Christian POV

The time at Devin's pack house seemed to go by without me even noticing, my mind was on what the moon goddess had told me and Omen. 

I am destined to be alone basically forever, no matter who I mate with or mark, the bond will be broken in a matter of days so why even bother to put myself through that pain? I'd rather just be alone by myself in the middle of nowhere. 

I wouldn't put anyone else through this heart wrenching pain that I am feeling as well as Liam. I wanted to have him as my mate forever and have Andrew as a son and have pups with Liam but now, I won't be able to have a family, I will forever be alone. 

We spent the evening at home with helping Devin with his pups into their new rooms. I really wasn't in the mood but I did it for him and Liam. He is a good guy and if him and Liam do get together I will be happy about that. He can provide the family Liam wants one day where I can't. 

I'm laying on the bed when Liam walks in and lays beside me and pulls me to his chest and wraps his around me. 

"Liam, I am sorry you are going to lose me. I am sorry for the pain you feel and will feel soon, I just don't want you to hate me and regret ever meeting me." I said in a whisper I barely even heard. I felt him sigh softly. 

"It's not your fault my love, you have no reason to apologize about this, you didn't know, none of us did. I am sorry, I'm sorry I brought you into my life and you finding out about who you truly are. If I had stayed away you would be in college right now on your way to becoming a doctor like you wanted to be. I am sorry for ruining your life. Your mom was right that day she kicked you out, she told me that your life wouldn't be a good one if you were with me and she is right because look at what's happening." 

"It's not your fault either Liam, it's the way it is supposed to be I guess. No other wolf is like me so I will be forever alone and that's ok, I was alone all my life until I met you, these past almost two years have been the most wonderful time of my life and it's thanks to you. Thank you for being my friend and showing me that people do care, thank you for loving me, thank you for making me happy, laugh, smile and feel good about myself. I will be forever grateful to you for that Liam, truly." 

"Is this goodbye Christian?" I felt my heart break even more if that were possible and tears forming and huge lump form in my throat. 

"Yes." Is all I could manage to say before breaking down in his arms. 

"I will always love you and I will never forget you, you will ways be my first mate and my true happiness." He said and kissed my forehead as I sobbed into his chest. I calmed down after a while and saw he was sleeping.  

I took this opportunity to get out of bed slowly and packed up a couple of big duffle bags, grabbed my phone my charger my wallet and keys. I sat on the bed and watched him sleep, I put my hand on his cheek gently and sighed.  

"Goodbye Liam, I wish you a life filled with love and happiness you deserve. I will never forget you." I stood up and kissed his lips gently and grabbed my stuff and walked out of the room with it. 

I made my way down stairs to find Rick, Liam's father and knocked on the door to his office. I walked in after I heard a come in. 

"Sir I need to speak with you about something." I said as I sat down. 

"Everything alright?" I shook my head no and looked up at him as tears stated to fall. I told him what the moon goddess had told me and asked him to release me from the pack as I am leaving and wish to do so on my terms and to not be contacted unless I contact them or if its about Liam. He also removed my mark of Liam's and broke the rest of our bond. He did as I asked and said our goodbyes. 

I asked him to inform my true parents about this and he said he would, I don't want to leave but I can't stay here, not in this pain I'm in to just be reminded that I will never have Liam the way I had him the first night we mated. I put my stuff in my car and as I was about to drive away, Rick stopped me. 

"Here this is to help you settle in somewhere else, it's enough to get you by for a while son, you are always welcome here if you choose to come back. I will miss you Christian dearly." I smiled a sad smile at him. 

"I will miss you too dad, thank you for everything you have done for me." He nodded and backed away from the car and I drove off thinking of the life I had here for the past almost two years and what my future would bring.  

I drove for a few hours before I got tired and stopped at a hotel. I got a room and as I was walking to it, everyone I passed bowed their heads until I walked past and they returned to what they were doing. 

I opened the door and walked in and shut the door and just fell on the bed face first, passing out quickly after. I woke up around eleven and got a shower and got dressed in a pair of white skinny jeans with a navy blue long sleeve v neck shirt and boots. I fixed my hair and sighed at myself, no mark on my neck anymore and no pull toward Liam, all I feel is unbearable pain that words can't describe. 

I grabbed my bag and walked out of the room and went to check out. As I was walking to the front desk my nose caught the scent of strawberry and vanilla with a hint of pine and I knew it was another mate, I didn't want to meet him and go through this shit aging so I left quickly to get as far away from him as possible, my wolf didn't even say mate to me as he knew we couldn't go through this again so soon. I pulled into a McDonald's and got out. I walked inside and waited in line. My phone rang and it was Devin. I sighed and answered. 

"Hey Devin what's up?" 

"What's up, really? You left in the middle of the night Christian!" He yelled. 

"Watch your tone Devin." I threatened and people around me looked scared. 

"I had no choice, I couldn't stay there any longer and feel my bond breaking and feel the torture of it every minute of the day! It is fucking hell Devin and I couldn't just sit there and watch Liam as his heart broke because of who the fuck I am! You think I wanted this, you think I wanted to fall in love with him only to learn I will never find the happiness and love I deserve and desire because of my fucking blood line?! You think it's fair to put myself and Liam through that?! I did what is best for both of us Devin!" I was yelling and I didn't care who heard me, I was pissed. 

"No I'm sorry Alpha, I didn't mean no disrespect." I sighed and tried to calm down. 

"Only time I want to be contacted is if anything happens to him, Andrew, or the pack no more communication I need to be able to find a way to move on and find a way to live with my fucked up self and fucked up life Devin. Please respect that and tell Andrew I will miss his little self terribly." After that I hung up and looked around and everyone was looking at me. 

"What are you all looking at?!" I roared and they all looked away. Feeling no need to eat now I left.

I kept driving to wherever I could until I didn't feel pain anymore but I know no matter how far I drive, I will always feel pain because that is my life.