Christian POV

After the rogues got settled to eat I ran out of the house to the pack doctor to check on Adam. I open the door to the room he is in slowly and see him on his side just looking at the wall. He doesn’t even move when I walk in.

“Hey, how are you doing?” I asked sitting down in the chair next to the bed. He doesn’t respond, he just keeps looking at the wall. I sigh.

“You don’t have to worry about Devin anymore, he’s gone, dead gone. I’m so sorry this happened to you, I should have been there to protect you like I had promised but I let you down, I am so sorry baby I am so sorry you are hurt because I failed you.” I started to cry silently looking at him.

“Just go away, I don’t want to see you right now.” His words crushed me, I didn’t want to leave but I also didn’t want to put him through any more pain so I got up and tried to kiss his cheek but he put his hand up and stopped me, a sob left my mouth and I left the room.

I go outside and as I’m walking back to the pack house I just fall to the ground and sit on my knees holding my head in my hands. I feel so helpless, I don’t know what to do for Adam.

The pack doctor comes up to me and taps my shoulder.

“King Christian I have news on Adam if you'd like to hear it.” I nodded and he continued.

“He has extensive damage to his anus as well as inside his body, it's like he is tore in half, he has bruising all over his stomach chest arms and back. He is in pain and I treated his injuries and gave him medicine but since he's not a wolf he wont be able to heal as fast as us, he has a few weeks of recovery ahead of him. He will be fine though.”

“Thanks doc.” I said and he nodded and I got up and went back to the house. I walk in and go to my room. I walk to my bed and just look at it, blood and semen and probably Adam's tears on the sheets.

I rip them off the bed and put new ones on. I remake the whole bed and clean the room to remove Devin's scent from it. I grab the sheets and comforter and walk back down stairs, every wolf sniffs the air and from their looks they are disgusted just like I am. I get a bag and throw the stuff into it and throw it out the back door, I'll burn it later.

I go back up stairs and shower. After I'm done I put on a pair of shorts and tank top and my shoes. I go back down and everyone is silent.

“Look what happened to Adam is despicable and it will be hard on him coming back here, if he comes back. If he does please help him if you are able, he will most likely be scared because he thought he could trust one of us, hell I thought the same thing but Devin was some kind of sick thing who decided to hurt one of the closest most important people to me. He gave up his life, his career to be with me and this is how he was treated? I failed him, I promised him I would protect him and I failed, miserably at that. I will never be able to forgive myself for causing this to happen to him, it's my fault. I am the one person who let him down. He is in a house full of wolves so he should have been able to feel comfortable and trust everyone because I do, well that was before Devin did this because he felt like it basically.  If anyone has issues with me or Adam, tell me now and we will handle it. The man I love is so torn he doesn’t want anything to do with me, he told me to leave him alone and wouldn’t even let me touch him.  He is so scared that he won't even look at me.” I'm in tears and on my knees clutching my chest as I am filled with disappointment of myself and guilt.

To my surprise Cale, the head rogue comes over to me and helps me up and walks me outside and sits me on the chair on the porch, him taking the one next to it.

“You should know and need to know that it isn't your fault, you had no idea Devin was going to hurt Adam like that. You couldn’t foresee this happening could you? No one knew it was going on in the house I'm sure cuz they would have stopped it knowing he is your mate. Don’t blame yourself for what that thing did, King.”

“Cale, he is so hurt, so hurt that he wouldn’t even look at me. The look in his eyes, I didn't recognize because I have never seen that look before from him. I think it was hatred and if he hates me, I don’t know what I would do. If he rejects me and leaves, that'll be the end for me, you remember when we ran into one another how it was for me. I won't be able to handle another loss if you will but, if that's what he chooses to do of course I'll let him. We found each other twice well I found his scent twice but you get it, if he leaves and were meant to be, well find one another again but I don’t want him to go, I don’t want to lose him.”

“I'm not going anywhere baby.” Adam's voice saying that was like angels parting the heavens singing into my soul. I stood up quickly and gently took him into my arms.

“I am so sorry my love I am so sorry.” I kept repeating over and over holding onto him, face in his neck sobbing.

“It's not your fault, you didn't let me down baby. You can't be in all places at once and there is no way you could have known what was going to happen. I love you, I kept thinking I wasn’t going to see you again, I felt I betrayed you and that you were going to leave me because I now have his mark, I want it off.” Adam said as he cried and held onto me tightly.

“I could and would never blame you for such a sick act my love, you are the victim and he is now dead, Kane made sure of that. I can remove the mark now if your up for it.” He nodded.  I lifted him up and sat him gently on the chair and put my hand on his neck and my power went through me to my fingers and I rubbed the mark, saying a prayer and removed it.

“There, it's gone. Nothing but that beautiful tattoo on that sexy neck.” He smiled and touched my cheek.

“I love you Christian.”

“I love you Adam.” He looked over and for the first time noticed Cale and gasped.

“Cale?!” Cale nodded and smiled wide.

“Oh my god, you’re a wolf?” He asked, shocked.

“Yea, born as one of course. Wow long time since I have seen you, been what five years since we last saw each other?”

“Yea, I always wondered where you went off to.”

“I had to leave,  I didn’t have a choice. I killed a wolf who killed my mate and got banished,  haven’t been part of a pack since and got labeled a rogue just because I was banished for getting justice for my mate.”

“Wait that’s why your considered a rogue Cale?” I asked and he nodded.

“Yup, bastard killed my mate because he wanted him and said if he couldn’t have him no one will and killed him in front of me and me being the Alpha of that pack I killed him, didn’t think they would banish their own Alpha for it. The wolves with me, they left with me and got labeled a rogue because they left, no other reason.” He said with sadness.

“I'm sorry Cale, I had no idea. Why didn’t you tell me this before?” I asked.

“Well when we ran into each other of course I was scared shitless of you, everyone is and for good reason as you are well aware. You didn’t look like you needed another problem on your shoulders, plus I'm a rogue why would anyone care about my issues?”

“Me, I'm a sucker for helping people. That’s how he ended up here. His pack decided to attack us and well it didn’t end well for them. I was about to take him down to the cells but he gave me a sob story so I let him be apart of our pack and brought his pups here also. Now I will have to speak with Liam but would you and the other three like to stay here, you could become guardians of mine, my protectors if you will. Mostly over Adam.” Cale and Adam look at one another and Adam gives him his heart stopping smile and Cale nods.

“It would be an honor to serve you my king.”

“Wonderful.  Now come on my love, let's get you into the tub because I'm about to get sick smelling him on you.” I pick Adam up and we go into the house.

“Liam, Spencer follow me please.” They follow us up stairs, Cale right behind us.

“We need to talk but give me a moment, I'm going to get Adam into the bath.” They nod and sit on the couch and Cale sits on the chair.

I take Adam into the bathroom and sit him on the toilet and start the bath water. I kneel in front of him.

“Are you ok darlin?” I asked stroking his cheek.

“I will be, it'll take time but I will be. I am sorry we can't finish what we started earlier, I was kinda wanting to be intimate with you in every way tonight.”

“No don't be, that can wait. I can wait. I've waited this long to be with you so I can wait longer, you are more important than anything in this world to me so waiting for you is what I will do to make sure you are 100% ready, you can take as long as you need to.” I picked him up and he dropped the blanket and I put him in the tub.

“I'll be just outside the door so if you need anything, call out and I'll be here. I love you.” I leaned in and kissed his lips softly and him mine.

“Ok. I love you too." He said breathless, he gets breathless a lot when I kiss him or say something he loves. I smile at him and walk out, shutting the door most of the way behind me.