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Hwan woke up in the hotel room. His mind was still fighting sleepiness. He stretched in the bed, enjoying the feel of the sheets on his naked skin. His body ached, but it was a pleasant ache, the one filled with very good memories from last night.

He looked to his left at the sleeping figure next to him. Jin always looks stunning when sleeping. His skin was so gentle, but his body was strong at the same time. Hwan bit his lip, watching him. He remembered what Jin did to him last night, it was mindblowing. He never felt it like that before. 

The single thought aroused him all over again. He felt the same pull towards Jin, that unquenching thirst like he did all those years ago. The old weakness for his beauty and innocence rushed back in the same force as before. If he thought that something will change after all this time, he was mistaken. 

Looking at him sleeping now, Hwan saw that young boy he used to know, but remembering last night, he knew that this boy he knew long disappeared. 

He was sure of three things. First: Jin wasn't his baby anymore. Second: He never had sex like that before. And third: He still loves him.

In truth, he never stopped. If things were different before, if they were allowed to be happy, they would still be together. Hwan was sure of it. 

He looks towards the window. The curtain was slightly askew so the sunlight shined in. The room was quiet and peaceful. Only Jin's deep and slow breathing could be heard as he slept peacefully. So beautiful. Hwan thought with some gentle sadness.

He remembered Jin's face when he told them what happened between them. That they were lovers. He was so shocked and so adorable in his confusion, that Hwan had to use all of his strength not to take him in his arms right then and there and kiss him silly. He knew he shouldn't. He didn't think Jin would forgive him that easily, if ever.

When he saw him at that diner yesterday, he felt his heart leap with a force that took his breath away. At first, he thought that he was seeing things. Then he thought that the person just look like Jin, but seeing a spark of recognition in Jin's eyes, told him that it is him. After a long time, there he was more gorgeous than ever before. And as the night went by, Hwan realized that besides staying beautiful like before, he also became handsome and sexy. His moves, once so clumsy and adorable, were now smooth, naturally gracious, like a predator.

Hwan felt it. He felt where dominance lay between the two of them that night. Jin wasn't a young inexperienced eighteen-year-old boy he met in a bar and took his virginity from. No, this Jin was a grown man, who knew what he wants, and all Hwan could do, is to surrender to his mercy. He didn't stand a chance.

Hwan rose up from the bed, careful not to wake Jin and went to take a shower. He could barely walk. He still had time before his business meeting starts in a few hours. He hoped he would compose himself sufficiently enough to survive the work today. His mind was running in all directions, remembering what had happened before as the water ran down his back. He remembered the past so vividly. He doubted he would ever forget.

He thought about his life, and how it turned out. Things haven't changed a lot for him. He grew older and have a daughter that he adored now, but everything else was pretty much the same. He had a pregnant wife back then and he hid his sexuality from everyone, meeting stranger men occasionally and taking them to bed for one time only. It pretty much worked, until he met Jin. Jin was something else, he was a keeper and Hwan found himself deeply in love with the boy. He was not surprised when Jin revealed that he loves him back. He was young and innocent, craving love and intimacy very much. 

Hwan knew Jin suffered back then. He knew that something terrible had happened to him before but Jin was never willing to talk about it and so Hwan never asked. He was too busy trying to make the boy happy. He still remembered his laugh and warm personality. His heart ached when he lost him, but he had no choice. They manage to keep it a secret for four months until his wife found out. He was careless and she was not dumb as he thought she was. She threatened that she will tell his secret to everyone, his parents, friends, co-workers... and Hwan couldn't allow that. He was too afraid. She told him to break up with Jin and never to see him or any other man again and Hwan did what she asked. With his daughter on her way, and all the hate he would receive from his family and friends if they knew, Hwan buried his love for Jin, and with it the real part of himself.

He never meant to break Jin's heart, nor his own, but he had to. He remembers the screams of pain and suffering, begging and pleading not to do that. He will never forget how broken Jin looked that day when he ended all. He knew he was a coward, deep down, but he kept telling himself it was for both of their sake. Society doesn't take the ones who can't fit in their standards, and Hwan had a lot to lose. 

Jin was crying his heart out on the floor, beginning him not to leave him, and that he loves him, but he did anyway. He left because he knew he would never be able to leave him again if he stayed back then. He remembers running away from the hotel to his car, and only when he was some ten minutes away did he start crying uncontrollably. He never suffered as much as he did back then. And, he never saw the boy he loved again, until yesterday. It's been two and a half years. 

Hwan sighed, huffing the water from his mouth, wondering what's gonna happen next. Will the morning awkwardness, after the sex last night, come and ruin all, or would they act like all those years ago, as if they still belong to one another?

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Jin awoke with the sounds of a running shower and he remembered what had happened. He smiled and did the exact same thing Hwan did when he woke up, he stretched his limbs across the bed, sighing deeply. He thought about the night before, when they walked in the park, talking about the past.

As the conversation progressed and memories were shared, Jin managed to remember more and more of his life. He remembered the hurt feeling of abandonment and the pain of loss. He remembered the darkness and loneliness. Oh, yes, Jin remembered. He looked at Hwan and saw the longing and lust in his eyes. They were still there, even now, maybe even more.

Jin, on the other hand, felt nothing towards him anymore. His past didn't affect him as it usually does for other people, leaving a vivid reminder of their pain and suffering and banishing all the happy moments they have. In Jin's case, he remembered all, but the feelings weren't strong, even the painful ones. They were numb, non-caring. Still, he was grateful for those pieces of a missing puzzle. He was grateful to Hwan. Not for what he had done in the past, but for what he was doing for him now. Every detail he shared about their common past was cherished. They kept talking until late hours.

Jin checked his phone and saw a message from Yoongi, asking him if he came home and how is he feeling.  Jin replied that he had fun and went home to sleep. He then sent a different message to V, saying that he'll be staying with Jimin. Not exactly sure why, but Jin didn't want V to know about Hwan and his past with him. He wanted to keep that a secret. His secret. That bit of information about his past that he remembered was just his own. V had no right to have them. Jin decided. 

Still feeling nicely tired from the last night's exertion, Jin took a deep breath, savouring the air slowly. He glanced at the empty pillow next to him and remembered Hwan's strong handsome body from the last night. He chuckles at how much things have changed. 

Before, that body was bigger and stronger than his, bending him in whichever way it pleased. Now, however, they were similar in size and built, and this time Jin had the upper hand. 

Pretty soon after they left the cafe and went for a late stroll in the park, Jin's altitude shifted, it became more dominant, more confident, and if Hwan didn't notice that right away, by the end of the walk he knew. He knew with certainty that, if he wants Jin again, he will have to submit to him.

There was a certain spark, some playful wickedness, borderline with lust that awoke in Jin at that moment. That huge desire to hunt and seduce his prey. Just like V always does. The creates a lure for his victims and watch them hook. Jin wondered if he could do it as well. 

Hwan was telling him about his life, that his wife divorced him, but that his daughter was all he lived for, mentioning that he still works at the same job.  Jin didn't care about it. He never cared about other people in Hwan's life. He just wanted him for himself, for him to love him.

 Now, however, Jin just wanted him to shut up.

Waiting for the opportune moment when they were passing a part of the park where the light is a little dim, one of the lamps stopped working which created a perfect dark spot, hidden from others' eyes. Jin took Hwan's hand and pulled him off the path and onto the wall in the shadows. The man gasped, not expecting that, but said nothing as Jin pinned him against it with his body. Their mouths met and Hwan released a needy moan. 

Jin had no idea where he got this confidence, but everything was returning to him. With Hwan's story, not only a part of his memory returned but some skills as well. The muscle memory of Hwan's body. Like, what makes him shiver, and moan the loudest, came back so naturally.

The hands began roaming around, caressing and gripping each other, wanting more. Jin broke the kiss.

-'' Do you want me?'' - He asks.

Hwan's breath hitched at this. He never dreamed that Jin would kiss him, let alone sleep with him again. With his eyes wide, he nodded vigorously and breathed. - '' Yes, I still do. Always.''

Jin searched his eyes for any trace of dishonesty but found none, so he grabbed his hand again and they went towards the park exit.

They went to Hwan's hotel, and as soon as the door was closed behind them they were on each other again. The kisses became messier and touch hotter than before. Hwan kept murmuring into Jin's neck how much he missed him, how much he wants him still, that he will forever be his baby boy. Jin rolled his eyes at that, saying nothing, but he flipped them around so he was straddling Hwan's waist, kissing him hungrily.

He went to unbuckle Hwan's belt with steady hands, and then proceed to take it off. He took both of Hwan's hands and tied them up on the bedpost above his head.

Hwan smiled playfully. -'' Ah baby, you were always kinky.''

Jin just rose with a knowing smirk on his face and unbuckled his own belt.

He straddled Hwan's hips again, gridding his ass on the man's crotch. Hwan arched his head back, closing his eyes from the pleasan feeling he felt. His mouth were slightly open and small huffs of breath came out every time Jin pressed upwards. He could see on his closed eye, how eyeballs underneath roll up from pleasure. Jin smirked wickedly.

He took the end of the belt that he was holding and pull it through the frame of the buckle, making it a noose, which he placed around Hwans head. 

Hwan open his eyes and raise his head confused to look at Jin, and Jin use that momentum to slid the belt to Hwan's neck and then tighten the noose. 

Hwan's eyes wend wide with sudden panic, and he kept gasping for air. He tug at his hands bt couldn't move.

-'' Calm down, Hwan. I won't hurt you.'' - Jin said, and almost stop in amazement how much the tone of his own voice changed in that moment. It was cold and confident.

-'' B-baby, what...what are you doing? - Hwan asked alarmed and Jin cringed at the old nickname Hwan used to call him. He pulled on the belt and Hwan choked slightly.

-'' We are going to play Hwan ''- Jin said sweetly. - ''You are going to love it, I promise.''

He release the hold on the belt slightly, and Hwan took a needy breath. His body was still tensed, and he was panting nerviously.

-'' C'mon baby, be good.'' - Hwan croaked, struggling to recover the normal rhythm of his breathing, but Jin pulled the end of the belt again and Hwan instantly stopped moving.

-'' Don't you want me Hyung? - Jin asked, feining innocence, while rolling his hips. Hwan nodded his head.

Jin pulled at the belt. -'' Answer me.'' - His tone commanding.

-'' Y-yes.'' 

He loosens his hold a bit, and Hwan gasped for breath again, eyes still wide, only now more aroused than alarmed. Jin smiled. -'' Good.''

This newly found sensation of having someone all to your power was hot as hell. Is this how  V feels all the time? The bastard. He had to admit though, the feeling was so powerful and hot as hell. He could feel Hwan getting aroused under him, it was intoxicating.

Jin let go of the belt and started taking off his clothes. Hwan was mouthwatering when Jin began sliding his fingers on his now naked chest, flicking his nipples.

-'' Fuck... so gorgeours.'' 

Jin smirked. - ''I know.''  - He let his hands slid down across his stomach and onto his pants, unbuttoning it. He cupped himself across his briefs, letting a long and satisfied moan.

That was too much for Hwan, who buckled his hips upwards to meet Jin's, begging for friction to continue, but Jin put both of his hands on Hwan's hips, pinning them down.

-'' No, no, no... you don't move. I want you to enjoy in my way.'' - He bent down to kiss Hwan's lips.

- '' I want you to remember me...'' - He moved his lips across Hwan's jaw and onto his neck.

-'' Every time you kiss..'' - Jin spoke, leaning back so he could push Hwan's shirt out of the way, revealing a strong body underneath. It made him purr, as he raked his fingers across the muscles enjoying the feeling. Hwan's body was twitching, his nerves were tignling through his entire body. He wanted more. He neede more.

-'' Every time you touch...'' - Jin continued, bitting at Hwan's shoulder, provoking a hiss of pain and pleasure. - '' Every time you have sex...'' - His tongue grazed over the nipple, bitting lightly on it, and then he let his tongue slid down on Hwan's stomach, causing another moan.

Hwan was losing himself in these sensations. -'' Baby...'' - He calls again, but a harsh slap across his face jerked him alert again. 

Jin was glaring him from above. -'' Do not call me like that.'' - He said in a dangerous tone. -'' I'm not your innocent boy anymore.''

Hwan was in shock, not able to utter a word.

Jin, however, placed his fingers on Hwan's jaw, tightening his hold so the latter couldn't move.

 - Jin rose and slapped him across the face. Hwan was in shock.

-'' Do you understand, Hwan? - He asked pointedly.

Hwan nodded the best he could, quickly remembering. -'' Yes.''

Jin smiled satisfactoraly. - '' Good.''

-'' How...how can I call you then?'' - Hwan asked, careful now. He didn't want to piss Jin off.

Jin smiled. - '' Jin, of course.'' - His smile widen when Hwan nodded, eyes warm. -'' Now...'' - Jin said. - '' Let's have some fun.''

He took Hwan's pants and his boxers off in one swift move, leaving him naked and at Jin's mercy. He stared him deeply in the eyes that Hwan was shaking from anticipation. Jin's hands touched, caressed, and groped everywhere but on his leaking cock.

These unkonwn sensations Hwan never felt before, because none of his sexual partners was ever this thorough. No one cared for his pleasure this much. No one knew his body this good, not even his wife. No one. No one, but Jin, and Hwan wanted to cry.

Jin noticed this, palm cupping Hwan's cheek. He leaned to kiss him shortly on the lips before looking him in the eyes, his aura changing to something mischevious. He bends down to whisper in Hwan's ear, the breath dancing on the sweaty skin.

-'' I want you to scream my name tonight.'' - Jin says seductively as he suck on Hwan's neck.

Needless to say, Hwan did scream from pleasure that night. Oh, how did he scream.  

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This chapter was too long, so I cut it in two. It will be continued in the next one. I hope you like it and stay tuned.