*chuckles nervously* sorry I know I am updating later then my usual time. Also, Wattpad had been making me crazy with the whole notification and chapter publishing. I tried everything I am publishing this again here because I reallly wanted to publish today. I hope you get the notification even if I don't. Sorry! If you got confused. 

This quarantine have my sweet mom making me do all sort of cooking. So, today I made about 80 Shami Kabab which drained me a lot.

I still wanted to publish no matter what today so I wrote a longer chapter for you all and with a lot of feelings.

Thank you so so so much for all the love I am truly blessed with you all.

Happy Friday.

Hehehe I know most of it's is gone already. I hope you had fun.

Ok! Important question- is it just my mother or is everyone mom is making them do all the cooking and stuff?.

And did you look at my newest addition already "Shab-e-Hijr"?. How was it?.

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The next morning she was given her reception dress asking to be ready and her so-called husband so where in sight. His mother just glares at her when she came into her room telling her to behave herself.

She hasn't cried anymore.

Just like her family no one really cares about her getting ready and send a parlour woman again. She didn't even notice much this time as she headed downstairs to find him waiting for her.

That's a change.

He looks at her for a moment longer making her look anywhere but at him. Even if it's hard to say he was a handsome man with brown hair and contrasting black eyes and his soft beard and three-piece suit matches him giving him an amazing look. Not that she will ever say that to him.

"Are you going to stand there all day?". He snapped making her shriek because she was daydreaming about him

She shakes her head gulping following behind him sitting inside the car that was too silent and the type of silence that was awkward to say at least. She leans on the seat hissing because staying in one position last time pains her body now. Adding that the high heels that were killing her feet already. It was 9-inch heels and she wonders which enemy of the woman made it. She glares at her shoes feeling content about it making her smile.

"How come you look innocent but you aren't?". He voiced out bluntly

She clenches her hand on her dress taking a deep breath turning to look in his charcoal black eyes, "Maybe try looking at me from your own eyes instead of others".

The way his face morphs into anger made her feel scared yet she didn't regret her words. They have all accused her and blamed her for something she never did at least she can taunt, right?.

She didn't know but she felt bad that she was taking it out on him when her own family backed down. He was a stranger and have his own sister in question.

"I am sorry I didn't mean to be rude". She mumbles softly looking away and outside of the window

She heard him sighs but thankfully he didn't say a word after that. She starts to take steps inside without really paying attention to waiting outside for Aliya to enter with Huzaifa.

She looks at her heel hating them. When she heard it was her turn she starts to move forward to the hall when she feels someone holding her hand stopping her. She turns to find Omar standing beside her holding her hand and then starts to take steps along with her. She wonders briefly if he had taken her words into consideration and decided to give a chance. As they stop at the stage he moves forward giving his hand to her and she looks at it for a moment placing her small soft hands in his going on stage.

She looks at the people trying to find Hira who was the only one smiling and cheering at her making her smile.

"I only did what I did because of the people here. So, stick with me through the function. I have to introduce you to some people". He said ignorant

She feels her heart squeezing looking at Hira with a sad smile she accompanies him to whoever he wants her to meet with not really paying attention. She looks at her father talking intently with some of his friends as if feeling her eyes he looks at her and she bites her lips not wanting to cry.

"What do you do?". A woman who had been looking at Omar like he is a candy asked

She smiles extra sweetly, "I am a neurosurgeon in International Hospital".

The woman eyes widen with few more but she shrugged nonchalantly looking at a man who spoke business with Omar.

"How did you managed to have a place there must be your family influence". Another woman said making her turn to her

"Or even better hard work". She said bluntly covering her mouth after she said it

Someone she needs to really control herself now Omar will have her head for sure. She gulped turning to him opening her eyes one by one knowing he must be glaring at her. But he wasn't instead he looks at her with unfamiliar emotions turning back to his people.

The woman didn't bothered her anymore neither look at Omar walking away. She moves from feet to feet feeling numbness now getting to her and she hasn't had much food causing her to be weak.

She feels someone looking at her to find a man looking at her making her frown. She doesn't like the way his eyes were accessing her making her feel weird. She takes a step back moving behind Omar back to hide from the man peeking after a while to find him coming towards them so she holds the back of his coat not wanting to move.

"Omar, I never thought you will be married this soon. Won't you introduce me?". The man asked

She feels Omar trying to step away but she holds his coat tightly then he held her hand pulling her to stand beside him but she didn't look at the man.

"This is my beautiful wife Amina". He said shortly not even introducing the man

The man chuckled, "She is very beautiful indeed. I am Zafar".

She feels Omar wrapping his arms around her body pulling her to his side.

"We will be leaving now". Omar declared holding her hand walking to the exit in long stride making it hard for her to walk

"Can you please walk slow?". She said wincing at the death trap that she wore today

Not really expecting him to slow down she feels his hand loosen on her hand and his steps slow down making her release a breath as he matches her steps now.

"Wait". She heard Huzaifa voice making her stiffened

They stopped.

Huzaifa came in front of her and she didn't raise her eyes to look at him not that after her feelings were humiliated and disgusted like that. Huzaifa moves forward and she takes a big step back creating a bigger distance between them.

"I never thought of you more than a sister, Amina. I don't know why you did what you did but I have no feelings. I am in love with Aliya which is the only best thing happened because of you or maybe not". Huzaifa said throwing her heart under the truck without any remorse

She wanted to reply back but she didn't. It's not like anyone of them cares. She turns around leaving without a word calling Hira to come out too as she waits in the parking area. She saw Omar walking to stand in front of her and she didn't even spare him a glance waiting for Hira to come so she can leave.

"Aliya is not coming home today she will come tomorrow". Omar informed

She frowns nodding then she will just leave from the hospital to Hira orphanage.

"Let's go". Omar said walking to their car

She watches Hira coming asking about her because she didn't meet her the whole time and she informed her leaving quickly before Omar explodes. She watches Zafar coming her way and she runs towards where Omar stands watching his eyes narrow at her running to him then behind her as he straightened himself holding her hand before she can sit in the car pulling her to his chest. Her back remains to Zafar and she shrieks at the sudden action.

She looks at him as he looks at her intently then he brought his hand on her face she closes her eyes scared that he might hit her. But then she feels his hand on her cheeks caressing the soft skin with the back of his hand and his breath fanning on her face making her blush instantly. She bites her lips closing her eyes as he pulls her move to him leaning towards her ear.

"I will never hit you, Mahjabeen". Omar whispers hoarsely nuzzling his face in her hair inhaling her scent making her knees weak

Then he pulls back asking her strictly to sit in the car and she did because she wanted to escape as much as him. She calms her racing heart and her blushing face as he sits inside the car after a moment. She didn't look at him and she thought if being hit is bad or being heartbroken?.

She leans on the seat sighing tired hoping life comes without such hard problems. She heard her phone ringing looking at the notification she found a new case file sent to everyone to study. She immediately opens the file spending the time to read it through. She didn't pay attention to anything using her Samsung note S pen writing down her notes. She brings her feet on the seat unconsciously sitting crisscrossing looking at the reports attentively.

"AMINA". She heard someone scream making her Jerk hitting her head on the roof

She groans rubbing her head hearing snickering turning to look at her highly amused husband.

"What?". She asked confused

"We are home and I have been calling for few minutes you were too busy to listen". He said shutting the door hard walking away

She sighs walking inside the room after him running to the small couch-jumping on it removing the heels throwing them to the corner with a content sighs she closed her eyes with a smile to know she will never wear them again.

She feels someone looking at her and she opens her eyes to find Omar looking at her keenly.

She raises her eyebrows but the realise she throws her shoes in front of her making her blush as she looks away from his heated gaze. She heard the door closing and she releases a breath walking to her bags that her driver brought to take her Mickey mouse night suit waiting for Omar to come out for an hour.

She heard the door opening and he walks outside dripping in the water when he shakes his head the cold water droplets fell on her making her squeal. His eyes turn to her as she scrunches her nose looking at the water pool he made keeping her lips pursed. She feels the heat of another body raising her head to meet the charcoal eyes looking at her intently making her gulp. She looks at his wet face with droplets falling down to his naked body and she blushes with the close approximately looking down.

After a moment she heard him breathing heavily walking away but then she heard a loud thud and a groan falling. She looks at him on the floor holding her face she yelp running to look at his face or any injuries falling from the water on the ground screaming but he was quick to hold her waits pulling her on top of him wrapping his arms tightly around her still groaning.

Her eyes widen as she looks at him in pain because of her tears brimming her innocent eyes. She has never ever hurt anyone in her life not intentionally and suddenly she was hurting everyone now.

"What's wrong?. Why are you crying?. Are you hurt?". He asked cupping her cheeks looking for any injuries

She nodded then she shakes her head then nodded again wiping her cheeks as a tear falls down but he beat her to it clearing them as her lips quiver.

"I am sorry I hurt you I never hurt anyone but I hurt everyone. I am so sorry". She said her lips wobble as she tries to stop crying

He didn't say anything and she finds his eyes darkened looking at her eyes and then at her lips but she thought he was angry at her words so she tried to push herself away and he immediately let her go as she runs inside the washroom. She finds her face red by now and giggles to herself.

She changes walking out with her hair in a bun looking to find him on the bed with a painful look on his face. She went to her bag to find the pain relief bringing it to him.

"Sunae (listen)". She said softly grabbing his attention to hand him the pill, "This will help".

He nodded taking the pill laying down as she waits for some time then walks to the couch. Just as she sits she was deep in sleep.

The next day she was awake before anyone she quickly changes running out of the house thankfully her car was delivered so she could drive at any time. She enters her hospital to find her colleague/friends.

Arshad- is her head surgeon's son who is 19 but has a passion to become a surgeon like her and also married to a beautiful girl just a month ago- Moneerah.

Saqib- is 30 years old with a beautiful wife he found in college and an equally beautiful daughter. He is a humble and sweet guy.

Amir- is the head surgeon who is the one who selected and guided her many times.

Hira- is last but not the least her one and only friend at the moment.

Each one of them is like a second family to her. She has had many outing with them after many of their hard surgeries and meets their families.

"Ah, the bride is here". Arshad said grinning at her running to her, "I don't understand woman sometimes. My wife is just like you. The next day after our marriage she runs to her college leaving me all alone".

She laughs hearing his whine he does truly adore his wife, "That's just because we love something else too besides our husbands".

"Ooooh, so you love your husband?". Saqib teases making her blush as he laughs joined by other

"Obviously he is a handsome man". Hira joked

"I don't look for outer beauty". She joked watching other laughs

"Stay bless, beti". Amir said patting her head, "As much as I like us talking we have some important case and no, son (Arshad) you are not joining".

Arshad groans, "But Baba pleaseeee-".

"No". Amir said firm making him stomp his feet

"Fine. I will tell Ammi and I am leaving to kidnap my wife from her work to go out". Arshad said walking away fake angry making everyone laughs

They all adore him.

"How about we have lunch outside?". Amir asked as they walk in the cabin

Everyone agreed.

The lunch rolls in and they all gather in the hospital canteen because suddenly they have many cases to look at so they can't go out.

The day ended and she enters with Hira in her orphanage hearing the loud noises but she was too tired so she excuses herself to leave to the room.

The next day she enters inside his house walking inside to his room opening the door to find him pacing around making her scared when his eyes landed on her with predator steps he walks to her holding her hand pushing her inside with a shriek she met his chest.

"Where have you been?". He asked dangerously making her heart spike

She looks at him scared, "I-I- you told me Aliya will come yesterday so I went with Hira to her home from hospital".

He closes his eyes opening them this time looking at her darkly but he immediately takes steps back from her leaving her feeling cold.

"Next time leave me a message". He said walking out of the room

She prepares herself for the day dressing in a pretty dress because today was Arshad's birthday and he wanted to take everyone from their department to go out with him.

She didn't do much to her hair leaving them in their natural waves and a little touch up of makeup. She walks out of the room door when she collided with someone almost knocking down when he wraps his arms around her body pulling her tightly to him.

She watches a frown appearing on his beautiful sculpture face she feels the urge to remove them by her finger and unconsciously her finger move to his forehead strengthening the lines. He looks deep into her eyes and she feels her breathing hitched.

He steps back from her still holding her elbow as she has her stand on her feet. He accesses her from head to toe and she holds her hands together blushing a little at the way his eyes roam on her.

"Where are you going?". He asked looking directly in her eyes

I will not do any of my duties.

She frowns looking at him why was he asking for her whereabouts?. Didn't he said he doesn't want to deal with her?.

"My colleague birthday party". She replied after a moment not wanting to be rude

He nodded watching her leaning after the railing of the stairs as she decided it was best if she leaves before she becomes a puddle in front of him.

She walks inside the amusement park where Arshad decided to have his birthday. He was 20 now. She walks inside to find his wife she hugs her immediately.

"I missed you so much". She said pulling back and she giggles

"Sorry! My studies taking all my time". Moneerah replied smiling fondly

"And her husband". Arshad said making her blush as she hits his shoulder but he wraps his arms around her pulling her to him kissing her cheeks, "Woman, it's my birthday don't hit me at least today".

Moneerah blushes, even more, running to Hira making Arshad chuckle at her action.

"Isn't she cute?". Arshad said looking at his wife

"She sure is and you are one lucky man". She replied ruffling his hair

"That I am". He said smiling brushing hair back

"Happy birthday, mere chote bhai (my younger brother)". She said grinning at him

"shukariya Meri piyari behna". Arshad said dramatically (thank you, my sweet sister)

She giggles at his antics walking to join everyone else.

After spending a blissful day she enters inside his house giving her a pointed look but she immediately rushing inside the room closing the door leaning on it. But she smiles when she remembers the best day she spends and everyone laughter.

"Must be an amazing day". She heard his voice making her shriek

She looks at him biting her lips nodding going to the washroom to change into her mickey mouse suit again coming out to sit on the couch.

"Just sleep on the bed". She heard him say

She looks at him but he wasn't looking at her. She sighs holding her laptop walking to the other side sitting on the bed placing the laptop on her lap as she starts her case study.

She places her glasses leaning on the headboard reading everything intently and after a while, she feels her eyes getting heavier and sleep consume her.

The next day she finds herself in a duvet and her laptop on the table neatly placed. She shrugged the thoughts getting ready for her day. Beside her, all other fantasies breaking no one was able to take her goal of being a surgeon. Guess it is true that no one can steal knowledge and skills.

The next three months went by and a few interactions between Omar and her because she made herself stay at hospital late hours to avoid any sort of talking.

For the next three months which marks 6 months of their marriage, Omar was away from his business conferences and she decided it was best that she doesn't go his home at all shifting her needed things to Hira place to stay there peacefully.

The seventh month rolled in and she was back at his home with him still not back. She stays in his room because she was tired with the previous day's surgery wearing one of her night suits this time. Since she knows no one will disturb her here she holds her study book laying on the ground on her stomach reading it thoroughly.

She reads it with her utmost attention sometime scrunching her nose when she finds something hard to understand but then smile when she does. She feels cold air hitting her revealing part of the body and she blinks her eyes straightening herself by doing a little exercise to get rid of soreness.

She feels someone standing in front of her she frowns looking at Omar standing right in front of her. Her eyes widen and she thought maybe she is dreaming like she dreamt a few days back.

She takes a step forward ending the non-existing distance between them raising her hand to his cheeks feeling his sculpted face under her soft palm. She gasps taking a step back but he wraps his hands around her pulling her back securely in his hands hugging her tightly.

She numb feeling his strong hard body and his rapid heartbeat under her ear feeling some warmth around her.

"Y-You are real". She whispers in his chest

She feels his chest vibrate showing he laughs naughty making her blush instantly. He pulls back placing a strand of hair behind her ear cupping her cheeks.

"Did you miss me, MahJabeen?". He asked smirking at her

She bites her lips looking down wanting to shake her head but nodded playing with the button of his shirt.

She looks at his face and his lips almost turning into a smile. She gulped feeling emotions she never felt as she pushes herself away from him watching him frown. She collected her books with her shaking hands deciding to run outside.

"You are not leaving the room". He ordered making her shudder

He takes steps towards her in long stride making her back touch the door as he places his hand on either side of her leaning towards her and she closes her eyes.

"You are not going in front of anyone like this". He whispers huskily making her shiver

She remembers what she was wearing cursing herself watching him looking at her amused. She runs towards the couch sitting on it with her face in her book hiding her red face.

She heard the door closing and she releases a sigh. She will never wear these things again.

The next three month went in mostly having the same encounters and while she tries to hide everywhere possible he will always come there teasing her until she is full-on red. She avoided because her feelings start to get out of control now.

Today marks one year.

One year of her family never talking to her again. Beside her grandfather who health turned bad and she wasn't even allowed to meet him. He was the only one who calls her many times but she avoided it because it made her cry many nights alone in the bathroom.

Thankfully Huzaifa went for his honeymoon after his marriage and he found a project to work in the UK so he was there working it for a full year. Aliya never visited because she stayed with Huzaifa which was a little peace of her.

But peace didn't stay that long.

"My sister is coming to meet us today I don't want you coming in front of her. Am I clear?". Omar said stern

Her eyes brimming with tears just about to fall down her puffy cheeks as her innocent heart squeezes in pain. Maybe all the sweet moments were a lie.

She nodded meekly watching him looking at her for a moment then leaving immediately.

She falls down feeling her heart in a different kind of pain now.

Rejection.

She was rejected yet again.

She weeps for hours alone in the room feeling gloomy all over again. She quickly dresses herself to leave for the hospital not wanting to be in this house anymore. It suffocates her now.

She enters the hospital with her heart ripping with her every step. She heard the doctor at her floor running around screaming orders. Her breathing hitched when she found Uzma standing outside of the room.

Uzma is her parental house worker for a few years now and has a beautiful sweet 6 years old daughter- Mahira. Mahira became her world with her doe-eyes, kind heart and loving presence. She has spent so much with that child until a few months ago she was admitted in an emergency to the hospital.

She looks at the Mahira room where the doctor was running in and out making her heart stopped as she watches Mahira doctor coming out with the look that told her everything.

That sweet innocent angel was no more.