Staying inside the room alone with my thoughts was suffocating. I needed fresh air to clear my mind, so I went out. I didn't exactly have anywhere to go so I wandered around thinking about nothing and everything. My thoughts were interrupted by my phone buzzing. "Hot Guy" the caller ID read. I hesitated to answer the call. I knew he would have seen the video already. He must think I'm such a big idiot.

"Hello..."

"Shortie?"

"Yeah!"

"I tried calling you before but you didn't pick up"

I had my phone switched off. I didn't want to talk to anyone.

"I saw the video Shortie" Oh there it was, "Are you alright?"

Was I? I don't think I will ever be completely alright ever again.

"I think I'm better now. Considering everything."

"I think you were bad ass! A lot of people think that those kids were being dicks for no reason"

"I don't feel like a bad ass. I just feel like an ass."

People on the internet was being mean to Bear too. I had to stop reading the comments cause people were calling him an animal and a monster and me a really bad name for having a child with an alien. The original video was taken down, I think by Mr.Jack but the video is still there. You can't delete something from the internet.

"Listen Shortie! This is not the end of the world. You're going to pull though. If that video proved anything, it was that you are an awesome babysitter. People should beg you to work for them."

At least someone thinks so. That made me smile just a little.

"I would have given you a hug if you were here with me."

If I wasn't feeling so crappy, I would have been over the moon hearing him say that. Now though it just made me more sad now, I didn't deserve sympathy or pity from anyone. I just.....felt so small.

"I mean it Shortie. Don't be too hard on yourself. All you ever cared about is Bear's happiness. It's just sometimes things don't go our way."

That phone call did something that my mom or my sister couldn't do. It gave me hope. Maybe I could actually move on from this. It will always hurt me when I think about Bear. Remembering Bear made me tear up. How is my little Bear now? Is he alright? Is he eating fine? I picked up the teddy bear that Bear hated so much. It was so hard not seeing him everyday.

I figured I owe it to the people that still care about me, to get off my butt and try to get back on my feet. It was never that easy though.

I tried to update my CV but was stuck. What should I even put as my experience for the past four months?

Humiliating my employer's child in a public park and making him the talk of the internet?

Mom barged into my room so suddenly that I even cried out in surprise. She usually would knock before she entered.

"Madeline! Get your butt out of here. There's someone looking for you."

Oh no! Was it the police? I knew I was going to be arrested for child endangerment. I looked at my window to see if I could escape from there, but we live on the 8th floor, so that would never work. Beside that would just add to my charges.

"Madeline!" my mom called out again. I took a deep breath but that didn't help. I looked around the room for the last time because I was going to miss this when I go to jail.

I don't even like prison food.

"What are you talking about?"

I shook my head. "Nothing mom. Just ignore me."

When I went to the living room, I didn't find the police waiting for me. No it was worse.

It was Zenya.

"Oh! Hi....? Zenya .. Was there something you wanted?" Did I screw up something else? Without even being there?

"Yes actually. There is something important that you need to do."

I looked up at her. What was she talking about?

"You need to come back. Be Espath... Bear's babysitter again."

Wait. "What?" My mom cried out loud. It was nice knowing I wasn't the only one who thinks this was insane.

Zenya smiled. "You heard me."

"But I .... Bear ....." What was I even trying to say?

"But I messed up!" I plopped down on the sofa and covered my face with my hands.

"Well not really. I mean you did wrong. I know that. But I think my brother blew things way out of proportion."

No it was just enough proportion. I would have expected him to react more.

"I don't think Mr.Jack would like to have me back. I think he would have me arrested if I even think about coming near Bear again."

Zenya laughed. I didn't. It was not funny.

"Well he didn't find a better babysitter either. Bear didn't let anyone even come near him. There were like 5."

Bear knows I'm not there anymore?

"Is he alright?"

"He will be if you come back."

I hesitated. I wanted to scream yes! This was all I wanted and much more, but still ....

"Mr.Jack ..."

"Will not have a problem with it. You know what, come with me so you can hear it from him yourself."

Danger. Danger. That was a bad idea.

"He must be busy. Why don't I let him write me a mail?"

Zenya grabbed my hand and dragged me out the door. Boy, was she strong! She called out to my mom as she left.

"It was nice to meet you Mrs. Short"

I tried to stop hyperventilating on the entire ride to Mr.Jack's office. But I think I panicked a lot more when Zenya dragged me inside the office building. I was so frazzled that I didn't even look around and was begging Zenya to let me go so I can go and hide somewhere.

"Miss. Oban" Mr.Jack's assistant greeted us outside. His eyes widened when he looked at my face. Mr.Jack must have told him to keep a lookout for me. He began to speak but Zenya stopped him.

"Is he inside?"

"Yes, but he has a ...."

Zenya didn't bother to listen to anything else. She just barged into his office. Mr.Jack looked up from his computer and I hid behind Zenya, or tried to.

"What's going on here?"

I wished a hole would open up and swallow me right now.