I should really ask for compensation for all the research I do at night. Yesterday I stayed up till 1.00. Again. This has become a habit now, so my head started spinning when I tried to get out of bed the next day, and I fell asleep while pooping. I mean mom woke me up by knocking on the door and yelled at me for being lazy on a workday. She must have thought I stayed up watching free world movies like always. I really need to look for my own place to live. Nobody will yell at me then.

At least I have a plan now, the best I could come up with after all my studying. So this grand plan of mine had two main goals.

I need to find a way for Mr.Jack to care better about Bear.

I need to bring Bear out the house cause, he is like five months now and has never been out of the house before.

Experts on the internet said it would be great for baby to get natural light and fresh air. He has been super curious about his surroundings and loved when I showed him out the window, most days that's the only way I could get him to eat. So the outdoor might be great for him. It would be terrific if I could get daddy bear to bring him out to the children's park but I'll take anything I can get.

So I prepared myself a list. Making lists had become another habit ever since I started this job.

I had places and things I wanted to do with bear with all their benefits, along with a big description of those places and how safe they were and all the precautions I would take. I had everything planned out down to the clothes I would be dressing Bear in.

I wanted to start with just around the neighborhood for about 10 minutes where it is definitely safe so Bear gets used to the outside and then I would make my way to the park and the local play areas so he can meet other kids. I just need Mr.Jack to trust me.

I rehearsed what I wanted to say a few times. I didn't want to ramble half way and ruin everything.

They were all having their breakfast when I approached him armed all the things I learned in the last few days.

"Mr.Jack. Can I talk to you for a moment, later?" I noticed that I was kinda sweating. I clenched my fingers to stop them from shaking so much. It felt like the day I went for the interview.

He kept looking at me for a while, which made me all the more nervous before finally nodding. Okay, that was the easy part done.

I paced in the kitchen with Bear on my hand until they were done. Bear seemed to love watching me all nervous cause he kept laughing at me. Mrs.Miller, on the other hand, was going nuts, watching me.

"Could you stop that Ms.Short. You're giving me a headache"

"Sorry. I'm just nervous about later."

"I hope you thought about what you're doing. If you are this nervous, it can't be a good idea."

I ignored her because it was a good idea. I even made my dad listen to me. I know he didn't really listen when I asked him what he thought about my plan, he just mumbled about something on the TV.

"What do you need? Is it about the kid?" The heck? The kid? That was your child you're talking about. We were in his home office, and he sat in his big black leather office chair that looked more comfortable than the computer chair I had back home. Well Duh! Of course, it's more comfortable, he didn't find it in a thrift shop.

"No, I mean Yes, I mean kinda." He kept blinking at me as if to tell me to get on with it.

"You know how I am hired to take care of B..Espath?" I thought I saw him catch me slipping for a second there. I need to be more careful.

"Yes, I am aware of that Ms.Short. Is it about your pay?" I shook my head, this was not about me and I didn't want him to get the wrong idea.

"No! I am more than happy with my salary Mr.Jack. I just want to discuss with you about your child's ...." what is the word I'm looking for here? ".. well being."

He leaned in a little closer and nodded me to continue. For a second I was distracted by how muscular his hands were that was resting on the table. I think he noticed.

"He is growing so fast and he needs stimulants to grow up faster. I was thinking since he is like inside all the time, I should take him outside sometimes, for a few minutes"

He shook his head, that wasn't the reaction I wanted. "That's not necessary Ms.Short all the things he needs is inside the house. If you need anything more get Mrs.Miller to place an order."

Things are going south so fast. He started to get up.

"I don't mean to take him far away. Don't get me wrong this is a nice house and he has a nice room and all the toys he could ever want but he is a growing infant he needs a change in the scenery and fresh air and sunlight. You can't coop him in her forever"

His eyes narrowed in disapproval. Crap I could have said that better. Well, I might as well say everything now since I came so far. Remember what Justin said, he won't know unless I tell him. Thinking of Justin made me relax a lot.

"Five minutes that's all I ask. I will bring him downstairs, walk a couple of blocks and come right up, you can even send security to follow me if you don't trust me enough" I mean I wasn't stupid enough to kidnap the child of the richest man in the galaxy anyway but whatever to ease his mind.

I pulled up the list I made last night and put my phone in front of him.

"I have it all figured out. The first day it will only be to the front of the gate so we won't be going outside, actually."

I hoped he read everything because I worked so hard and the plan made so much sense in my head.

"I sent you the list so that you could go through it and approve of any places you think is safe."

In an ideal world, he would approve of everything but even if I get to go downstairs with Bear I can safely try to make him come with us the next time without risking my job.

"Ms.Short I think you should just focus on keeping Espath happy. Inside this house" This man definitely has some sort of hearing problem.

"For how long, Mr. Jack? Until he is 18 and old enough to leave the house on his own?"Danger! Danger! I needed to shut up like five minutes ago!

I must have shocked the man a lot cause he looked at me as if I murdered his pet goldfish. I needed to get out of here. Fast.

"You know what? I think that was too much information and I should leave you to review the list first, maybe then we can discuss the best course of action"

The chances of me making an idiot out of myself increase fast with every second I am with him, alone.

If I wasn't shaking like I walked out to a snowstorm buck naked I would say that I did pretty good. I win anything by confrontation so I usually avoid that at all cost but I can't bear to see Bear (That rhymed!) all locked up here anymore.

I didn't see the guy anymore for the rest of the day, mainly cause I hid for most of the day inside Bear's room, only coming outside after I check that the coast is clear.

Tomorrow I hope though things will be better. I know I am hoping for too much with how things usually work out for me, but if anything could be different for me, this would be it.