards on my bed. I rubbed eyes and just waited there, thinking about life. "Vanessa can we please stay here?!" Rebecca whined from my door.

"Nope! Not a chance, I would've maybe let you if Chloe was able to stay here and help but guess what? She hates me know because of you, so you and your brothers better be packed and in the car in five minutes or else I'll make you sleep on the streets!" I threatened "Oh and Karen and John don't need to know about this or I will ruin your social life with all your 'cool' friends by telling them embarrassing stories about you!"

She went red in the face and stormed off. Ugh sometimes I wish I could just leave, I don't know where but at the moment anywhere sounded better than here. I closed my eyes remembering the drive home from Grandma's last thanksgiving.

Flashback

I sat in silence, in fact everyone was silent. All you could hear were small sniffles and my tear drops hitting the car floor. "Why me?" I asked between tears.

"What do you mean?" Karen asked sympathetically.

"How come I was adopted and the others weren't!?" I asked louder and more angrily.

"Not now Vanessa" John interrupted.

"I have the right to know!"

"We had trouble having children so we told a family friend, who later got in touch with us telling us that a plane full of kids from an orphanage had just landed in a nearby airport and it was the easiest and quickest way to adopt back then, we went to the airport, signed some papers and went to pick you up. You were distraught and confused, you needed a safe home so we knew you were the one. It took you about a year to settle in and we don't understand why it took so long but you finally did. When you were about 7 we tried and were successful with having our own kids and because we were still both young we decided to make a new family, a bigger more loving family" Karen explained.

She left me breathless, they did what they did out of love and care and yet I hated them so much for it! I should be thankful but something inside of me knew that I should not have come home with this family! I should have gone somewhere else or stayed where I was because one thing is for sure I do not fit in.

End of flashback.

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