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Back to the present moment, Jin smiled as he remembered the night before. It was hot and fun. He was pretty much proud of himself. He needed this. He needed to be in charge for change. He was so sick of being at V's mercy. It was about time for him to release this tension he felt for quite some time. He felt free. Free to do what he wants.

Taking another deep satisfactory sigh, Jin got up and put his briefs and shirt on. He was looking for where the rest of his clothes were when Hwan came from the bathroom, dressed up, his hair still wet from the water. He gave Jin a small smile, greeting him and then went to his suitcase. There was an obvious limp in his walk. Jin wondered if he was too harsh on him last night. 

-'' I hope I didn't wake you.'' - Hwan said, rubbing his hair with a towel. He sat on the bed, wincing a little.

Jin narrow his eyes slightly at that and shook his head. -'' No, I woke myself up. How did you sleep?'' - Jin asked and Hwan sighed with a smile on his face, tossing the towel on the chair in the corner.

-'' Soundly...'' - He said. - ''After a very long time...'' - He added almost shyly. He lay on the bed again, images from tonight returning and he smiled.

Jin walked and sat on the bed next to Hwan. - '' You are limping.'' - He stated. -'' Did I hurt you too much?''

Hwan rose up on his elbows and nudge Jin with his knee gently, grinning. -'' No, not so much.'' - He says earnestly. - '' The pleasure was much...much bigger.''

Jin looked at him smirking. -'' Glad you enjoyed it.''

Hwan laughed and covered his face with his hands. -'' Fuck.'' - He chuckled. -'' If I only knew how good your dick could be, I would have let you fuck me often.''

Jin snorts, hiding his face to hide the embarrassment he felt. The confident and dominant Jin was gone as the Sun came up, and he was just shy Jin again.

Hwan laughed some more at Jin's discomfort. - '' Ah, your ears are still so adorably red when you are embarrassed.'' - He said affectionately.

Jin slapped his thigh. - '' Shut up.'' - He said without malice, which only made Hwan giggle again, pulling Jin to lie next to him. He kissed Jin's cheek and caressed his jaw and neck, eyes trying to absorb every curve and line of Jin's gorgeous face to his memory.

Their eyes met. The unspoken words were exchanged. There was longing and suffering, and then resignation.

Jin broke the gaze fist and stood up. - '' I'm gonna use the bathroom.''

Hwan watched him go and felt his heart ache for him. Tears filled his eyes and he took a few calming breaths, brushing the tears away.

 Hwan's phone starts buzzing. He reached to grab it, grateful for the distraction. It was a message, reminding him about the business meeting.

Jin returned after some time, refreshed after the shower and fully dressed. Hwan inwardly moaned at the sight of him. He was still hungry for him. His lust was probably shown in his stare, as his chest rose and fall rapidly because Jin came to him and straddle his lap. Hwan's hands went straight to Jin's waist and hips. He pulled him closer and their mouths found each other effortlessly.

The kiss wasn't very long but was deep and lovely. Jin moved first, leaning back, his lips swollen and kissable.

-'' You know what this is?'' - Jin asked gently.

And Hwan knew. Of course, he knew. It was a message. A farewell message. 

-'' A proper goodbye?'' - He asked sadly, his heart breaking all over again, and Jin nodded. 

Hwan knew that they could never be. Even though he was divorced, he could never be with Jin. He kept his straight image for his daughter's sake. He pretended he was straight by pretending to date women.

His ex-wife was true to her word and never said anything to anyone about his preference for male company. And he, in return, never cheated on her again while they were still married. But as these things never work out after such disappointment and betrayal, his ex asked for a divorce because she couldn't bare the thought that he lied to her all this time. Nor that he wants men more than he ever wanted her. She didn't want to be his public screen. So they signed the divorce papers and each left their own way, staying in contact only for their daughter.

But the thought of losing Jin after founding him again was agonizing.

-'' I missed you.'' - He said, bowing his head. He wasn't able to look Jin in the eyes. - '' I never stopped loving you.'' 

-'' Hyung.'' - Jin sighed, but Hwan didn't hear him. He continued.

-'' I know it's too late now, but...''

-'' Hyung.'' - Jin called a bit firmer this time, raising Hwan's chin with his fingers until their eyes met. - '' Enough.''

That's when the tears began to fall from Hwan's eyes and he scrunched his face. He buried his head in Jin's chest, wrapping his arms around Jin's frame as he shook from all of the emotion he felt.

-'' Hwan.'' - Jin called again, his body tensed.

-'' I know, I know.'' - Hwan quickly said. - '' Just for a little bit. Please, just for a little bit more.''

Jin let out an exasperated sigh but allow Hwan to hug him. 

Hwan stopped crying and was now snuggling his face in the crook of Jin's neck, taking in his scent deeply, memorizing it. He kissed the skin of his neck, palms splayed on Jin's back, pulling him close.

-'' Hyung.'' - Jin said it again, and pushed him softly away. He glanced at Hwan's sad eyes, and then his lips.

-'' Please.'' - Hwan whispered breathly, looking at Jin's lips as well. - '' Just one more. The last one.''

 And Jin was kissing him with both of his palms on Hwan's face. He kissed thoroughly, mapping his mouth with his tongue, feeling the softness of his lips on his, each shuddered breath when their tongues touched, craving for more.

Jin breaks the kiss again, leaning his forehead against Hwan's and breathing harder. - '' Enough.'' - He whispers back, and then stands up, moving away.

Hwan's outstretched hands that followed Jin, lingered in the air for a few seconds before falling down into his lap. 

 He watched Jin put on his shoes and jacket, feeling emptiness already. Still, he knew it was for the best, even if it hurts so much.

-'' I wish you to regain your memory again, Jin.''   - He said in an honest voice. Jin looked at him and nodded thanks.

-'' And I wish you to find happiness as well.'' - Jin says. - '' And love you deserve.''

 He was about to turn and leave when Hwan spoke again.

-'' I'm sorry for not helping you much.'' 

Jin stopped at that and looks at the man.

-'' You always hid your past from me.'' - Hwan continued. - '' I figured it must have been difficult because you would often space out and be very sad. I tried everything to make you feel comfortable and happy. I don't know what you did and where you were after the last time we saw each other, but I have heard of your name. It was mentioned a year ago. I'm not sure 100% if it was you they talked about, but you could imagine that any mention of your name would draw my attention.''

-'' What did they say about me?'' - Jin asked, very curious right now.

-'' It has something to do with some tattoo artist from your home. His name is Jisang or Jisung, I'm not sure. I've heard your parents sold your house after some incident with that artist, but I don't know what happened exactly. That's all I know.'' - He stopped, giving a bitter smile. -'' I didn't search more about the guy. I knew I would hate anyone you are with. It just made my insides scream in jealousy.''

Jin observed him silently for a moment and then bow his head slightly. - '' Thank you. That information is helpful, I could use it.''

Hwan smiled slightly at that and nodded in gratitude. Jin winked at him and went out, closing the door behind him.

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I am sorry for this short chapter, but I've been busy. Stay tuned for more =)