So its been a week since youko came back after running away crying when I said mistress. I had left the castle to check on her.... cause well that's my job. I searched the academy, the pub, bloody vile, and even the dwarf cave because I know that youko hides out it there a lot..... but she was no where to be found..... I even caught up with moka and she hadn't seen her in forever.

that's when I got worried this wasn't the first time youko got kidnapped but this time I don't even think I could save her.... she could be already dead for all I know..... but I wont give up I will not go back to the castle until I know youko is safe..... and I honestly don't think ill be going back soon if that's the case.

I have spent my entire life watching over this girl cut the one time I relax she I gone again and I have no ability to save her.

I walked out side onto my overly decorated balcony to look at the starts which I knew was something youko loved to do..... and I started to cry a liitle bit as I saw a shouting star, " I wish that youko will come back safe or that this is just a bad dream.... at least give me the power to find her."..... just then I broke down in tears and collapsed on the ground prying to let youko be safe.... because for the first time in my life I cant save her.