"You and your words God damn it!"

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Only a few minutes had passed by, but Ben hadn't even noticed, as one minute, he was relishing in the taste of Tully's nectar on his tongue and now he was laying on the bed, being straddled by the therapist. He vaguely remembers something said about him and a pink dildo, but after that, his mind was a fuzz.

"Ben?" Tully looks at him with concern at the vacant expression he was pulling. "Are you ok?"

Ben seems to pull his mind back in the room. He looks at the concerned face Tully was expressing. "Tully, there's something I must tell you," he says, feeling a slight embarrassment in having to admit it.

"What is it?" Tully questions. He reaches out for a bottle of oil from the nightstand, before applying some to his hand, he replaces the bottle and rubs his hands together. He then takes the well oiled palms to Ben's chest. "You can tell me anything," he says with a warm smile, as he rolls the ball of one hand over Ben's torso, followed by the other.

Ben knew Tully was probably trying to coax out his conflicting thoughts, as the touch made him emit a low hum, but Ben also knew he must be honest. "That toy, the pink one..." he begins.

"What, this?" Tully reaches to his side, picking it up from the bed and holding it up in front of Ben. Ben looks up at it. It seemed in his mind that it had grown in size.

"Yes that,'' Ben continued. "I, I'm not sure... I mean..."

Tully now stops his massage, giving Ben his full attention. "Just tell me Ben. It's ok." He leans over Ben, placing a soft kiss on his lips.

Ben looks up at Tully, a strange sensation washes over him. Like he didn't need to be afraid. Not of his words he wanted to speak, nor of the man above him. "Tully, I've never really had anything invade my...y'know."

"You've never received anal?" Tully says matter of factly, as if it didn't matter one way or another.

Ben felt some comfort in this as he had never admitted it before. "Does it matter? I mean, I usually top." He wonders if Tully would understand that he was not as experienced as all that.

"So you don't want these hands, these fingers to pleasure you in a way you couldn't possibly imagine?" Tully again returns his hands to Ben's oiled skin, now running the palms across Ben's lower stomach. He made light work of making Ben's erection twitch all on its own.

"Well...I...mmmm" Ben's words fail him as Tully takes his index finger into Ben's mouth. His lips naturally close around the singular digit.

"Suck it Ben, go on, that's it, feels good right? To feel me inside you like this and this is just my finger. How amazing would it be if you were to feel me down below huh? Going deep inside. But if you don't want to, I'll understand." Tully's lips part as he watches and feels the small vacuum around his finger, created by Ben's lips. He then retracts it to hear Ben's response.

It was no secret that Ben had crushed on Tully's hands for weeks, with those long slender fingers and those blessed big rings and he couldn't also deny that the thought Tully had just planted in his mind was a very nice one indeed. "You and your words God damn it." Ben groans. He felt like he was somehow surrendering to a spell. "Just be gentle ok?"

Tully grins widely as he now repositions himself on the bed, laying on his side next to Ben, his head resting on an upturned palm. Ben looks to the ceiling above, his eyes slowly closing as he feels Tully's silky hand glide up and down his well oiled torso. "I won't be a moment." He says before Ben senses his departure.

He opens his eyes to see Tully returning the large dildo back on the shelf. "What are you doing? I said it's ok." Ben says with confusion.

"Not for your first time. That's more for seasoned pros....ah perfect!" Tully reaches out for something on the shelf, he turns back around with a much smaller cone shaped black plug in his hand.

Ben frowns when he sees the comparatively smaller toy in his hand. "I'm sorry Tully. I know you were wanting to use the beast."

"And I will, some day, but I don't want to hurt you. It's your first time. That's why it's important you talk to me Ben. If you had said nothing and I had used it, then I could have pushed you too far too soon. I could have put you off what is an amazing experience." Tully now sits on the side of the bed. He places a hand on Ben's thigh. "We need to be honest and tell eachother what is on our minds. Contrary to what you might think about me, I'm not a mind reader." He laughs at his final words, which make Ben feel more relaxed as he joins in with the light relief.

"Ok." Ben lifts up a hand, placing it on Tully's. "I am at your mercy...."