"By now, I think you can all tell that these things I've talked about, all that 'hating' shit, yeah it wasn't true. All the things that I have just crammed in to make sure that the speech was that much shorter, all of it; I loved."

Tears started to fill my eyes rapidly, I don't know why I put the hardest part to say near the end of the speech. I always do stupid shit like this...

"I love everything about that small green haired IrishMan, Sean was my best friend and my boyfriend. From the start of youtube we grew together in subscribers and in age. After a few years of us being so close, we decided to get together. And this was the first time I had found true love."

The audience looked at me stunned, I don't think they were expecting me to state our relationship. Especially at this point in our lives.

"Jack didn't deserve what happened to him, he didn't ask for any of it but sometimes, sometimes god is unfair. Sometimes life turns o-out the w-way we don't want." I hiccuped, the tears blurring my view...