This is another one of those life updates. I apologize for the lack of chapters this past month it's because I've just gone through so many things during that span of time. I needed to let out my feelings and I believe that this is where it's most appropriate for I know that you, my readers would understand.

I've been stressed to the point that I've had meltdowns at night. This is because of the heaps of work and pressure coming from our teachers. My sleeping schedule is a mess and I haven't been eating well.

Life's though. It's hard enough that we're loaded with a mountain of work. But getting no appreciation from the teachers themselves? That's another burden. And when I come home, what greets me? Scolds from my parents. Sometimes my mom treats me like trash. She tells me I'm useless and all that which adds up to my depression.

Because of these, I've become an emotional wreck. One moment I'm happy then the next, I'm depressed and sad. It's hard to have these mood swings. When I'm at school, I'm always pissed that is why I gained enemies including the "Denver and Vince" of my life. 

I'm ashamed to tell you this but there was a point in this month that I almost became an atheist. Yes, I did. Because of everything, I doubted His existence, I doubted His love and I doubted everything that involves Him. My devotionals are raw, my Bible's untouched (because I use my phone now), my devotional notebook too is just kept in my bag, I haven't been praying before I sleep and after I wake up, so on and so forth.

In short, I'm falling apart. 

Today, it hit me. I logged back into my Wattpad and read all your comments. It made me more ashamed that I've inspired people to be near God while behind the screen, I'm a mess. 

Piece of advice for you: Don't be like me. Don't doubt Him and don't ever go back to the dark. Many times we stumble but these are stepping stones. 

I'm a bad author for letting these things happen to me. I don't want to look like someone who fakes his personality in a computer screen. I fall and break as well. I'm letting you know this because I want you to know that you're not the only one experiencing these types of pain. Even people who inspire others get hurt as well.

This is a test, I know. Satan is trying to break me down to stop inspiring millenials. 

As a brother in need, I ask for your help. Yes, I also need help. I need prayers. I believe that prayers change everything and when readers unite in a prayer, the life of one can be fixed or changed. 

Please never stop recommending this book to others especially those who can relate to the life of Gray Mitchell. 

I love you guys and I deeply apologize for not updating.

I'll be back again with more chapters. I'm not promising anything.

I may not be updating, but I still can read your heartwarming comments and messages and for that, I thank God for letting you discover this book of mine which He wrote. 

I love you with the love of the Lord!

God bless you  :)